Hi everyone,
It's me, again-- as always. I don't really necessarily know where to place this thread still, even after 3 years of this gay ass shit; however, I've always posted very personal and very complicated shit on here, so might as well continue the tradition, yeah?
So let's just jump into it, shall we: what does it psychologically feel like to actually be active to some moderate level of capacity over the course of years on forums like this? Does it impact your psyche, does it cause harm to you over the long run? What does it actually mean to be in a "mind" of a person that spends at least a few moments everyday of their life looking at autism and idiocy for a few years?
The answer, in short: it hasn't really change me, besides give myself confidence in who I am and what I stand for I suppose. Most of the time, this shit is just a past time that keeps me entertained, and nothing more; there is no grandiose thought process besides making sure that what I am saying is not pure lolcow idiocy, and holding up to the standards that others on this forum have placed on me. These said standards are basically the following: be the biggest gay boy you can be, talk intellectually and with some understanding on what you are saying, and shitpost in a funny manner-- that is my "trifecta" of faggotry on this forum, and the main things I think if I do anything on here. Nothing really big, just idiosyncratic (personal) shit that I do in my regular, real life.
To be honest, and maybe it's because I haven't be halal'd or whatever, but sites like this make me think really deeply about the human condition, and how a lot of people just try to hide from the bitter truth of their existence-- sometimes to extreme degrees like ADF chopping off his dick in an act of delirious, idiotic rage over something in the end is trivial. Looking at idiocy and lolcows has been a treat for my personal introspection and how I identify as myself and what I think of this world; and I say this because this forum has given me over the course of years the environment to see people (lolcows) that just can't get the idea of "introspection" to any level whatsoever.
After seeing a multitude of people just not "getting" why normal people are mocking them, you just seem to "get" yourself in the process of it all-- provided you are open to the experience and hilarity.
To be honest, this thread I am making right now is probably the most work I have put on Kiwi Farms in awhile-- and this is from someone who has hosted the Kiwi Farms Movie Nights since its inception. I haven't really changed from what I have experienced with all this shit besides, truly, a deeper understanding of Humanity, on what it means to be an individual human, and the technology that firmly encases us-- both NORMIE and Lolcow alike.
As the most flamboyant, doxable person on this forum, that is what I have to say. This entire place has just been a source of entertainment and information of how humans interact with each other for me, and it's just going to continue that way until I get halal'd-- and probably even then I would just take it in stride.
In the end, it's just an informative, entertaining site-- placing anymore value other than that is what causes all the discomfort, disconnection and most importantly "weenery".
So... what about you? How long have you been on here, and what has your general thought process been throughout the affair? How have you grown/deteriorated from the experience? What is your own personal experience with taking small chunks of your life everyday to forums like this?
It's me, again-- as always. I don't really necessarily know where to place this thread still, even after 3 years of this gay ass shit; however, I've always posted very personal and very complicated shit on here, so might as well continue the tradition, yeah?
So let's just jump into it, shall we: what does it psychologically feel like to actually be active to some moderate level of capacity over the course of years on forums like this? Does it impact your psyche, does it cause harm to you over the long run? What does it actually mean to be in a "mind" of a person that spends at least a few moments everyday of their life looking at autism and idiocy for a few years?
The answer, in short: it hasn't really change me, besides give myself confidence in who I am and what I stand for I suppose. Most of the time, this shit is just a past time that keeps me entertained, and nothing more; there is no grandiose thought process besides making sure that what I am saying is not pure lolcow idiocy, and holding up to the standards that others on this forum have placed on me. These said standards are basically the following: be the biggest gay boy you can be, talk intellectually and with some understanding on what you are saying, and shitpost in a funny manner-- that is my "trifecta" of faggotry on this forum, and the main things I think if I do anything on here. Nothing really big, just idiosyncratic (personal) shit that I do in my regular, real life.
To be honest, and maybe it's because I haven't be halal'd or whatever, but sites like this make me think really deeply about the human condition, and how a lot of people just try to hide from the bitter truth of their existence-- sometimes to extreme degrees like ADF chopping off his dick in an act of delirious, idiotic rage over something in the end is trivial. Looking at idiocy and lolcows has been a treat for my personal introspection and how I identify as myself and what I think of this world; and I say this because this forum has given me over the course of years the environment to see people (lolcows) that just can't get the idea of "introspection" to any level whatsoever.
After seeing a multitude of people just not "getting" why normal people are mocking them, you just seem to "get" yourself in the process of it all-- provided you are open to the experience and hilarity.
To be honest, this thread I am making right now is probably the most work I have put on Kiwi Farms in awhile-- and this is from someone who has hosted the Kiwi Farms Movie Nights since its inception. I haven't really changed from what I have experienced with all this shit besides, truly, a deeper understanding of Humanity, on what it means to be an individual human, and the technology that firmly encases us-- both NORMIE and Lolcow alike.
As the most flamboyant, doxable person on this forum, that is what I have to say. This entire place has just been a source of entertainment and information of how humans interact with each other for me, and it's just going to continue that way until I get halal'd-- and probably even then I would just take it in stride.
In the end, it's just an informative, entertaining site-- placing anymore value other than that is what causes all the discomfort, disconnection and most importantly "weenery".
So... what about you? How long have you been on here, and what has your general thought process been throughout the affair? How have you grown/deteriorated from the experience? What is your own personal experience with taking small chunks of your life everyday to forums like this?
