4/3/2018 - Leaked DSP private Q&A video -

[neger psykolog]

On Twitter user BhilPurnell shared this video:

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YouTube description:

This video was sent to me anonymously. Looks to be around from August 2017. Phil bashes ReviewtechUSA at length showing absolutely 0 self awareness, talks about his plans if YouTube or Twitch were to fall through.

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Transcript is here:
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/4-3-2018-leaked-dsp-private-q-a-video.41131/#post-3209225

 

[Aladdin_Insane]

It's legit. I'll add transcripts once they're available.

Oh my god this is incredible.

The salt is real.

He will have to act on this too, he really can't weasel out of what he's saying.

This is not street-smart.

 

[ZehnBoat]

if i look a little pink

my fucking sides flew away

 

[Pubic Enemy #1]

I can't be the only one who finds it completely fucking weird he uses the exact same format, rambling shit, reading out the whole question, looking at OBS, and DSPisms for a private video. I was expecting it to be more personal.

 

[Aladdin_Insane]

I feel so blessed to have caught this live.

"Two faced fat piece of shit"

"will say anything for a nickel"

"He says one thing but means another"

"Little insignificant people who got butthurt"

Fuck are we talking about here Phil?

 

[BusyMaribo]

How do the writers keep coming up with such good story arcs?

The twitch ban arc was amazing.

But now we getting sub story filler that's actually good?

Best season ever!

 

[Noob-Noob]

"Rich is a whore!!"
- DSP, 2017

 

[David Davidson]

It's legit. I'll add transcripts once they're available.

I can't wait for the giant jerkoff about to happen between RTU and DSP.

 

[Cherie Bomb]

Here's the tea on DSP insulting ReviewTechUSA. I've included some timestamps and choice quotes for everybody's convenience.

(2:35) Rich is the kind of guy who like…he’s the high school jock who never grew up, right? He’s the kind of guy who just doesn’t get reality. Like to him, he thinks it’s cool to do all that stupid kiddie shit, cause he makes money off of it. So why would he care? No matter who it hurts, no matter what happens with what he does. As long as he benefits from it, he doesn’t give a fuck. He’s also one of those fair weather people who will stick up for you, and then stab you in the back.

(6:00) He’s a little bitch. He can say whatever he wants about you, but god forbid you say anything about him.

(6:21) Rich is a whore.

(7:04) No one fucking cares about ReviewTechUSA. You know what I mean? He literally is the copycat who jumped on the drama bandwagon way later than everybody else. He’s worthless. He could just disappear from Youtube tomorrow, and no one would give a fuck. Everyone would be like, “Oh well, I’ll just go to the next drama guy.”

(7:41) If he disappears from Youtube, who gives a shit? Fucking wipe your ass with him and go watch the next drama guy who’s exactly the same, right?

(8:01) His viewers are braindead. Like, seriously. The people who watch his drama shit, drama shit…they’re not there to watch intelligent gameplay on stream. They’re not there to have fun with a gamer who’s not going to jump into all the popular shit that’s popular on Youtube. They’re there for drama and kiddie shit.

(8:53) That guy is such a fat, two-faced piece of shit. He pisses me off. I seriously hate people like that who are so dishonest and two-faced, and will do anything to make a fucking nickel. He’s disgusting in my opinion. I mean, he’s a disgusting human anyways. He sucks on cucumbers that look like dicks, and he wears...he’s fucking shirtless and shit. It’s gross. He’s fucking nasty, dude. I want nothing to fucking do with him.

 

[Aladdin_Insane]

I love the way he talks about moving back to Connecticut like it's the worst thing in the world and how if he was back there he would do less if he was there, its about 15.00 minutes in.

LESS.

Fuck me sideways

 

[Jotaro]

I know DSP is often guilty for a lack of self awareness but this might be a new level

gold

props to whichever former paypig dropped this

 

[Si vis pacem para bellum]

Firstly on watching it, it feels a little wrong since he said it in private confidence. That said, I mean it isn't lies. These are his words. Weird how hard he judges RTU based on his own "detractor" videos and yet says people shouldn't do that to phil.

This won't go down easy though, Rich jumps on anything for pity and attention as well.

 

[neger psykolog]

18:09 "really I'm financially fucked... Its gonna take years of effort to get myself out of this hole, I hope that I someday get out of it, I don't know if I ever will. I may be living month to month, paycheck to paycheck, begging for fucking tips on stream and shit for the rest of my life"

 

[Stalker Sociopath]

Firstly on watching it, it feels a little wrong since he said it in private confidence. That said, I mean it isn't lies. These are his words. Weird how hard he judges RTU based on his own "detractor" videos and yet says people shouldn't do that to phil.

This won't go down easy though, Rich jumps on anything for pity and attention as well.

I would feel bad too, but someone paid 50$ for this so they can do whatever they want.

 

[Drip Feed]

18:09 "really I'm financially fucked... Its gonna take years of effort to get myself out of this hole, I hope that I someday get out of it, I don't know if I ever will. I may be living month to month, paycheck to paycheck, begging for fucking tips on stream and shit for the rest of my life"

Oh man, them guys that make the funny videos, the intros and cuts are gonna be a lot funnier now.

 

[BusyMaribo]

18:09 "really I'm financially fucked... Its gonna take years of effort to get myself out of this hole, I hope that I someday get out of it, I don't know if I ever will. I may be living month to month, paycheck to paycheck, begging for fucking tips on stream and shit for the rest of my life"

Fuck off with that rest of your life bs...

I can't picture him doing this for another 5 years let alone till he drops...

 

[samovski]

"He doesn't get reality"

I'm already done.

 

[Phalanx]

Coming next season after Phil sama silenced Twitch Senpaii

Comes Rich baka - this spiring season

 

[neger psykolog]

• August 2017 Private Q+A Video
• DSP Tries it: Private Q&A Insulting ReviewTechUSA, admitting he's a beggar.
• Duration: 24:28
• Wordcount: 5,980

all right what's going on how you doing man once again I want to thank you for your ongoing support on patreon I mean you've been a longtime patreon supporter and once again you've qualified for a private Q&A video let's get right into it if I look a little pink it's cuz I'm probably sunburned from being outside today for rarities I'm actually outside I was power washing my driveway and hopefully it goes away but this week but people are gonna see me nice and pink on webcam all week for my arm look at my arm it's Pinker than my face I think oh but anyway let's get right to it your first question you said fill a few weeks ago the guy from if you take USA talked about you in one of his podcast basically he was watching lame the tractor videos and feeding the haters I feel like you should have a chance to defend yourself would you consider making a video with him and basically having a positive conversation with the guy maybe these fans will be interested to visit your streams if they see that you're different from those anti DSP videos I'm gonna tell you about rich all right and the kind of guy rich is because I'm sorry you know but rich is the kind of guy who in real life I would never ever want to have an association with this fucking guy all right first of all rich a roux Tech USA started out on YouTube as a tech reviewer that's what he did he would be sent a graphics card a monitor a piece of you know equipment for a PC or gaming or stuff like that and he would review that tech and he would play games and stuff to review games and stuff like that and he got popular for that but then rich realized that the YouTube bandwagon right the way to really make you to money was to do what other people were doing and he saw that there were people who were busily considered Talking Heads where every day they would take a news story that sometimes I have to do with gaming maybe would have to do something else but usually it would be something ludicrous whatever the ludicrous story of the day is to cash up drama right to get a lot of drama involved and he would basically just take that news story and commentate about it one video a day and this is his content nothing whatsoever to do with reviewing tech nothing whatsoever to do with you just basically drama for the sake of getting views on YouTube all right then rich realized well if I start saying controversial things basically starting internet feuds and doing things I could Ramat drop even more drama and I could get more attention for my video so he started doing that then he started getting a social-media followings and he said well I'm gonna do is I'm gonna start doing tons of like trolling shit on an Internet I'm gonna put up pictures of men's nipples or big hairy ugly dudes naked nipples and tweeted at random people basically rich is the kind of guy who like he's the fucking the high school jock who never grew up right he's the guy who just doesn't get reality like to him he thinks that it's totally cool to do all that stupid kiddie shit and to make him all because he makes money off of it so why would he care right no matter who it hurts no matter what happens with what he does as long as he benefits from it he doesn't give a fuck and he's also one of those Fairweather people where at some points he'll stick up for you and then all of a sudden he'll stab you in the back I'll give you a perfect example here okay rich used to constantly bring me up and say negative stuff about me and at all you know oh my god is Phil's YouTube channels failing and shit like that drama which does I don't know even know the guy I don't talk to the guy I don't talk about the guy so why he would bring me up in his videos or whatever I don't even understand then last year I had my incident where I was caught doing a thing that was quite inappropriate to be doing on a stream um and rich actually stood up stood up for me and stood up for me and said listen you know it was obviously something it's not faked it's something it was legitimate it's something that he did but completely by accident and you shouldn't crucify the guy for doing something that we all do is it shitty that it happened to him in a bad situation and now it's all over the internet forever and he'll never live it down yeah but I think he can recover as long as he sticks to his guns he admits that he did it or whatever and I did you know at the time I did exactly what everyone had kind of said I should do I admitted I festa up to us it was an honest mistake I laughed at the memes I didn't get angry and it did went away I mean even though people still bring it up to this day I still laugh that I still think it's fucking funny what happened well rich actually stood up for me in that situation and said positive things about me three months later so no actually saying about two months later so from May when that happened to July he's been back to making drama shit look at him oh my god he's looking at sociably oh my God look at Phil's views on YouTube they're down he's gonna go out business what does it is any other than his fucking business anyway here's the know how much money I'm making here's know anything about anything yeah here he is talking shit like I'm gonna go out of business I'm doing horrible business it's none of his business but he'd loves to do that he loves to drop drama and shit to get people to come see his stuff the more negativity he can stir up the better because then he get more attention for himself much like keemstar and all those other people it's funny cuz apparently he claims sometimes heat scheme or whatever he's just like him he's but literally become keemstar light in a lot of ways now in particular I think the reason that rich did that stream was because someone had asked me I think on a pre stream or something about me basically I said I don't nothing about him I don't really care about him I don't want to talk about him and then somehow he got into some other trust and I made a comment and I said I feel that you tubers that all they do is they take a news story or they take a drum a drama and all he do is make these drama of its or whatever are completely worthless they add nothing to society they do nothing productive all they do is hurt people at the expense of you know of their own you know gratitude so they can big money and they could get popular they hurt other people on purpose there's no purpose to having TMZ on YouTube TMZ itself is horrendous we don't need it on YouTube and that's what keemstar is you know and I think when I made that comment he thought I was talking about him which actually I was I was more referencing keemstar I didn't say him by name but I was kind of referencing keemstar and he wants to thought that I was talking about him because someone previously in that same aster that same pre streamer whatever had asked about rich ever you take USA so he probably got all but that's how he used to he's a little bitch he gets like so angry about little things he could say whatever he wants about you but god forbid you say something about him now that's it so he decided to go down sit and watch the tractor videos with his viewers why cuz he knew the detractors would come oh my god a youtuber who's popular is watching the tractor videos about Phil I gotta go join that and that's what they did and guess what he got a boost and he was anyway money on it rich is a whore I'm sorry rich is a whore that is the best thing you could describe he had something that he wanted to do on YouTube he wasn't being successful at it so he decided to throw the whole you give up on it throw it away and now do something that everyone else does and hora himself out whore out other people for money he jumps on the biggest trends the biggest drama he'll make you comment about the biggest story just for his own personal benefit and attention he doesn't care who he hurts he doesn't care what expense just like keemstar he's just a bad scheme star you know hearin says he's nowhere near as fucking popular as keemstar therefore he's not as destructive when he makes videos like that like i'll be honest that video he did that stream no one cared but he didn't negatively affect me at all cuz don't cares about fucking review take USA you know what I mean he literally is the copycat who jumped on the drama bandwagon way later than everybody else he's worthless he could have disappeared from YouTube tomorrow and no one would give a fuck every will be like oh well go to the next drama guy versus someone like me if I disappeared from YouTube how many other people are there like me on YouTube right now that are genuine gamers who are doing it the way I still do it they're not doing these highly fucking polished EDTA scripted bullshit they're doing genuine gameplay and stuff let me know everyone's abandoned my formula cuz not nearly as lucrative is doing it the other way around but I've stuck to my guns and I still do what I do if I disappear from YouTube there's a huge gap missing if he disappears from YouTube fucking who gives a shit wipe your ass with him and go fucking on for the next drama guy who's exactly the same right so you're saying why should I do a video with him or have a positive conversation with him maybe his fans will be interested to visit your streams if they see that you're different from those anti DSP videos I'll say right now that won't happen because his viewers are brain-dead his viewers like seriously the people who watches drama shit drama shit they're not there to watch intelligent gameplay stream they're not there to have fun with a gamer who's not going to jump in on all the popular shit that's popular on YouTube they're there for JAMA and kiddie shit and already amongst those drama viewers they think that I'm a horrible person because I jerked off on stream and all the other shit so all that stuff you know what I mean it's basically it's it's not gonna benefit me at all to me for me to do a video with him or sit down with him and have a conversation with him like that wouldn't benefit me at all it would benefit him because he gets the drama he get the bursts he get everything it would just have no positive impact whatsoever I mean his viewers are never gonna come watch my shit bomb and it sucks because I know that the guy can be reasonable like I said there was times when he's been reasonable with me and I think I'm cool with him and then it immediately turns around he has to say more negative drama shit about me so I want nothing to do with the guy seriously like that guy is such a two-faced fat piece of shit he pisses me off like I seriously hate people like that that are so fucking dishonest and two-faced and and will do anything to make a fucking nickel he's disgusting in my that means the disgusting human anyway suck some fucking cucumbers like they look like dicks and he wears these fucking shirtless and shit he's gross he's fucking nasty dude I want nothing to fuckin do with him there you go that's an honest answer huh alright your next question he said this year YouTube seems to be doing worse and worse looks like it isn't really going to be a reliable source of income anymore do you have a plan B besides uh besides twitch and patreon in case YouTube goes away and then you start okay your other questions are something different I mean dude what Plan B and I'll be honest here I did have Plan B's they all went away because of what has happened with me in the past few years so to recap Mike my plan was that I was going to move from Connecticut to Washington I was going to try to expand my business once I came out here meaning I was going to try to do different things various things but now I had a room that's more like a studio I mean soundproofing foam behind me right I can work longer hours I could do more flexible things I have different filming locations and shit that I can do out here I had a girlfriend who was living with me who could help me with videos and stuff and also financially could help support the effort and stuff like that um my goal was hopefully to move out here hopefully to MIT keeps things going and maybe make them grow to some extent and we didn't say to three years basically you paid off the debt of the move and now I could look to maybe do other ventures what I wanted to do was maybe save up enough money that number one I could sell the condo in Connecticut and get rid of it because I was hoping that within three four or five years you know I would have paid off enough the condo that I could sell to get rid of it then it's not burden on me anymore now I have you know thousand or more dollars extra a month that I have to spend on whatever and eventually I could save up and maybe I could start my own business that's outside of YouTube because I've always wanted to do my own kind of brick-and-mortar business somewhere and be responsible for that or whatever sadly none of my plans that I ever really planned out ever came to fruition because what happened was I moved across the country and that first year which I as I expected was rough I was getting set up or whatever and then immediately people became so fucking jealous and just angry here's a youtuber who doesn't conform to all the norms of what a youtuber should be doing to be popular on YouTube and he's outspoken he doesn't put up with bull shit from anyone and there were so many of these little insignificant people who just got butthurt over the stupidest fucking shit that they made it their life's goal to hurt me that I got multiple false copyright strikes against my channel I had to delete millions of views for my channel by deleting all those pre streams that used fan art and because of that my youtube channel plummeted out of the rankings basically it stopped getting it stopped getting the best ads to make the most money it stopped showing up in the YouTube rankings so I never would show up in search anymore and literally in the summer of 2015 you could see this if you actually look at a graph of my views from when I started to when I moved and then the summer of 2015 there's one month where there's a gap in my views because they dipped because of the fuckup of having to delete all those videos and the channel never recovered basically it went from here to here to here and this is where it's been so because I lost over a third of my viewership in one summer because of false copyright strikes and I'm screwed financially like it really did screw me over all the debt that I incurred incurred moving across the country I thought I could pay off I couldn't actually what ended up happening was there was a lot of things like credit cards and stuff then I charged up on promotional interest rates and my goal was oh I could pay this much a month on this credit card and I even met Neil figured it out if I do this is it within two three years before the interest rates balloon or whatever I'll be able to pay everything off and then because of they did that to me in the summer of 2015 I kidding I could I didn't lower my payments I could but you know hard to make ends meet I was trying to afford all the games and everything that's why I opened the patreon eventually because I knew I was gonna need that kind of help and stuff dude there's no plan B that's the problem there's no plan the real plan B here's the real plan being the real plan B is if everything falls apart I gotta sell my house which sucks um I believe I haven't I really haven't looked into it but I may have a significant amount of equity in this house like when I bought it versus now I'm almost positive the house value has grown up around eighty thousand dollars at least so worst-case scenario YouTube falls out or something goes wrong I'll have to basically try to sell my house as quick as possible use that money to basically make ends meet for a limited amount of time till I could get a better place our smaller place out here small apartment or whatever which is gonna suck because I wanted the office anymore right into the quality's gonna dip or whatever um and then basically trying to skirt just skirt with whatever I'm able to do online unless I can't do anything online at all it let's say YouTube completely dishes destroyed I'll to try to find a job out here and I know between a job and doing online stuff only part-time instead a full-time there's no way I'll make as much money as I'm making right now it's gonna be terrible it would be awful it would be absolutely 100% god fucking awful if all that happened but I'm sorry that you know this is reality there's no plan B I never had an opportunity to have a plan B as soon as I made the choice to move across the country I was locking myself into a situation now did I think that people were gonna find a way to game YouTube system and filed false copyright strikes for fucking fan art against my youtube channel and get me out of YouTube search rankings and make my income dip by over a third and all that no I never fucking fathom that any of that would happen okay um and it sucks I mean absolute worst worst worst case scenario um sell the house basically give up the dream of having anything that I would ever want life and move back to Connecticut to this shitty ass condo that I can't get rid of because I'm stuck with it because I can't get rid of it I can't sell it because I alway more on it than it's worth I can't rent it because I can't find any reliable rental agency in Connecticut to fucking do the work for me I looked into three different ones and none of them wanted to handle it or they weren't reputable enough to handle it my parents can't help anymore cuz they're too elderly they can't rent out the condo in Connecticut for me and take care of that shit so I'm fucked I'm stuck with this condo draining my finances every single fucking month and I cannot get rid of it though I mean what I could do to stop paying the mortgage and then it'll get repossessed or not repossessed um foreclosed on and and then they'll take you from but that'll ruin my credit which already my credits horrible but imagine a horrible credit now being put into a bhisma Li bad never recovered that's what would happen if that happens if I had to move back to Connecticut and keep in mind no more studio videos we'll all sound awful again won't be able to film as much as I do now or do as much as I do now because I'll be way more limited um taxes will go back up I'll be paying state tax again I won't be able to do tax write-off for my office anymore because there won't have an office anymore um whether you know with those snow and everything I can't shovel snow because my back and everything if I start shoveling my back will go right back to how bad it was oh I'll be right back in that situation again um my internet will be fucked up again like it constantly was when I lived in Connecticut so you're talking like basically taking all the awesome things that I've earned by working my ass off on YouTube since you know 20 2008 and throwing them all the fuck away and giving up and throwing in the towel and going back to Connecticut that's worst-case scenario that's Plan B and I don't want to do that that's why support for people like you is so critical and important because I you know I can't man and you know some people think oh well he doesn't need two houses you're right I don't but I certainly can't go back to Connecticut and I can't get rid of that house that's the problem it's just a terrible situation where I thaw give it 3/5 years when I bought that condo in Connecticut I think it was and this is not an exaggeration and please don't share this information I'm pretty sure I bought it for around 120 something thousand dollars it was way overpriced but I thought I was gonna have this nice office job this cushy job that I'd be able to work for years and it wouldn't be an issue and then immediately within a year I got laid off from the office job which is really fucked up right um the only reason I got that condo was so I could be closer to work which is so fucked up that they would leave angling me off afterward because of me um so I thought oh you know three to five years I'll be able to pay off the condo well right now I believe that my mortgage I've paid off enough that I'm down to like a hundred something thousand like one hundred five thousand maybe but guess how much the condo is worth in only I bought in 2009 so in only eight years the condo went from 130 to 140 seven thousand to sixty thousand dollars and it didn't do great I like the condo is bad it's because that's what's happened with the real estate market in Connecticut has crapped out and falling through the bottom um I can't sell it this is ridiculous I'm stuck I'm stuck between so many financial all these credit cards that I right to move and to keep the business of flow after having a third less income and then I could you know on promotional rates that ran out and now I'm paying shitloads interest every month on credit cards in Shea um the the condo that's draining me every month and I can't get rid of and a girlfriend who is no longer in the picture so I have no supplemental income you know what I mean I mean I really I'm financially fuck it's gonna take years of effort to try to dig myself out of this fucking hole it really is it sucks I hope that someday I'll get out of it I don't know if I ever will I may be I may be living months a month paycheck to paycheck begging for fucking tips and shit on stream for the rest of my life I know that's a horrible thing to think of but that's just the reality I don't know there's no magic Plan B I don't have elderly parents to fall back on I'm not gonna get magic inheritance oh let's maybe I win the lotto I buy a lotto ticket every every year all week so there you go Plan C is if I win the lotto I can pay off everything enough to worry about this shit anymore but I don't know man and I know but it's funny people who work 9 to 5 jobs who hate their jobs are in a much better financial situation than I am loving what I'm doing in fact I'll be very honest with you I didn't love what I do if I didn't love coming on stream every day and streaming and sharing my gameplay experiences with people and you know interacting on social media and all I didn't love it I would probably fucking be so depressed clinically depressed to the point where like I didn't want to do that oakum it myself or something because the job the fact that I love what I do I have positivity coming in every day and all that it means so much to me he's been going you know what I mean all that shit that I've been through the Fed that I'm horribly in a bad financial situation it all makes it worth it when I get to wake up and play games and have fun and share those experiences with people on a daily basis and then people come back to me and say Phil you make us happy with what you do and it's like it goes handing it's such an awesome cool thing a reciprocal thing um so yeah I mean that's the God's honest truth Tom I know that's a lot of stuff that's real straightforward and honest and you were like whoa holy shit maybe you didn't think I was gonna go to that much detail but there's your honest answer all right your next question said would you be interested in handing out more perks on patreon for example doing a monthly multiplayer session with patrons who pledged a certain amount of money thanks for answering these questions I mean that's always kind of been um one of the things that people said why don't you do a monthly multiplayer session and honestly I mean the real God's honest reason here is number one because there is on a lot of great multiplayer games that are worth going back to I mean I'll just think about it overwatch okay maybe like a fighting game but like imagine if like Street Fighter 5 was won and then I hate the game I don't wanna ever play it again and I'm pressured I have to play it to play it with patrons and shit I hate I hate that um you know right now what we'll do play games are I playing Ultra Street Fighter 2 okay but that games garbage online destiny - I guess I am planning on doing like a patrons only multiplayer event coming up in the next few months but I have to wait for games like Call of Duty World War 2 and star for his battlefront star for Star Force I said Wow Star Wars Battlefront - they have those games up to be released so that I can actually set up that event because I need to be good enough multiplayer games to make the event that's the thing the other thing is a lot of people don't realize that it's very time consuming every month when people pledge to get everyone upgraded to get everyone on the forums to figure out where they're supposed to be posting their information and stuff and then organize that stuff just to do the monthly event that I do for patrons it takes weeks of work to get everyone upgraded until you have to go to this thread and post up your availability and what games you're interested in and then I have to sort that out and then I have to fucking put it all together and try to make a schedule then people say oh I could play this day but not this day it takes it's going to work now I don't have to do that every month I have to organize that like it's crazy of the amount of work so I don't even know I'd be able to do it every month this would all be fine if I were more than one person if there were a team of people here this was DSP gaming and you got Phil and you had Dave and you had Josh and we had people who could work separately on this shit and we're young and I wasn't one man then I would say yeah monthly multiplayer session on patreon surely makes perfect sense but that's the problem I'm one guy I'm already streaming anywhere from minimum of four to upwards of six to seven hours a day plus I'm uploading videos to YouTube plus I'm doing all the social media and all the work the backend so I'm working about 10 to 12 hours a day you know straight with maybe a break between which isn't really a break for me to rush and make dinner and then come right back um there's no time in the day for me to do this kind of stuff even when I do it for the time that I do it it's a time crunch um and that's what sucks a lot of people want me to do these patreon perks I'm like okay but how do I do it by myself if I could multiply my fucking cell then sure if I were multiple man I could do tons of fun events and I would love to do them the problem is I'm not I'm one guy and if I'm gonna keep doing this dreams everyone wants then I can't do the patrons stuff right all right so I hope that answers your question um you know sadly most of the answers were negative I did I certainly didn't want to spin them that way but I mean when you're asking about rich from review tech when you're asking me about a plan B that doesn't exist cuz my financial situation sucks then you're asking about why I can't do more patron stuff and you know honestly I'm being real with you I hope that at least you appreciate the fact that I'm being honest with you um and I hope that you enjoyed the video regards that it wasn't a positive video I certainly hope that you still enjoy it all right once again thank you so much for the ongoing support it means a lot especially in August I really needed that money to pay my bills and it did I do believe I with all the money I got from everything it actually I didn't overdrawn my bank account I couldn't believe it I was this close yeah I barely made it now I gotta get through one more month I gotta get some fucking October if I could get to mid-october when I get paid from curse and I get paid from twitch duh I had such a good month in August I know I'm gonna be fine but I have to get there and I'm looking at right now I just sat down tonight right before I felt filmed your community and I'm paying my bills and I'm like oh fuck I'm like man I just got paid from July July was the slow month the shitty month on YouTube where I made almost nothing and I'm looking like oh god how am I is this gonna clear now I don't even know if this is gonna clear for next month and this is the worst fucking feeling in the world to have that because I just want to play games to have fun and the bottom line is when I was in Connecticut I was succeeding and doing it it seems like as soon as I fucking moved out here people gotta stick up their ass about me and did everything they possibly could to fuck it hurt me and that's been kind of the downfall since then and I don't know man I just want to keep doing what I love it people want to see me keep doing what I love and people like you come out to support me and I appreciate it and I hope I can keep it going I really do all right thank you for your support thank you for your help hope you enjoyed your Q&A video I'll see you later all right peace out

 

[PieceofShet]

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