Anaiah Carlson, Catfucker
Person of Interest
I'm a man who was once stalked by a woman. I'm attracted to intelligent women, these are also the most dangerous kind. I was 20 and she was 30. No contact with a stalker is the big rule, but in her case it just wasn't possible for me at the time. We had lived together for a year, I was still working for a boss at the time, she had my ssn, my dob, my everything. Work phone, boss's phone, MY PARENT'S BOSS'S PHONE like it was fucking nuts. I caved, she won. We remained friends after that though.
It wasn't that she was scary so much as she could bring the harassment like it was her dead man's switch. If you don't talk to me I'm going to start opening credit cards in your name type thing. She was this nomadic stripper before she moved in with me, she'd fly to other cities sometimes because the pay was better there or she used to live there. So tracking her down to stop her would prove extremely difficult for me both then and now, honestly. Also, this was before I'd heard of lifelock or similar things. I wasn't ever afraid of any physical harm, so I know women being stalked by men have it much worse than I did.
You should just go and work out anyway. Or maybe take a welding class? I think working out or working with your hands would do you a lot of good. It's a good way to still the mind. Welding pays pretty well and requires some finesse and artistry. If you can weld then you can build structures or statues, you can cut and recombine metal in infinite ways. I think you should do something other than read all day, it'll help.
Well I think those kind of threats you experienced like the one you mentioned is worse than anything I've "threatened" my ex gf. The gist of my "threats" have been "if you don't talk to me, I'm going to keep contacting you periodically until you change your mind."
But yeah maybe its for the best to move on and let go. But I gotta work through that on my own and on my own time. Maybe the court case will help me with that. Or like I said finding someone else that makes me forget about her. And yeah it is true that if I had been with her, there would have been some potentially insane shit she would have put me with her beliefs about trans, etc.
I honestly think that if she hadn't dumped me over my anti-lgbt views, she would have dumped me during the coronavirus. I am extremely anti vaccine as well as anti-medicine in general. So while I have been wearing a mask where required, my mere rhetoric would have probably been too much for her to handle because she can't handle people who disagree with her on such things (even though I did tell her if we had kids and she wanted them vaccinated I wouldn't get in the way of that).
I actually dont' read that much these days and I think it would be good for me to read again to gain my mind off women.