Goddess Mike (totally didn't beat Julie to death)
I have no fantasies why would I I do know that chances of me doing anything sexually is basically zero. About the same as the amount you will make in money selling your gravel.
I don't know your whole story but regardless the situation if Tom can suck blind Arab cock in the faggotiest man way possible when he takes a break from raping children than you can absolutely have (non-rape) sex.
You already have the key ingredient which is to not look like someone's exceptional great grandfather who somehow survived three hours in the gas chamber who managed to survive the cold nights on the street with his hands in some dog assholes