Is this implying suicide baiting? You know how low that is?Many people commit suicide based on being dumped by their ex in a cruel and relentless way. The trauma and emotional damage is often extreme and difficult to ever heal. Dumping someone in a cruel way is comparable to attempted murder, thats how evil it is. Because you are saying you wish they didnt exist by totally rejecting them from your life. Its as if they killed you. And the fact is, murder happens often due to breakups or itherwise failing relationships linked to divorce or adultery or otherwise infidelity. Is murder justified in those cases, no. But there is a reason such rage and murderous thoughts stem from infidelity and divorce: its because their actions of dumping or divorce were so disgustingly evil, it almost counts as evil as murder. In the case of adultery, adulterers deserve to die but in a court with impartial unbiased judges, not the one who claims he was cheated on. I enjoy the thought of divorcees dying and suffering too. Its all deserved. Every measure of undeserved suffering you cause another ought to be inflicted on you in at least as severe a capacity.
This is in no way responsible adult thinking. "they made x person feel this way therefore it's their fault" you sound like Melinda when she excuses spousal abuse because smart talking back is "worse"
The dumped person is responsible for their own actions. No one has a gun to your head forcing you to do these things. No one has a gun to your head forcing you to check up on your ex, or telling you to feel miserable. Get a better cope. Do what everyone else does, get some comfort food, have a cry and move on
Breaking up sucks, but if you do all this creepy shit I don't think you loved her in the first place. If you loved her she could be the devil himself and you still wouldn't touch a hair on her head. All it ever was was lust, and that all comes from you.