Dramacow Alex Vidal / Alessandro Connor Vidal / AsrielDr33murr / Crayonization / CZation / Ashe826 - "Trans lesbian" wolfkin. Likes little girls' breasts and wishes he were "a cute virgin cis female". "I'm 150IQ"

Yellow Yam Scam

delicate shim cheong
True & Honest Fan
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List of suicide attempts:

November 2015: Entemophobia related & after repeated nervous breakdowns.

Method: tried taking double the lethal amount of niacin

June 2016: tried slitting my throat after bad breakup, quit due to pain.

April 2017: had homocidial ideations and also wanted to end my life after a breakdown caused my untreated dysphoria, which was falsely pegged as schizophrenia by the therapists

October 2017: was heavily embarrassed due to a PTSD trigger moment in public, wanted to jump off a building before being calmed down by school professionals and sent to a mental hospital for a week.

December 2017: tried overdosing on leftover pills I had stashed from the aforementioned ADHD meds, was a failure. Was done due to a bad argument with my mother where she had threatened to hit me over me confronting her about being blatantly transphobic and publicly deadnaming me to family.

March 2018: after suffering abuse from my dad’s side, and my family in Texas ignoring me with no hope of returning; I tried to overdose on Tylenol, with my not only taking more than the lethal dose, but also with a large amount of alcohol (2 bottles of Jack Daniels). Didn’t work, woke up the next day fine for some reason.

Thanksgiving 2018: tried overdosing on Benadryl, Tylenol, and Ibproufen all at the same time, over dysphoria related anxiety. Spent the whole day loopy, hallucinating, and my mind being hazy. Also drank a whole bottle of NyQuil and felt drunk in addition.

January 2019: tried overdosing again, this time with 3x the lethal dose of ibproufen. No effect due to my high drug tolerance.

This isn’t even counting all the times I wanted to commit suicide, was on the verge of doing so, or otherwise didn’t follow through. It has decreased in frequency since I began HRT: June 9th, 2018, but not disappeared entirely due to my depression still being untreated, even if my dysphoria is now being mostly treated.
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Clinical-catgirl

Two compliments away from becoming an e-girl
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It was a trans woman you ignorant shit. Read the title of the thread.

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This thread in a nutshell
I'm pretty sure the screenshot where he described having submissive sexual fantasies after orgasm as a "female orgasm" is textbook AGP. That and being exclusively attracted to women yet desiring sex with men because he believes that makes him more female somehow.
 

Coldgrip

Dragon Kick your ass into the Milky Way.
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It was a trans woman mentally ill man in a dress you ignorant shit. Read the title of the thread.
FTFY, Alex.
Seriously tho, like fuck off, your ignorance is pedantic, and only relies on your flawed views of transgenderism....
lol

You're the guy who thinks doing porn makes him a woman. That's a pretty flawed and misogynistic point of view you have there Alex.
 
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guccigash

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You are not a suicidal lesbian. You are an attention seeking hypersexual male. I am unsure of your sexuality and to be fair who cares?

I would not judge you for the latter were it not for you claiming the former so loudly on social media. That gives me the right to call you out.

You are not making suicide attempts, they are barely cries for help. They are cries for attention. These are not fatal substances, ibuprofen is almost impossible to overdose on. As are ADHD meds. But you know that.

If you do get the attention of professionals through another more serious attempt, what will you ask for? Will you get SRS if offered?

edit - typos
edit 2- just to be responsible obviously you can overdose on these meds, it's dumb to take a lot or too many long term but here i mean FATALLY ibuprofen and adhd meds would be a terrible choice for suicide. just ineffective. with ibuprofen it's intestinal/liver/kidney damage from an OD. just a stupid choice, not fatal usually just really damaging if you take bucket loads.
 
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Pronoun Party

87 genders and counting
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Method: tried taking double the lethal amount of niacin
Only with troons can drinking a six pack of Red Bull be spun into a suicide attempt...

The fact that HilmWolfette was willing to type out this whole list says a lot. Normal people do not list out suicide attempts like they're prize ribbons in a trophy cabinet.

It always astounds me when people like this try to pretend people are discriminating against them because of their gender expression, and not because they're emotionally stunted embarrassments to humanity. Even beautiful natal woman are shunned and mocked when they act this exceptional... case in point, the Beauty Parlour section of this website.
 

eldri

oogity boogity boo motherfucker
True & Honest Fan
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List of suicide attempts:

November 2015: Entemophobia related & after repeated nervous breakdowns.

Method: tried taking double the lethal amount of niacin

June 2016: tried slitting my throat after bad breakup, quit due to pain.

April 2017: had homocidial ideations and also wanted to end my life after a breakdown caused my untreated dysphoria, which was falsely pegged as schizophrenia by the therapists

October 2017: was heavily embarrassed due to a PTSD trigger moment in public, wanted to jump off a building before being calmed down by school professionals and sent to a mental hospital for a week.

December 2017: tried overdosing on leftover pills I had stashed from the aforementioned ADHD meds, was a failure. Was done due to a bad argument with my mother where she had threatened to hit me over me confronting her about being blatantly transphobic and publicly deadnaming me to family.

March 2018: after suffering abuse from my dad’s side, and my family in Texas ignoring me with no hope of returning; I tried to overdose on Tylenol, with my not only taking more than the lethal dose, but also with a large amount of alcohol (2 bottles of Jack Daniels). Didn’t work, woke up the next day fine for some reason.

Thanksgiving 2018: tried overdosing on Benadryl, Tylenol, and Ibproufen all at the same time, over dysphoria related anxiety. Spent the whole day loopy, hallucinating, and my mind being hazy. Also drank a whole bottle of NyQuil and felt drunk in addition.

January 2019: tried overdosing again, this time with 3x the lethal dose of ibproufen. No effect due to my high drug tolerance.

This isn’t even counting all the times I wanted to commit suicide, was on the verge of doing so, or otherwise didn’t follow through. It has decreased in frequency since I began HRT: June 9th, 2018, but not disappeared entirely due to my depression still being untreated, even if my dysphoria is now being mostly treated.
Did you leave any notes or messages with the attempts or were the attempts very spur of the moment?
 

guccigash

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Looking back I can see you've said quite clearly you do not want SRS. So what do you want? Why are you here? You have got some attention, is that all you wanted?

I'd pack up your account and go to be honest, this isn't a place to hang around staring at your reflection, no matter how narcissistic you are. Just because the mirror looks like an abyss to you and you think we are all monsters. We aren't.

I think you need help. Not the kind you think though.
 

Coldgrip

Dragon Kick your ass into the Milky Way.
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So what do you want? Why are you here? You have got some attention, is that all you wanted?
They always want attention, but the attention we give them is never the type they want. Like when we start warning people about their fucked up behavior or start pointing out the flaws in their logic and way of thinking. Then they regret the attention we give them.
 

HiImWolfette

Sapphic Wolf Queen
Person of Interest
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Did you leave any notes or messages with the attempts or were the attempts very spur of the moment?
Several suicide notes have been written. Not releasing as they have personal information tho, I don’t want my family to be harmed by my wrong doings from them being doxxed.

You are not a suicidal lesbian. You are an attention seeking hypersexual male. I am unsure of your sexuality and to be fair who cares?

Well, I like girls, and I am a girl. So definitely lesbian. You bigots might not think so, but there’s plenty women that accept me out there.

I would not judge you for the latter were it not for you claiming the former so loudly on social media. That gives me the right to call you out.

You are not making suicide attempts, they are barely cries for help. They are cries for attention. These are not fatal substances, ibuprofen is almost impossible to overdose on. As are ADHD meds. But you know that.

Those are the only drugs I have access to. Besides, it wouldn’t the drugs themselves that kill me, it would be the liver failure to soon follow. How could you not see that is my plan?

If you do get the attention of professionals through another more serious attempt, what will you ask for? Will you get SRS if offered?

No, I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again: SRS is hardly accurate and barely functional. I won’t be able to give birth, have true clitoral orgasms, have a vagina that’s even SEMI realistic, won’t have vaginal tissue, won’t have a uterus, etc. it’s literally a fucking glorified fleshlight. Waste of perfectly good money if you ask me. I’d rather have functional genitals than barely functional genitals that have been shoddily hacked apart and put back together.

edit - typos
edit 2- just to be responsible obviously you can overdose on these meds, it's dumb to take a lot or too many long term but here i mean FATALLY ibuprofen and adhd meds would be a terrible choice for suicide. just ineffective. with ibuprofen it's intestinal/liver/kidney damage from an OD. just a stupid choice, not fatal usually just really damaging if you take bucket loads.

I’d still die. That’s all that matters.
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HiImWolfette

Sapphic Wolf Queen
Person of Interest
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Mate you couldn't cut your own throat. You'd be seeking medical help for the pain associated with even the first stages of an ibuprofen OD faster than Amberlyn texting Necky her McDonalds order. You know that.

Just stop.

edit - I am interested though, did we cover how you found this thread yet?

Just cause I get medical attention doesn’t mean I’d seek treatment to stop dying… smh…
 

guccigash

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Just cause I get medical attention doesn’t mean I’d seek treatment to stop dying… smh…
Sigh. And my point was that this process is agonizing, and that you would pussy out and seek help. My god you are obtuse.

edit - how did you find the thread?
 

Mr Snek

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Just cause I get medical attention doesn’t mean I’d seek treatment to stop dying… smh…
And there it is. You didn't say "seek treatment to stop trying to kill myself", you said "seek treatment to stop dying." Because to you, death is a far off thing and threatening to die is the only way you have left of making other people pay attention to you. One of these days your suicide baiting and general shitty attitude will push everyone you know away and you'll realise that you're finally as alone as you've pretended to be all these years.

When was the last time you actually enjoyed some elses company? I don't mean they made you feel good by giving you things and telling you how pretty and girly you are, I mean when was the last time you felt happy just to be with someone, regardless of what you were doing together?
 

NoFeline

im intersex i have both uwu
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Well, I like girls, and I am a girl. So definitely lesbian. You bigots might not think so, but there’s plenty women that accept me out there.

You're fetishizing an intagible concept of gender identity, that's not being a lesbian.
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The fact that you let this Flinstones extra looking neanderthal anywhere near your dick just because it told you it has the TRUE and HONEST mental state of a woman is MORE than enough proof of that. Why don't you use your 150IQ brain to read some papers on human sexual selection. (You won't.)

not fatal usually just really damaging if you take bucket loads.
>I’d still die. That’s all that matters.
150IQ Reading Comprehension

Those are the only drugs I have access to.
Have you considered a nice relaxing bath with a razor
 

FuckYourPronounsDude

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you are on kiwifarms. this is probably one of the most tame opinions you’re going to read about trans women here my dude.

I agree though, assuming he meant authority on being a cis woman. most trans women are not at all affected by issues over female reproductive rights, or growing up as a cis girl in a traditional/misogynist society or upbringing. Cis and trans women’s issues can overlap, but they are still mostly separate. Once you have a fully functioning uterus and vagina, you can come back and say you have authority in regards to being a woman with a vagina.
Naw, he can't. He will always be a male. He has zero authority to speak for women.
 

BallBuster

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I just read this whole thread and unless I missed a reply how did this little gem go unnoticed: “I’d rather die than be forced to live as a male.”

I am 100% certain that having a penis and creating sperm is biology and nature forcing you live as a male. You could try to spin some troon nonsense on how it isn’t, but you aren’t fighting science on this one.

Also being called ugly, having bad hygiene, and being scrawny is literally 25%+ (that might be an underestimate) Of the demographic of any high school. Why do you think you are special because you are a smelly ugly wimp?

Being smelly is a damn choice first of all. Maybe your ass sweats more than others but their have been plenty advancements in hygiene products made for smelly people just like you. Also, daily showers and bars of Lava can do wonders.

Being scrawny is genetics. Protein shakes, a bit of weight training and exercise can change your body in 2-6 months. Stop being a lazy fuck.

Being ugly, well that’s just the hand you are dealt. Make lemonade. Plenty of other ugly people get by just fine. And ugly is just an opinion. Stop being a whiny twat about everything in your life.
 

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