I got a JOB?!
Just give me a permanent lover as well as eternal glory from my awesomeness, and I swear I have it made. At that rate, I'd be set for life!
And then I see journals like this:
Hope dies last...... that's usually the motto I live with, but what if there is no room for hope anymore?
I never really have asked for much. I don't need fancy cars, expensive jewelry, awesome holidays or anything like that. I don't even ask for kids or a boyfriend/husband. All I want it to be able to pay my bills, be able to afford some hobbies and to stay at this place. But even that seems to be too much.
When everything you do just seems to be a failure and you feel like a burden for the people around you, it's hard to not just give up.
Right now I have an estimate of costs for a medical treatment laying next to me that is worth half a new car. There is a slight chance that my insurance will pay for it, but if not I have no idea what to do with that. Probably ignoring it all, not going to let it be done and just hoping (haha) for the best.
I am just tired of it all and maybe need to rethink everything in my life. Becoming a freelancer was never a dream, but a chance to get further. Maybe I and ever
This makes me really think, "Gee, I sure have it made! I'm all nice and comfy in my parents' house, where Dad has the bills covered and Mom has all the chores underhand." Welp, I have a robust list of good causes I want to support (one of them I already did!). However, I feel that I need to establish myself more solidly and help myself before I can help others too much.
AS for streaming, I have a good feeling my default schedule will grow disrupted in the future. As for this week, since it's all about setup and getting me acclimated with the confirmation and the needed drug tests, I won't be working this weekend. That means my former plans for this week will go unchanged (so see previous journal for details).
6PM Eastern Time on Friday, September 26 and 12:30PM Eastern Time on Saturday, September 27. Find me at twitch.tv/supergoldenknight
About my third book...Progress has been painfully slow, but I have done a significant amount of work on the cover. Now, I am trying to design my own title lettering from scratch! I figured if it's going to be iconic one day, I need an awesome and unique logo to stand out as my own, particularly should I one day achieve my own Wikipedia page! I don't mean any "insert-name.wiki" sponsored by bullying; I mean THE official Wikipedia!
Now then, I have streaming to prepare for as well as my comic book to R&D and a formal part-time job to standby for. So, I'm going to be busy! I hope you have as much fortune as this!
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- by The-Golden-Knight, 11 hours, 4 minutes ago
- Journals / Personal
Just give me a permanent lover as well as eternal glory from my awesomeness, and I swear I have it made. At that rate, I'd be set for life!
And then I see journals like this:
Hope dies last...... that's usually the motto I live with, but what if there is no room for hope anymore?I never really have asked for much. I don't need fancy cars, expensive jewelry, awesome holidays or anything like that. I don't even ask for kids or a boyfriend/husband. All I want it to be able to pay my bills, be able to afford some hobbies and to stay at this place. But even that seems to be too much.
When everything you do just seems to be a failure and you feel like a burden for the people around you, it's hard to not just give up.
Right now I have an estimate of costs for a medical treatment laying next to me that is worth half a new car. There is a slight chance that my insurance will pay for it, but if not I have no idea what to do with that. Probably ignoring it all, not going to let it be done and just hoping (haha) for the best.
I am just tired of it all and maybe need to rethink everything in my life. Becoming a freelancer was never a dream, but a chance to get further. Maybe I and ever
This makes me really think, "Gee, I sure have it made! I'm all nice and comfy in my parents' house, where Dad has the bills covered and Mom has all the chores underhand." Welp, I have a robust list of good causes I want to support (one of them I already did!). However, I feel that I need to establish myself more solidly and help myself before I can help others too much.
AS for streaming, I have a good feeling my default schedule will grow disrupted in the future. As for this week, since it's all about setup and getting me acclimated with the confirmation and the needed drug tests, I won't be working this weekend. That means my former plans for this week will go unchanged (so see previous journal for details).
6PM Eastern Time on Friday, September 26 and 12:30PM Eastern Time on Saturday, September 27. Find me at twitch.tv/supergoldenknight
About my third book...Progress has been painfully slow, but I have done a significant amount of work on the cover. Now, I am trying to design my own title lettering from scratch! I figured if it's going to be iconic one day, I need an awesome and unique logo to stand out as my own, particularly should I one day achieve my own Wikipedia page! I don't mean any "insert-name.wiki" sponsored by bullying; I mean THE official Wikipedia!
Now then, I have streaming to prepare for as well as my comic book to R&D and a formal part-time job to standby for. So, I'm going to be busy! I hope you have as much fortune as this!
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- Mood:
Excited
- Listening to: Dragonforce: Heart of a Dragon
- Reading: MotLW Pilot Epic 3
- Watching: Best of the Worst
- Playing: The Sims 3
on that.
