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CW - Childhood Sexual Assault traumaversary
(Additional secondary mentions of houselessness, and organized cyberstalking and cyberbullying)
At around exactly this time (per the time zone difference between Portland and Philadelphia) 21 years ago I was sexually assaulted by my own father.
I must mourn for the rest of tonight. I must mourn the innocence lost at age 11. I must mourn the years of lost bodily autonomy from July 4th 1997 until GRS Surgery on May 25th 2018 (barely six weeks ago this Friday)
However I must not dwell on the “what ifs” or “how things could have been different” - history happened how it happened for me. This is the trauma I have to live with for the rest of my life. This robbed innocence, this constant distrust of illegitmate authority figures wider society attaches reverence to.
I am an Anarcho-Communist through both historical material causes and conditions. Not just solely based on the abuse by my own father. But 10 years of organized cyberstalking and cyberbullying and 5 years 8 months of houselessness from 2011-2016.
My trauma shaped me into the Isabel Rosa Araujo you know today. That cannot be taken away from me.
