07/07/17 I am still not doing okay - What the fuck is wrong with Me?

JSGOTI

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As it stands, this is the first instagram post from Phil since Daddy Rape Day, and its suffice to say that SOMETHING is really getting to the spud, especially when he's this crestfallen and depressed, despite being about to go and get more tattoos.

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CW Depression, Suicidal ideation

I am still not doing okay.

I can't even motivate myself to complete putting together the dresser I got yesterday. It's out of the box but not together at this time.

For the last couple of hours I feel like I am not wanted in this world. Suddenly crying and wanting to die.

I am not supposed to be feeling that way - like I have a trip in three days to Oakland. I should be able to be happy that I am going to be away from Portland for a short time and get tattooed
What the fuck is wrong with Me?
 

Ravenor

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@Ravenor any idea what's got Phil so upset?

I love when he has these moments of clarity, that he's not wanted in the world.

Torren's been extra vicious of late, he's getting called out by people and he's not getting any attention. It's starting to dawn on Him that his life sucks in some very fundamental ways and he's feeling more lost than usual and he can't work out why.
 

Ray Streip

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Definitely a moment of clarity, he's realizing that he's been alleviating the nagging emptiness of his own existence by treating himself to useless crap but he's reached the point where even his latest impulse purchase ain't doing shit: this is where some people snap out of their funk and try to work on bettering themselves.

Shame that Phil isn't some people.
 
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