- Jan 2, 2014
The only other points I'd add were that the job was assembling farm equipment, and that when she started sperging out because of "anxiety" the supervisor told her it was way too dangerous to have her doing stuff like that in such a setting, and had her "excorted," as she pronounces the word several times, from the premises.She's currently at 0 likes, 5 dislikes. I've got it running at 2x speed in order to collect some key quotes
5:20 "...I run away...I didn't run away this time, they excorted (sic) me out." Jesus christ imagine being a full-time employee just trying to do your work, and you see this pear-shaped wonderfuck run screaming out of the building
6:21 "I gotta grow up. I gotta grow up...the stuff. I gotta grow up things."
8:07 ""You gotta fix your anxiety!" What do I do? What do I do when this part of my brain is freezing up? What do I do? This part of my brain is...like...freezing up."
10:08 "Like...I know I should love on people and love my family, be there with them, but it's selfish of them!"
11:44 "I got James, my mom, my dad...uuh, my dad gone..."
13:43 "Like, I was working, doing what the person that was training me said, and when I put down a piece of object, I started panicking, going blank-minded...like, it was buzzing on my fucking forehead... [...] I was shaking, and it was hell."
16:52 "I thought I was feeling better...I thought I was feeling better, I wanted to get a job so I can take care of my fuckin'...credit card bills, and...nobody wants to buy my art, nobody wants to commission me, because oh, my art is horrible and shit..."You're a horrible artist" and this and that, like, nobody wants to support me...because of my past actions! They just think my art is horrible, and it really puts me down and makes me wanna not draw...as much anymore."
17:49 "(My art)'s gotten shittier because I just don't have enough passion for it! It's gotten shittier lately."
19:01 "I'm not even a fan of the majority of the things that people put out there. Most of the artwork I see look the same! And when I put something different out there, and they be like, "Oh it's ugly!" Bitch please kinda thing. Like, it's a slap in the face."
20:05 "I mean, I like Pokemon, but..." Here she more or less confirms that she sees Leastus as an OC, not as a Pokemon character expat
22:26 "There was a time...that I got so angry, they wouldn't let me go to the bathroom. Like, they think I was gonna escape or something. They forced me to sit down. And I pissed my pants, right in front of the whole class. Sitting down, and it was an embarrassment. And it hurt. I really had to pee really bad, and they told me, "No, you're not going to the bathroom. Sit there and piss yourself." Er, "pee yourself". The class were probably feeling bad for me, or...they didn't laugh or anything. They just felt bad for me."
23:52 "I couldn't be able to tell my mom about it, until years later, like...probably this year or something. She's like, "Oh.""
33:18 "Yes, I'm on meds. And I need to get refills as soon as possible, but the pharmacy has an apartment building up above, and the apartment up above got burned down, so they're trying to get fixed with it...I'm gonna have to call the pharmacy... [...] and see if I can switch pharmacies or something. And I have to get on through it. It's ridiculous."
37:22 "I've got animals who love me..." [calls Paris over]
38:13 "Off. Off. Off. Off. Off. Off. [dumps the dog on the floor] Go. Go."
TL;DR she has one long pity party for herself and her 3 or 4 viewers. Amanda, people have been telling you how to turn your life around for about a decade now, and you consistently ignored every word. Your KF thread will be 500 pages long by next week. You shit your bed, so now lie in it