Kiwi Farms

So I've been drawing for a year or two regularly, on and off for a few years before that. Have a few sketchbooks filled with drawings and sketches. Recently I wanted to try doing digital art for no other reason than to shitpost and participate in 4chan drawthreads. I bought this tablet off of a failed artist friend for 10$ (it was so rarely used the drawing surface hardly had any scratches). The only issue is that I can't for the life of me get used to not staring at my hand when I draw.

I am so used to drawing on pen and paper, able to see my hand and what the pen produces, that not looking at my hand but at a screen while I draw is uncomfortable, for a lack of a better word. I tried an apple pencil and ipad pro and that felt fine, because I could see what I drew, but this tablet just feels off.

Any suggestions? Or do I just need to power through this and stop being a fag?