Start of MissMaynard buffer: Tue Jul 09 02:53:14 2002
Session Ident: MissMaynard (MissMaynar@ZiRC-52672.accesscom.net)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Are you asleep already?
<MissSleepard> No, sir.
<MissSleepard> As always.  :)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I had a question, what instant messenger thingy do you use?
<MissSleepard> AIM/ICQ.
<MissSleepard> Manaraerae/6574535
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What's better?  I feel like permanently switching from MSN since 
  it doesnt work literally half the time
<MissSleepard> Hm.
<MissSleepard> Trillian. 
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Oh yeah, forgot about that thing.  Does file transfer work with it?
<MissSleepard> Yep.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Neat, I'll get it then
<MissSleepard> www.trillian.cc
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What is your nick from anyway?
<MissSleepard> Which?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> MissMaynard
<MissSleepard> oh
<MissSleepard> Uh, just because.  It's kind of old.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Weird, I can't make up random collections of syllables, always 
  have to find something.
<MissSleepard> I'm lonely.  Fuckity fuck.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Actually, I've noticed the same lately, 6 months of solitude is 
  about as long as I can go
<MissSleepard> I'm sorry to hear that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Well, it was technically by choice
<MissSleepard> It normally is.
<MissSleepard> But still.
<MissSleepard> I mean, sure, I could go fuck some street performer...
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'm actually competent in communicating with people now, if it was 
  a year ago and I talked to you I really doubt I could say more than "Hi... ummmm"
<MissSleepard> haha
<TorasaburoKobayashi> You do know that I'm terribly skinny, right?
<MissSleepard> You told me.
<MissSleepard> I think I'm fat, so what?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I don't know, my "body" isn't exactly accepted as being 
  anywhere near attractive.  It's a skeleton with some skin.
<MissSleepard> You have an attractive face.
<MissSleepard> I can't really tell what your body's like.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Well, from what I've seen and have considered to be 'normal', 
  I think I'm far from that.  Not anorexic, just bony, bones everywhere.
<MissSleepard> Eat more, then.  ^_^
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Can I ask you a weird ass question?
<MissMaynard> Of course.
<MissMaynard> I'd expect no less.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I have no other source of information for this, and anatomy 
  websites explain it too technically.  Is there more sensitivity in a female nipple 
  than a mans?  If so, what the hell is it like?
<MissMaynard> Yes, I think so..
<MissMaynard> It's almost painful, sometimes.  But I enjoy it for some reason...
<MissMaynard> A firm tug.
<MissMaynard> An assertive pinch.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'm just curious about how sensitive could it possibly be, and 
  if it bothers you just walking around having cloth against you
<MissMaynard> Supposedly and anatomically-soundly, it is.
<MissMaynard> Nah, you get used to simple contact.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Right, so more sensitive but nothing that can distract you
<MissMaynard> Yes.
<MissMaynard> It's like how circ's have less sensitivity on the head
<MissMaynard> .
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah, I was thinking about that comparison, because for me 
  right now even having the head contact moist skin is almost painful.  This 
  'getting used to' thing better not take too long.
<MissMaynard> Try rubbing the head when not aroused, making sure not to touch your 
  hand to the actual head.  Use the foreskin as a buffer.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> makes sense, I'll be trying anything because I'm tired of 
  having to fear all contact with it
<MissMaynard> Try it now.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> having problems with the 'not aroused' part
<MissMaynard> You're aroused?
<MissMaynard> Why?
<MissMaynard> I mean, you can try it when aroused...might even feel better.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I don't know, all this experimentation of late is "exciting"
<MissMaynard> You mean your thinking of ways to excite yourself excites you?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> also the fact that you're telling me what to do, I'm sure 
  that's also part of it
<MissMaynard> :)
<MissMaynard> I'm glad.
<MissMaynard> Look, here's the biggest thing:
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well, it's strange getting this from text
<MissMaynard> Just be animalistic...be primitive.
<MissMaynard> Do what feels good to you.
<MissMaynard> Not what someone else says is supposed to feel good.
<MissMaynard> Take comfort in that.
<MissMaynard> I masturbate in a way I doubt anyone else does...
<MissMaynard> And I used to be ashamed of it.
<MissMaynard> So I quit...
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Well, what you said about using the foreskin as a buffer does 
  feel pretty damned good
<MissMaynard> I've since accepted it, and enjoy the most amazingly strong orgasms.
<MissMaynard> :)
<MissMaynard> I thought it would.
<MissMaynard> Try the stroking motion...except hold your hand further from the 
  base...
<MissMaynard> so that when you lift up, your index and thumb tighten up the head.
<MissMaynard> Don't pull back the foreskin, either.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> right, I think I see the point of this, getting used to the 
  friction
<MissMaynard> Yes.
<MissMaynard> The foreskin seems like it could enhance the feeling of 
  surroundedness...
<MissMaynard> Does it feel nice?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah, I've never done anything before that wasn't just simple 
  masturbation, but this is like a small ammount of contact that's enjoyable and can 
  last much longer
<MissMaynard> Yeah...just sit back for a bit, relax...
<MissMaynard> Put up a nice picture of something that arouses you(Sonic, heh)...
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'm sure the keyboard doesn't appreciate my left hand doing 
  this
<MissMaynard> And just do what feels nice, not looking for a necessary end(climax).
<MissMaynard> You don't need to type anything for a while.
<MissMaynard> I'll wait. :)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I deleted all porn yesterday because I've grown to find it 
  sickening.  This may be a really awkward question but would it bother you if I 
  used your picture?  I hope this doesn't sound too fucked up
<MissMaynard> hah, whatever you'd like.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> that just seems like a stalker-ish thing to say, but doing it 
  without your approval would be even more weird
<MissMaynard> I'd be amazed if that helped any, but feel free.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'm not looking for anything specific within the pictures, 
  it's just more personality to the thoughts
<MissMaynard> Again...I'd be amazed.
<MissMaynard> And, that's very cool that you don't enjoy porn...neither do I.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I was just messing around with the foreskin, could get it back 
  as far as I did yesterday which is almost to the normal position.  Just a week ago 
  I wouldn't even dare to think of doing that.
<MissMaynard> That's good to hear.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> it's surprising to find out that there's probably nothing even 
  wrong with it, just lack of contact and stretching which can be helped
<MissMaynard> I think so.
<MissMaynard> Maybe we should have these conversations more often.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> sure, I don't recall ever being this interested in sitting at 
  the computer.
<MissMaynard> haha
<MissMaynard> What are you trying out now?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> can I ask you about your "strange" method of masturbation?
<MissMaynard> Well, it's sometimes embarassing to talk about it...like now...
<MissMaynard> Promise not to tell people?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> you don't have to tell
<TorasaburoKobayashi> ofcourse I wont, I kind of hope the same from you
<MissMaynard> Of course.
<MissMaynard> Okay then.
<MissMaynard> I lie on my stomach...
<MissMaynard> And I keep my arms under my body, so that my fists are touching, at 
  around my clitoris...
<MissMaynard> After that, it's a bit of a hip gyration...
<MissMaynard> Purely clitoral(stronger, better) climax...
<MissMaynard> Also, this technique leaves me very tight for when it would matter.  :)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah, may seem "unusual" but it's nothing anywhere close to 
  weird
<MissMaynard> Fingering does nothing for me...
<MissMaynard> I have toys, but again...they're not very effective.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Right, and I can't imagine the use of anything designed for 
  males either, cumbersome and pointless since everything needed can be done more 
  effectively by hand
<MissMaynard> Exactly..
<TorasaburoKobayashi> That's nice to know that you can actually do whatever feels 
  best for you now that you're over hesitating because of it being 'weird'
<MissMaynard> Yes, I hope you'll do the same.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> that statement seems unorganized, could probably use some comas
<MissMaynard> I mean, if conventional things work, that's fine too.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> also, seriously don't worry about me telling anyone anything, 
  first of all I don't even have anyone to tell it to, plus there's alot of respect 
  involved here
<MissMaynard> That's mutual.
<MissMaynard> I just really want to help you.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Well, I appreciate and enjoy the help
<MissMaynard> Shall I wait for you?  I don't mind...
<MissMaynard> In fact, it's arousing.  To be perfectly honest.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I was just about to stop right now
<MissMaynard> Aww.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> have to put some stuff away, my bed is covered with clothes, 
  reciepts, books, and various other crap
<MissMaynard> Oh...okay.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I usually get too lazy later at night and just brush it all 
  off onto the floor and fall asleep
<MissMaynard> So, you're done for the night?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> but I'm not normally that filthy
<TorasaburoKobayashi> no, just had to get that done
<MissMaynard> ohhh
<MissMaynard> Okay.
<MissMaynard> go go go
<MissMaynard> Hurry.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> just did
<MissMaynard> You're fast.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> instead of floor, half the crap is now in a cabinet
<MissMaynard> hah, whatever works.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> This looks weird having me sit around like this, no real 
  privacy in this house
<MissMaynard> It's 2 in the morning for you, though.
<MissMaynard> Don't worry about that.  Just be quiet. 
<TorasaburoKobayashi> That's strange though, if you say that clitoral stimulation 
  works best for you, wouldn't normal intercourse fail?
<MissMaynard> No...it's harder to climax, but I can.
<MissMaynard> At least for females, mental stimulation is significant.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Oh, makes sense, it would probably be different for me too 
  since all the friction isn't focused right under the head
<MissMaynard> I don't really feel the *need* to orgasm during sex, though.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> with a picture of you it is alot more interesting, every 
  sensation has alot more personality and with enough imagination it's practically 
  face to face
<MissMaynard> Did you save my pictures?
<MissMaynard> Which are you using?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> just random ones out of the mirc download directory
<MissMaynard> Oh.
<MissMaynard> I was hoping you enjoyed a certain one or something.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think it was 316 mostly, since I'm assuming it's the latest
<TorasaburoKobayashi> this is exactly what I was missing earlier when trying this on 
  my own, porn practically disturbs me, and solitude seems boring.
<MissMaynard> Here's one of the even more recent ones...
<MissMaynard> Well, of course, you want someone there interacting with you.
<MissMaynard> Understandable.
<MissMaynard> That was me lying down on one of my pillows.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> oh, that's what it seemed like, a laying down angle
<MissMaynard> Is that one any good?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> it was one you sent me last time, since it over wrote
<MissMaynard> Oh.
<MissMaynard> Sorry.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> you say 'sorry' in a very...  "normal" manner, this isn't 
  criticism or anything, I'm just used to ignoring that word even exists.  It sounds 
  too sincere for small things, so I save it for when it's worth saying
<MissMaynard> I say it when I feel it's worth saying.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think I've noticed you doing that once or twice before, I 
  see it everywhere, just never comment on it.  Hope this doesn't sound rude, just 
  saying what comes to mind
<TorasaburoKobayashi> it's just a word that's normally accepted in the way that you 
  use it.  I think I'm being weird for letting it have too much meaning
<TorasaburoKobayashi> sooo... nevermind all that
<MissMaynard> It doesn't mean much in the channel...
<MissMaynard> But it does when I'm alone with a person.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Makes sense, I just have (more like had) this weird idea to 
  reserve it for incredibly sincere things.  "Sorry, I drove my car through your 
  house"
<TorasaburoKobayashi> and just replacing it with "damn" for every other occasion, 
  seems more like a rude habit
<MissMaynard> Yeah.
<MissMaynard> Okay...so.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> ummm ... I need to clean up right now, glad I had a paper 
  towel roll laying here...  didn't think I would end up using it though.
<MissMaynard> Good luck with everything we spoke of.
<MissMaynard> wow.
<MissMaynard> Really?
<MissMaynard> How was it?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> that's what I was thinking might happen since there is more 
  personality this time
<TorasaburoKobayashi> hard to describe but it almost gave me goosebumps, this huge 
  'cold' sensation
<MissMaynard> Good or bad?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Good, it was alot longer than I remember it, since I haven't 
  tried since around may
<MissMaynard> Hm.  Interesting.
<MissMaynard> Have you found new techniques that please you?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> and atleast I don't feel like shit the way I used to, that 
  wave of pseudo-depression once the hormones wore off.  I don't feel like it's 
  anything to regret doing
<MissMaynard> I'm very glad to hear that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> the begining, just playing around for a while beforehand is 
  even better than just doing it normally
<MissMaynard> Let's hope this isn't just a one-time deal, then.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I was referring to what you described about rubbing the head 
  with the foreskin, also right now after alot of friction it's not 'painfully' 
  sensitive
<MissMaynard> Right, I know.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> there isn't this dryness feeling like normal
<MissMaynard> I was speaking in general.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> oh, I don't think I'll be able to let it be a one-time deal
<MissMaynard> That actually made me smile.
<MissMaynard> Well, I need to go to bed.  Work tomorrow and all.  Have a good night, 
  Andre.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What I mentioned earlier about the lack of that "depression" 
  (not literally, just the closest term I can think of) after masturbating makes 
  thinking about the experience actually pleasant, and not describing it as a waste 
  of time
<TorasaburoKobayashi> good night
<MissMaynard> Oh, in case I spoke too quickly, my name's Amanda.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah, I remember.
<MissMaynard> Oh, good.  And I hope you enjoy it(the experience) from here on.  
  Sleep well.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> you too
<TorasaburoKobayashi> and thanks for letting the experience happen in the first place
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'll stop writing now, goodnight.
End of MissMaynard buffer    Tue Jul 09 02:53:14 2002