Alix / "Naj" / "Israa" / hivliving / blueskysapphic / allolesbean - Fake HIV positive human trafficking POC survivor, Author of Cringe Hamilton HIV AU Fic

[Tlazolli]

It seems like tumblr’s horrid self righteousness did not stop cringe from existing (ie: that HIV Hamilton AU fanfiction bullshit) but instead created women who lie about their race, gender, and sexuality just so they are allowed to write said cringe without being problemuhtic. This sounds like repression gone extra wrong™.
That said, you need to be incredibly exceptional to even think about writing a fanfiction with Hamilton characters of all things in an Alt universe where they are teenagers with HIV. The idea is just too fuckin out there and so bad. It’s just inherently terrible.

 

[cluelessly]

any info on how she was found out? I've seen tons of people talk about this but no one has the source on how it came to light and I'm really curious. reminds me of the shit going on with the girl who pretended to be the harry potter fanfic girl

 

[Meowthkip]

It seems like tumblr’s horrid self righteousness did not stop cringe from existing (ie: that HIV Hamilton AU fanfiction bullshit) but instead created women who lie about their race, gender, and sexuality just so they are allowed to write said cringe without being problemuhtic. This sounds like repression gone extra wrong™.
That said, you need to be incredibly exceptional to even think about writing a fanfiction with Hamilton characters of all things in an Alt universe where they are teenagers with HIV. The idea is just too fuckin out there and so bad. It’s just inherently terrible.

But she wanted it to exist so badly that she invented imaginary people just so she could justify this fic's existence. And who could blame her, with passages like this!

 

[Moral_Equivalent_of_ISIS]

I remember reading these screenshots of her and this hivliving/allolesbian's etc chat and explanation where the exposer explained how she slowly placed some puzzle pieces together when this hiv chucklefuck's instagram or twitter account linked to one of the blog mentioned some murican college and stuff like that that didn't add up with the story and after she messaged the person or something, she got some visit from IP number that's nationality was burgerland, that didn't neither go together will the story of two indian pocs people hiv lesbians and shit. There was lot of this kind of little things no one paid attention to.

I remember she kind of first asked the aids asshole kindly to tell the truth about lying about hiv/being indian and shit, but hiv fagget kept lying and acting dumb till she got too hard questions that didn't add up and hiv filth finally admitted that the admin she larped didn't exist but was some person she knew that inspired her and stuff and billion versions of the story to cover her ass till finally she said she made it all up or something.

Should have taken the screenshot of the ass discussion now those are somewhere in depths of tomblr.

Didn't the person who exposed her turn out to be some jilted chick who got run off tumblr for a terrible hamilton cannibal mermaid fanfic? I can't trust my own memory on this because its just too fucking stupid to be true.

 

[Fareal]

actually bent in half lolling at this

Why isn't FandomTrashPride a thing yet? It's fucking fanfiction, who cares if it's problematic

 

[Tlazolli]

actually bent in half lolling at this

Why isn't FandomTrashPride a thing yet? It's fucking fanfiction, who cares if it's problematic

Problematic was not the first word that came to my mind when I found out about this fanfiction.

 

[Android raptor]

While a fic about random characters being HIV positive gay teenagers is trashy as hell, it's nowhere near as trashy as lying about being an HIV positive sex trafficking survivor. I really miss when people who wrote questionable fics just tagged DONT LIKE DONT READ and weren't pressured to identify as a member of x group in order to be seen as ok to write something. It's like the kids in the mlm thread who try and shame fujos for flicking the bean to buttsex, which only has the effect of pressuring said fujos to pretend to be trans on top of flicking the bean to buttsex.

Tumblr really is a mess.

 

[cherry789]

I was waiting for a thread on this, it turns out to be a lot more boring than I expected.

 

[Infidel]

Dunno if this is of any relevance but the WaybackMachine website says the Ao3 series page was archived twice during 2016

 

[NoMoreFacon]

Here's the pastebin the person who outed hivliving put up. They went onto fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org after people started railing against them for outing hivliving with just an ip logger or asking about what happened since the links all got deleted.
https://pastebin.com/JvzZRq47

https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/282913.html?thread=1599134497#cmt1599134497
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/282913.html?thread=1599548961#cmt1599548961
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/283175.html?thread=1600260135#cmt1600260135
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/283175.html?thread=1600424231#cmt1600424231

Spoiler: Their side

dmfvlsinef

THE GENTRIFICATION OF CANNIBALISM POST WAS A STUPID AF HANNIBAL ESSAY THAT MISSED THE POINT OF THE ENTIRE CHARACTER

I wrote crackfic based on a tumblr post and expanded it to edgy as fuck crackfic cause I have a bad sense of humor. LIKE THAT'S NOT EVEN WHAT VORE IS, CREATURES. I WROTE HORROR AND MONSTERS BECAUSE I LIKE THOSE THINGS.

Like Christ call me out for writing RPF, go ahead, and I'll say what I said at the time: I tried to make sure it'd never get to the cast. I BEGGED other people to lock their fic. and if someone wants to pretend that there's a huge gulf in visual imagery between the Modern AU Lams fanart that LIN TAPED TO ANTHONY'S DRESSING ROOM DOOR, IRL, THAT HAPPENED, and random linthony such that the latter is fetishizing, cool, but it's not a moral point to me.

Like, I clearly do not believe that any of the stuff I wrote is Real and True. Spoilers for unfinished blind bird extra fic: It was gonnna link to the John Laurens Ghost Boyfriend fic.

I wrote RPF for no other reason than the fandom was smaller and had better writers and I didn't need to wrestle with canon.

And like give me a fucking break about all of this, the canon fic I did write consistently pointed out that These People Aren't Great, For Systemic Reasons (The System Is Slavery)

I cannot take any rpf callout seriously after I found out that prick who wrote LITERAL PEDOPHILE HAMWASH SPECIFICALLY TO TRIGGER RILLRILL, that prick who sackcloth and ashes flouncepologized from RPF after her monster RPF didn't get as many kudos as mine, that she was continuing to COMMENT AND KUDOS RPF.

Did I write some in hindsight offensive shit? Probafuckingly. Did anyone actually come to talk to me about it? Once an anon advised me to change a pet name. I did. Could I have done better? Yes! Yes, I'm sure I could have.

(you know what you have to do with monsters? worldbuild. know what that leaves less time for? describing bodies in detail. hmmm)

Could I have comported myself less weirdly? Oh yes.

I DIDN'T LIE ABOUT HAVING HIV FOR MONEY, THOUGH

THIS MEANS I WIN

 

[Meowthkip]

Here's the pastebin the person who outed hivliving put up. They went onto fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org after people started railing against them for outing hivliving with just an ip logger or asking about what happened since the links all got deleted.
https://pastebin.com/JvzZRq47

https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/282913.html?thread=1599134497#cmt1599134497
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/282913.html?thread=1599548961#cmt1599548961
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/283175.html?thread=1600260135#cmt1600260135
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/283175.html?thread=1600424231#cmt1600424231

Spoiler: Their side

dmfvlsinef

THE GENTRIFICATION OF CANNIBALISM POST WAS A STUPID AF HANNIBAL ESSAY THAT MISSED THE POINT OF THE ENTIRE CHARACTER

I wrote crackfic based on a tumblr post and expanded it to edgy as fuck crackfic cause I have a bad sense of humor. LIKE THAT'S NOT EVEN WHAT VORE IS, CREATURES. I WROTE HORROR AND MONSTERS BECAUSE I LIKE THOSE THINGS.

Like Christ call me out for writing RPF, go ahead, and I'll say what I said at the time: I tried to make sure it'd never get to the cast. I BEGGED other people to lock their fic. and if someone wants to pretend that there's a huge gulf in visual imagery between the Modern AU Lams fanart that LIN TAPED TO ANTHONY'S DRESSING ROOM DOOR, IRL, THAT HAPPENED, and random linthony such that the latter is fetishizing, cool, but it's not a moral point to me.

Like, I clearly do not believe that any of the stuff I wrote is Real and True. Spoilers for unfinished blind bird extra fic: It was gonnna link to the John Laurens Ghost Boyfriend fic.

I wrote RPF for no other reason than the fandom was smaller and had better writers and I didn't need to wrestle with canon.

And like give me a fucking break about all of this, the canon fic I did write consistently pointed out that These People Aren't Great, For Systemic Reasons (The System Is Slavery)

I cannot take any rpf callout seriously after I found out that prick who wrote LITERAL PEDOPHILE HAMWASH SPECIFICALLY TO TRIGGER RILLRILL, that prick who sackcloth and ashes flouncepologized from RPF after her monster RPF didn't get as many kudos as mine, that she was continuing to COMMENT AND KUDOS RPF.

Did I write some in hindsight offensive shit? Probafuckingly. Did anyone actually come to talk to me about it? Once an anon advised me to change a pet name. I did. Could I have done better? Yes! Yes, I'm sure I could have.

(you know what you have to do with monsters? worldbuild. know what that leaves less time for? describing bodies in detail. hmmm)

Could I have comported myself less weirdly? Oh yes.

I DIDN'T LIE ABOUT HAVING HIV FOR MONEY, THOUGH

THIS MEANS I WIN

Did you really win, though, lady?

Did you really?

 

[e9967a]

I looked for a bit and couldn't find any of the missing chapters besides chapter five, which includes an absolutely scathing note:

It's ridiculous how convoluted Tumblr's gotten about shit like this, though. The concept of Hamilton HIV-positive fanfiction is bad as a whole but, separating it from the fact that this is about gay founding fathers, the fact that this person felt like they needed to lie about having HIV for it to be considered 'valid' is insane. Do people on Tumblr think you can't write about experiences you haven't had? Like, it's not hard to research peoples' real experiences for this kind of thing.

 

[Trombonista]

Do people on Tumblr think you can't write about experiences you haven't had?

Yes. That is why everyone pretends to be mentally ill transgender POCs.

 

[DirkBloodStormKing]

Yes. That is why everyone pretends to be mentally ill transgender POCs.

Have these guys not heard of something called "empathy" or "putting yourself in someone else's shoes"?

 

[Meowthkip]

Have these guys not heard of something called "empathy" or "putting yourself in someone else's shoes"?

They're not allowed to put themselves in POC's shoes, that's selfish and they need to shut up and listen to POC and whip themselves bloody in the town square.

 

[Tlazolli]

They're not allowed to put themselves in POC's shoes, that's selfish and they need to shut up and listen to POC and whip themselves bloody in the town square.

White ppl need to kill themselves already smh

 

[Dysnomia]

Chinese-Pakistani non-binary bisexual HIV positive human trafficking survivor.

Never in my life would I have ever imagined that I'd read this sentence. Yet here I am reading it.

Anyway, her story is unbelievable from the start. You'd have to be truly exceptional to make this up and think that it would fly. And you'd have to be truly exceptional to believe it. But such is the current year.

I hadn't heard of this particular scamming snowflake. I usually stay out of the Hamilton tags despite the lulz it can generate. I hate that fandom so much. All this because she wrote a stupid Hamilton HIV fic? This is what people do with their lives? I know I should no longer be surprised. But every time I see stuff like this I still feel a small sense of shock.

Oh well, eventually it will numb out permanently.

 

[Meowthkip]

Oh well, eventually it will numb out permanently.

That's what booze is for.

 

[Anustart]

Here's the pastebin the person who outed hivliving put up. They went onto fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org after people started railing against them for outing hivliving with just an ip logger or asking about what happened since the links all got deleted.
https://pastebin.com/JvzZRq47

https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/282913.html?thread=1599134497#cmt1599134497
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/282913.html?thread=1599548961#cmt1599548961
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/283175.html?thread=1600260135#cmt1600260135
https://fail-fandomanon.dreamwidth.org/283175.html?thread=1600424231#cmt1600424231

Spoiler: Their side

dmfvlsinef

THE GENTRIFICATION OF CANNIBALISM POST WAS A STUPID AF HANNIBAL ESSAY THAT MISSED THE POINT OF THE ENTIRE CHARACTER

I wrote crackfic based on a tumblr post and expanded it to edgy as fuck crackfic cause I have a bad sense of humor. LIKE THAT'S NOT EVEN WHAT VORE IS, CREATURES. I WROTE HORROR AND MONSTERS BECAUSE I LIKE THOSE THINGS.

Like Christ call me out for writing RPF, go ahead, and I'll say what I said at the time: I tried to make sure it'd never get to the cast. I BEGGED other people to lock their fic. and if someone wants to pretend that there's a huge gulf in visual imagery between the Modern AU Lams fanart that LIN TAPED TO ANTHONY'S DRESSING ROOM DOOR, IRL, THAT HAPPENED, and random linthony such that the latter is fetishizing, cool, but it's not a moral point to me.

Like, I clearly do not believe that any of the stuff I wrote is Real and True. Spoilers for unfinished blind bird extra fic: It was gonnna link to the John Laurens Ghost Boyfriend fic.

I wrote RPF for no other reason than the fandom was smaller and had better writers and I didn't need to wrestle with canon.

And like give me a fucking break about all of this, the canon fic I did write consistently pointed out that These People Aren't Great, For Systemic Reasons (The System Is Slavery)

I cannot take any rpf callout seriously after I found out that prick who wrote LITERAL PEDOPHILE HAMWASH SPECIFICALLY TO TRIGGER RILLRILL, that prick who sackcloth and ashes flouncepologized from RPF after her monster RPF didn't get as many kudos as mine, that she was continuing to COMMENT AND KUDOS RPF.

Did I write some in hindsight offensive shit? Probafuckingly. Did anyone actually come to talk to me about it? Once an anon advised me to change a pet name. I did. Could I have done better? Yes! Yes, I'm sure I could have.

(you know what you have to do with monsters? worldbuild. know what that leaves less time for? describing bodies in detail. hmmm)

Could I have comported myself less weirdly? Oh yes.

I DIDN'T LIE ABOUT HAVING HIV FOR MONEY, THOUGH

THIS MEANS I WIN

This reads like it was written for a sci-fi story where the author tried to imagine what kinds of ridiculous slang an Earth populated by robo alien humans would be using in the future. I’m not even fandom-illiterate most of the time but this has me fucking stymied.

The rest of the thread is gold though. Sometimes you gotta take a break from the heinous motherfuckers that comprise some of the other threads on the farms to read about some dumb as shit college kids writing laughable fanfiction and awkwardly sleuthing.

 

[Feline Darkmage]

LITERAL PEDOPHILE HAMWASH SPECIFICALLY TO TRIGGER RILLRILL,

Okay HamWash is obviously shipping Alex Hamilton with George Washington but whats a Rillrill and what is this pedophile fanfic? And more importantly why?