Session Start: Mon Jul 08 02:13:07 2002
Session Ident: MissSleepard
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Are you doing anything?  Did you get to see the weird ass deformation drawing?
<MissMaynard> No.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> which question?
<MissMaynard> Both, mainly.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I see, so you need it again?  I don't know if it's phimosis or a shortened frenulum, or both.
<MissMaynard> Sure.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> http://207.191.50.22/it.gif guess the problem, win a cookie?
<MissMaynard> Is that as far back as you can pull it?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yup, there is some pain, very minor once I get to that area, so I don't pull it further.  And I don't 
  know if it's from the frenulum stretching (because it's really stretched out at that point) or foreskin being too tight.  
  Also another terrible experience with it was pulling the foreskin back when it isn't erect to a normal position, yet 
  instantly comes an erection and about 5 seconds before shit starts ripping tearing hurting or stretching.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> So I had to pull it back forward before it started to 'grow'.  Quite scary
<TorasaburoKobayashi> That might not make much sense
<MissMaynard> I understand.
<MissMaynard> Hm.
<MissMaynard> Is the pain circular on the head or on the underside?
<MissMaynard> How long is it?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think circular, like a stretching sort of 'pain', although it's barely pain, I'm just too afraid to 
  force it further into becoming pain
<TorasaburoKobayashi> long, what the whole thing?
<MissMaynard> Maybe you should just once, to see.
<MissMaynard> Yeah.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> when it's erect it's 7 and 1/2"  this is fucking retarded because the skin isn't as long as it at that 
  point, causing a strain on the frenulum if it's pulled back.  Hard to describe with words.
<MissMaynard> I think I see.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I hate frenulums, alot.  There aren't supposed to be 'flesh loops' in nature, that's like having your 
  arm be connected with your body at the elbow, although that's a hell of an exageration, it's still an awful anatomical 
  attribute.
<MissMaynard> I know.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I didn't even think such a thing could exist, and thought my skin kind of 'fused' with itself at that 
  point because of an infection or something. so I tried cutting the frenulum in half with a razor, but once the blade 
  touched the skin I couldn't do it anymore... awful sensation.
<MissMaynard> :(
<MissMaynard> Maybe you should get cut.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> circumcision? the entire thing?
<MissMaynard> Maybe.  :-/
<TorasaburoKobayashi> if that's what you mean, hell no, I would never even consider it.  I need an "incision" just to cut 
  the frenulum, because in some cases it rips apart anyway
<TorasaburoKobayashi> and that would probably be the case with me, and I'm not very interested in this 'ripping apart' 
  concept
<MissMaynard> Ah, well if that's possible, of cours.e
<MissMaynard> course.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I only know about it from this site though.  http://members.lycos.co.uk/origins/frenulum_treatment.html
  #start
<TorasaburoKobayashi> "FRENULOPLASTY" is an alternative treatment which is just as disturbing as circumcision.
<MissMaynard> hmm.
<MissMaynard> Well.
<MissMaynard> Can I help?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> yeah there's a lack of "interest" to do anything with it, which is a mental thing unlike the previous 
  problem.
<MissMaynard> What, if anything, turns you on?
<MissMaynard> What has recently?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Porn seems to bring out several elements, such as pity, frustration, and mild depression.  Quite the 
  failure.
<MissMaynard> Other things.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Can't think of anything...
<TorasaburoKobayashi> A few months ago it was just 'something to do'.  Didn't have any other reasons to.
<MissMaynard> Would any female be able to, you thinK?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I know I'm still technically "straight", I just have more interest in everything other than actual sex 
  itself.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> So that would be a 'yes'
<MissMaynard> No...
<MissMaynard> Would any female be able to make you think of enjoying being inside her, hearing her moans, feeling her hands 
  wrap tightly around your biceps...
<MissMaynard> What do you like in women?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Actually yeah, the 'close' aspect seems very interesting, I think that's the "turn on" then, 
  everything that comes with actual sex.  My problem is lack of interest in an orgasm, it's like I'm only neutral to that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> if that's the incentive for masturbation, which I think it is
<MissMaynard> Sex without orgasm is fine.
<MissMaynard> It can even be great.
<MissMaynard> It annoys me when the first thing people think of when they hear "sex" is "orgasm."
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah, so what I was bitching about earlier is just attempting sex in solitude, which I have no 
  interest in.  Other than that I guess I'm "normal"
<MissMaynard> Pleasing yourself, whether or not you make a mess, is still pleasing yourself.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think the interest of that wore off since I started doing it sometime around 7th grade
<MissMaynard> Then don't.  I see no problem with that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well then, I guess it's not a problem.  That's what I was trying to figure out earlier today, if it 
  was somehow necessary, or was I missing some interesting aspect of it that I might have forgotten about.
<MissMaynard> Can you voicechat now?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I can't in the evenings, we have a small apartment.  My mom lives here with a roommate, don't want 
  them listening to me.
<MissMaynard> What if you're quiet?  We could talk privately.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well, she sleeps on this living room fold out bed thing, with her head about a foot away from my door. 
   I've woken her up before by simply walking around or turning the computer on.
<MissMaynard> ...damn.
<MissMaynard> There's no way?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Nope, not even worth trying, I know she could hear whispers, and that would just be awkward
<MissMaynard> kk
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I can talk during the day though, there's no one here until 8pm your time.  central right?
<MissMaynard> Yes.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What do you do with the majority of your time?  Seems like sitting on the computer, but how do you 
  entertain yourself?
<MissMaynard> Hm.
<MissMaynard> I work a lot...
<MissMaynard> I do stuff, sometimes.
<MissMaynard> When it's schooltime, I'm very busy.
<MissMaynard> What about you?
<MissMaynard> Are you terribly busy?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I started homeschooling 6 months ago, this means about 3 hours of homework per week.  Other than that 
  it's 70% sitting on my ass playing videogames or reading forums, and 30% sitting around at park benches, bus stops, 
  anywhere just reading
<TorasaburoKobayashi> No, was about to take a shower in a few minutes
<MissMaynard> Ooh, let's chat about books.
<MissMaynard> Oh, are you Human2.0?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> ummm, no.  Sharkface also suggested that earlier, which I find disturbing
<MissMaynard> Yeah, he's still claiming you are.  He's a fag.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Also I don't know shit about books, I've been reading "Hyperspace" for quite a while, before that it 
  was "The new communist manifesto" which I didnt understand much of, was just some weird biased rant.
<MissMaynard> Ah, okay.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I read slowly, stopping to think or draw.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Those two books were seriously the only things I have read in years, but I only started reading a few 
  months ago.
<MissMaynard> Ah.
<MissMaynard> Hm.  What do you find sexy?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> physically... hard to describe
<MissMaynard> I didn't ask for physical attributes.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> oh, again I'm still with the mentality that anything relating to sex has to be physical
<MissMaynard> Not necessarily.
<MissMaynard> I mean, it is physical gratification...
<MissMaynard> And aesthetics are important, sometimes...
<MissMaynard> But what is sexy to you?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> thinking, kind of a having problems putting thoughts into words
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I mean, I'm thinking about answering your question, I don't find the above statement 'sexy'
<MissMaynard> Okay, hm.
<MissMaynard> Have I done anything you deem sexy?
<MissMaynard> If not, have I gotten close?
<MissMaynard> If not, what have I done wrong?
<MissMaynard> This may help you to communicate your ideals.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> the term 'sexy' is basically foreign to me, do you mean attractive?  mentally/physically
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well, if you do mean attractive by that, then I do find your straight forward personality very 
  attractive, the obvious hint at intelligence since you're ahead academically, and ofcourse your appearance, I can't 
  explain what exactly is attractive about what I've seen of your face, but I know I like it.
<MissMaynard> :)
<MissMaynard> I'm glad to hear that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> also the ability to just discuss anything without hesitation seems too good to be true.  Maybe YOU'RE 
  Human2.0 because females like you don't seem to exist
<MissMaynard> haha
<MissMaynard> I exist...
<MissMaynard> I think.
<MissMaynard> Hm.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I hope you do
<MissMaynard> I just don't get offended easily, and don't enjoy pretending to.
<MissMaynard> I like that about you, also.
<MissMaynard> Have you ever read Stranger in a Strange Land?
<MissMaynard> If not, please do.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I've been trying to avoid my usual verbal hostility when I have a difference of opinions with someone. 
   That used to be a big problem for me
<MissMaynard> It's by Robert Heinlein.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Nope, but I'll write it down right now, I'm almost done with 'Hyperspace' and needed something new 
  anyway
<MissMaynard> Sweet, I think you'd love it.
<MissMaynard> You remind me of Michael Valentine Smith.  :)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Is that a character in the book?
<MissMaynard> The main.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> interesting
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I have to go take a shower, still covered in chlorine
<MissMaynard> hah, k.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Damn that took way too long, I was trying to see if it's a foreskin problem or not
<TorasaburoKobayashi> so yeah, I just stood there for 30 minutes looking around
<MissMaynard> hehehe
<MissMaynard> I wish I could help somehow.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I don't even know if I have a problem at all right now, I was able to get the foreskin back further 
  than before, and... this is just weird it was like there was alot more length to the skin that's connected to the 
  frenulum.  And I was able to get the underside back further than the top, every time I try it I'm able to get further 
  back, so I guess I should keep 'stretching' it.  Can't believe how little I know about it, find out new things almost 
  every day.
<MissMaynard> Hm.
<MissMaynard> That's good, then.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think, but everything under the foreskin is incredibly sensitive.  It's a similar sensation to awful 
  things like touching the inside of your eyelid, if you've ever done that.  It's not pain, but... just weird.
<MissMaynard> I know.
<MissMaynard> That's how most uncircs are.
<MissMaynard> That makes it more fun.  :)
<MissMaynard> So, you've never had a sexual experience?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> nope
<MissMaynard> Aww.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> like I said, closest contact to a female ever was that forced hand holding thing
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What about you?  I'm assuming you have since you seem very social.
<MissMaynard> I have, yeah, but I'm not promiscuous or anything.
<MissMaynard> I know more from wanting to be amazing than from actually doing anything.
<MissMaynard> :)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> This isn't related to anything, just comes to mind.  About a year ago I had this mentality that I 
  didn't respect anyone who wasn't a virgin, then that wore off because the idea behind it was retarded in the first place, 
  plus I know that if I was simply brought up in even a slightly more social manner I would have ended up doing it myself.
<MissMaynard> Maybe so.  :)
<MissMaynard> Please respect me.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I actually do, which is strange because I have a very cynical perspective on people.
<MissMaynard> As do I.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What kind of personality do you dislike the most?
<MissMaynard> hm.
<MissMaynard> Hmm.
<MissMaynard> An in-your-face one.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> what does that mean exactly?
<MissSleepard> Hm.
<MissSleepard> I dislike people who always must be doing something with you or to you to get your attention.
<MissSleepard> I like to be more laid back..
<TorasaburoKobayashi> oh, makes sense
<MissSleepard> Oh, btw, I'm supposedly asleep, but I'm not.
<MissSleepard> So, feel free to continue the conversation.  I was just getting tired of voicechat.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> oh, alright
<MissSleepard> Again, laid-back. 
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I believe this is a very 'standard' question, but what are your favorite movies?
<MissSleepard> Hm.
<MissSleepard> A Clockwork
<MissSleepard> Reservoir
<MissSleepard> Memento
<MissSleepard> Pulp Fiction
<MissSleepard> umm
<MissSleepard> Neverending Story
<MissSleepard> Labyrinth...
<MissSleepard> 2001
<MissSleepard> hm, a lot.
<MissSleepard> You?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Still havent seen Clockwork, nor neverending story or labyrinth.  But the other ones you mentioned are 
  definately favorites
<MissSleepard> :)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I still hold Gummo and Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas above all others though.
<MissSleepard> You should, you should, you should.
<MissSleepard> Yes. 
<MissSleepard> Thompson. yes.
<MissSleepard> Gummo?
<MissSleepard> I think I've heard of that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> it's almost a documentary on white trash America
<MissSleepard> We can't stop here!  We're in Bat Country!
<TorasaburoKobayashi> seems exagerated as hell, but isn't
<MissSleepard> Ah.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> it's a comedy, although has some disturbing things in it
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well, not an obvious comedy, but drunk white trash wrestling kitchen furniture...
<MissSleepard> heh, k.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I forgot about Thompson completely, his was the third book that I've been reading lately, I read 
  through most of it anyway, was a collection of telegrams he had sent throughout his life.  Don't remember the title
<MissSleepard> Ah, cool.
<MissSleepard> I have a huge fucking Fear poster in my car.
<MissSleepard> It's going up in my apartment, yay
<TorasaburoKobayashi> You live on your own, or moving out?
<MissSleepard> Currently with the parents.
<MissSleepard> Getting the apartment in a few weeks.
<MissSleepard> Why is your mother on the couch?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> We're kind of bankrupt right now, that's why we have a roommate.  She gave up her room to share the 
  rent.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> 2 bedroom apartment
<MissSleepard> Ah, okay.
<MissSleepard> Do you ever let her have your room?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> although we're never really "broke", and she never acts like it, was just in france a few months ago, 
  and is always buying furniture from Ikea
<MissSleepard> heh
<TorasaburoKobayashi> she uses the closets and stuff since she owns alot of crap, and decorated half of it
<MissSleepard> So, she's a heavy spender?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I have fancy futuristic candles all over my damned room along with framed photographs of Paris
<TorasaburoKobayashi> seems like it
<MissSleepard> Does she work?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah, she's been stuck as a manicurist for a while, trying to get into some Pharmaceutical school or 
  something, since that's what she used to do before we moved to the US
<MissSleepard> Ah, I see.
<MissSleepard> Well, sorry for prying.
<MissSleepard> I'm just interested.
<MissSleepard> Swat me off if I get too annoying.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> you're not 'prying', I need SOME kind of human contact
<MissSleepard> haha
<MissSleepard> Well, you can do that in the public channel...
<MissSleepard> So, you do have other options.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> You seem more interesting than Sharkface
<MissSleepard> For some reason, I can believe that.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'm kind of overwhelmed by your "maturity" (Can't think of a more appropriate word, but close enough)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'm jealous
<MissSleepard> Don't be.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> college, car, apartment
<MissSleepard> Feel free to ask me anything...and you're more mature in other ways.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well, instead of being jealous I'll try to get off my ass, finish school and get a damn job in the 
  meantime
<MissSleepard> Good!  If I can inspire the littlest snippet of that, I'll feel good.
<MissSleepard> You seem to be fucking brilliant, and I'm sure you can do just fine.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I just adjusted the contrast on your picture and made it more clear to get a decent look, hope you 
  don't think that's awkward.
<MissSleepard> hah, of course not.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> god some decent results since it was so dark originally
<MissSleepard> I have others, if you absolutely need.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I'd like to see more, hope this isn't offensive, but it's really unusual for someone to look as 
  attractive as you and actually be this intelligent.  I keep getting these stereotypical statements, one after another, 
  although they are sincere.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> not getting, I mean making
<MissSleepard> haha
<MissSleepard> Hm, which ones have you seen?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> the fence one, your current webcam thing, and the hobo one
<MissSleepard> kk, get ready for a bunch.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> neat
<Torasaburo-Kobayashi> Damn, was disconnected again, did I miss anything?
<MissSleepard> Nah, I'll resend.
<MissSleepard> /ns ghost Torasaburokobayashi passs
<MissSleepard> password
<Torasaburo-Kobayashi> oh
<MissSleepard> Now, /nick TorasaburoKobayashi
<MissSleepard> And then enter your pass with /ns identify pass
<Torasaburo-Kobayashi> ok, thanks
<MissSleepard> K, that's all.
<MissSleepard> Phew.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> damn that's alot, one second, closing windows
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Wow, never knew they even made action figures of ... forgot name of show, haven't watched television 
  in 2 years
<MissSleepard> Space Ghost/Cartoon Planet.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> oh yeah
<MissSleepard> They just started.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> angles can make people look different, I think you actually look asian in cap_308
<MissSleepard> ahaha
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I remember being amazed when seeing the side of my head for the first time, I had no idea my nose was 
  that pointy
<MissSleepard> HAHA
<MissSleepard> oops
<MissSleepard> no caps.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> What's on your tongue in that box-licking picture?
<MissSleepard> I have a tongue stud...
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Oh, how the hell did it feel getting it?
<MissSleepard> Fine.
<MissSleepard> The worst part was the achy healing process, but that wasn't bad.
<MissSleepard> It's coming up its year anniversary.
<MissSleepard> up = upon
<MissSleepard> I love it, though.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> that's hard to imagine what it feels like
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I have a habit of always carrying this tiny metal screwdriver in my mouth, but never anything attached
<MissSleepard> It's ...excellent.
<MissSleepard> Very sensual/sexual.
<MissSleepard> Oh, you must get it then.
<MissSleepard> You'll thank me.  (if only with...ahem)
<TorasaburoKobayashi> it would be really hard, my tongue is short
<MissSleepard> Hm...is your webbing very close to the tonguetip?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Yeah
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I just tried, I can't stick my tongue out further than half an inch.  Boredom is fantastic.
<MissSleepard> Damn.
<MissSleepard> heh.
<MissSleepard> Well, do you think you could please a girl?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think so, although I have very little knowledge on what to do
<MissSleepard> Well, if you can, you can.  Practice won't change that too much.
<MissSleepard> It's mainly about the mentality...
<MissSleepard> Being able to love/care for/strive to please someone badly enough...
<TorasaburoKobayashi> well I know I'm capable of that part
<MissSleepard> You should be fine then.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> you have nice lips, kind of unusual, the corners
<MissSleepard> Is that a bad thing?
<TorasaburoKobayashi> no, I said 'nice'
<MissSleepard> heh, okay...sorry.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> how long have you been with SA?
<MissSleepard> Hm...I registered in 12-01, but have done IRC since about October, and have read the site for at least a year 
  and a half.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I've had forum accounts since about september of last year, but haven't been competent in the skill of 
  not-getting banned until this month
<MissSleepard> hahaha
<MissSleepard> I'll help with that, if you like.
<MissSleepard> Hopefully, I'm doing an okay job so far.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> I think I'm fine now, just had too much of an influence from other various moronic forums
<MissSleepard> Ah-hah.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Also the fact that I was an ignorant wigger over a year ago doesn't help
<MissSleepard> hahah
<MissSleepard> That sucks.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Really, as low as it gets, absolutely no interests in science, reading, anything.  Just graffiti, a 
  little art, and trying to look like a gang member.
<MissSleepard>  ick
<TorasaburoKobayashi> ick indeed
<MissSleepard> I'm glad you changed.
<MissSleepard> I think I'm going to masturbate then go to bed, unless there's anything else?  Feel free to ask.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> Nah, my head is kind of empty right now
<MissSleepard> Sounds good.  Sleep well.
<TorasaburoKobayashi> you too
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