New cat, who this?
Narcissists do hate themselves more than they seem to. That's why narcissistic injury is a thing, their egos are so fragile they can't handle anything that goes against the grandiose self image they've constructed. They can never be wrong, or have done something bad that they need to own up to, because mentally they can't handle it. You can see it in Puppychan's behavior, too. She says all these self hating things about herself so she can later say "never mind I am loved and a good person and an amazing artist" or have her followers give her asspats. It's reinforcing her attempts to protect her image of herself.It's bizarre, she's a narcassist but she also hates herself and calls herself lazy and useless. How can one be so conflicted?