So he's flipping out about a thread three years old started by a jerk he knew, that doesn't even have any dox in the OP or even a deadname? Hope the retard gets help instead of doing a flip.
Byuu / byuu_nyan / setsunakun0 - "Non-binary" furry programmer who wrote a Super Nintendo emulator
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Featured on Jun 27, 2021 at 6:30 AM:
Emulator developer Byuu posts a suicide note blaming his 13 page Kiwi Farms thread.
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To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 12:59 PM
I can't do this anymore.
I've tried therapy, I've tried every anti-depressant available in Japan, I've erased my entire internet presence back in July. I've tried everything, but nothing works. I can't stop having panic attacks. I can't stop feeling humiliated. I can't stop spending every hour of my life worrying about what your users are going to do next to me or my friends both onsite and off. It's been a three-year nightmare for me.
I know I'm different, but I've tried my best to be a good person. To learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. To help others wherever I could. But I've always been ridiculed for being different. It's been a constant my entire life. It's unbearable.
I can't live like this any more, it has wrecked my entire life. I really can't explain why this hurts me so deeply, and I know it's irrational. I can only tell you that I can't handle this anymore. "byuu" is all I have. I have no real-life friends, no identity off the internet, this is it. There's no other reason for my being but to try and emulate game consoles for people. I put my entire life into this.
So I'll give you the choice.
If you'll take down my thread, I'll offer you my entire life's savings: $120,000 USD, as much of that as you want, however you want it. I'll further offer you my services as a 20-year software engineer, free of charge. I've done my best the past three years to better myself and make changes for every point criticized there. I'm not involved with the fandom or non-binary scene and haven't been for years, I was just desperate to fit in somewhere. My politics are centrist and kept to myself, my social media accounts are all long-gone. You won't hear of me again, I'll just post emulator releases and that's it, absolutely no internet presence otherwise, on my word. And I'll keep going to therapy to try to get past this. This is me just outright begging you with everything I have. Please give me the chance to get through this. You won, a thousand times over already.
If not, then I'll reply with my dox: a scan of my passport, a recent photo, and proof that it's mine, for confirmation. And then I'll hang myself. I live alone, I've tested my setup with a slipknot on a solid climbing rope over a door frame, I've spent weeks doing my research on this, it works. I can nearly pass out with little effort or discomfort, the carotid arteries are easily compressible. A kick stool should be all that's needed. It won't fail, but if it were to, I live on the 14th floor and have a balcony. On my reputation and honor, having had no history of ever threatening this nor of being untruthful in my 20+ years online, I give you my word that I'm serious. You can post this e-mail if you choose. I won't make a big fuss about it online though, don't worry. It doesn't matter anymore.
I really tried to avoid getting to this point, but every day has been worse than the last for too long now. Those two weeks were the only time in the past few years where I felt any happiness at all. So it's up to you. Let me know what you decide please, or if you want anything else from me.
~ byuu
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 1:10 PM
You're putting me in a very uncomfortable position. The smartest thing for me to do is simply ignore your email, but I generally try to be nice to people.
Every word that I say in reply to you will eventually be used against me. If I help you, I've censored my website and my users may be upset. If I don't help you, I could be under investigation due to your actions. Even if my users don't care, accepting money as you've offered could be a violation of some extortion laws. I will have to consult at least one of my attorneys regarding the criminality of this issue no matter what.
Though in follow-up, why does this small discussion thread bother you so much? If you're in Japan, taking medication, and making enough money to have $120,000 in liquidity laying around, what does the Kiwi Farms deprive you of to make it worth that much money or your life? I don't see anyone on the thread talking about hurting you, so I don't understand what you mean by "what they'll do next".
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:25 PM
Well, first, thank you for replying.
I understand all of that. I know the risk it places you under. You have my word that none of this leaves here. We can switch to a secure chat like Signal if you want. Username Near: [redacted].
I know full well about Google's "exploitative removal practices" and the risk it places you on.
I can send it via anonymized Bitcoin. I have zero intention to do anything to undo this if I were to send you money. Feel free to consult with an attorney if you want, I'll sign a legally binding agreement with my legal name that it's not in any way tied to anything that could get you in trouble. I'm a US citizen as well.
As best I can tell, I have RSD as a result of ADHD, particularly bad.
https://www.additudemag.com/rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-and-adhd/
I really can't tell you why it makes me so miserable. I don't understand it either.
I've been to so many therapists, watched every video, talked to so many people, it just doesn't help.
When the thread went up in May 2018 it was a little humiliating at first but nothing major.
But then people started showing up in servers I was in accusing me of pedophilia. It's difficult to be called something so horrendous. But still, I just ignored it completely. In February 2020, someone claiming to be from your site posted a dox list on Pastebin of several of my friends to 4chan's /emugen/ board. I lost one of my best online friends of ten years to that. https://twitter.com/talarubi if you must know. Yes yes I know, trans furry etc. I doubt you'd sympathize but the relationship meant a lot to me. She got so upset by having her personal information revealed that she blamed me and we haven't spoken since. In July 2020, Basil and Retrocrab on your board were trying to make a thread on another emulator developer, Arisotura, because of me, while she was suicidal. I know, again, trans, again, I don't expect you to care about these people. But they were my friends and they spent years helping me with my software. And then when Jacob, the dumbass that he was, tried to help me, he got on your bad side and someone named Ritter doxed him in January 2021. I haven't heard from him since either and I don't even know if he's okay or not. He's not my friend, but, I didn't want this to happen to him.
None of this ever happened to me before. People didn't target other people like this because of my actions.
I've always internalized the blame for the actions of others. I feel responsible for this. Every day I wonder when it's going to start up again, who they're going to bother next. If they're going to get my dox. If they're going to harass my employer. If they're going to convince others I'm attracted to kids or animals or whatever other horrifically disgusting things they think is funny to say. It's not, man. I'm a real person.
Call me out on what I did, I'll own that. I owned it on your site in February 2020. I know I'm weird, pathetic, and so on. But I don't deserve this. I don't know if you realize this or not, but your users go after us offsite when they want to provoke reactions out of us. It's not just the thread. People A-log all the time. I have quite a few and that site is like their vindication and validation that I am a deserving target of this.
The money doesn't mean anything to me. It doesn't make me happy. I can't take it with me so I may as well offer it first as a last resort.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:27 PM
The only SSRI to do anything was Zoloft, but it caused me really terrible tinnitus and I can't take it.
The rest of it does nothing. Nortriptyline, Lexapro, Mirtazapine, Anafranil, Intuniv, it helped a little, but it doesn't do anything anymore. I also have OCD and I think that it makes me obsess over things like this. I can't stop myself from thinking about it and worrying about the "what ifs."
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 1:35 PM
You realize I can only control what's on the site, right? I can't control archives, pastbins, doxbin, etc.
https://web.archive.org/web/2020*/https://kiwifarms.net/threads/byuu-byuu_nyan-setsunakun0.43056/
https://archive.md/https://kiwifarms.net/threads/byuu-byuu_nyan-setsunakun0.43056/*
What would you do if the thread was removed but then it was simply restored on a different site (i.e. Encyclopedia Dramatica or one of the competitors to the forum)? That's not unlikely.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:46 PM
I know that. And I know I can't touch Denis' archive.md stuff. I'm hopeful it's obscure enough to be forgotten.
I don't know what else to do. I'm out of ideas and hope. It's a risk. If it happens, it happens, and I'll have to consider what to do then.
I completely deleted my entire social media internet presence a year ago, so I am desperately hoping people will forget about me and move on.
I never wanted any of this online "fame" or attention. I just wanted to release my software and it kind of grew out of control. By the time I realized the negative consequences it was too late to put that genie back in the bottle. All I can do is stay off the internet as much as possible and hope they grow bored.
Well, here. Do with this as you will. I want to hold off on the name before you decide because I don't want to risk being interrupted. If I do this I won't disclose it and I'll delete this e-mail. I don't want to be remembered that way anyway. It's not going to bring me any comfort to bother anyone else at this point. I just need this to stop.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:48 PM
Also, your site has a reach that none of those other places can ever get even close to.
You really have the #1 website on the entire internet for this sort of thing.
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 2:04 PM
I dunno homie, I have to contact a lawyer about the suicide threat anyways but you should expect my answer to be no in general.
- It sets a bad precedent.
- The money isn't worth dealing with the fallout if problems come up.
- I'd feel bad taking your entire savings.
- There's probably legal issues in accepting it anyways.
- How do I even report this income? Am I going to get a 1099-NEC?
Be realistic; my hands are tied.
The pros is basically that I have a down-payment on a house I'm looking for, but that's something I'd get anyways just working hard on keeping the community going and growing my podcast -- especially if crypto ever goes back up. I'm really not that materialistic, and I fear the wrath of God (Mark 8:36).
I feel like you're being genuine. There's a fear here that you're just trying to prank me to show people "look, Josh just wants money", but it's one of the small subsets of concerns at play here.
So hear me out: Send me your resume, I'll make you a counter offer.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 2:23 PM
It is absolutely not in my best interest to ever tell anyone about this for any reason. It exposes me to the fact that I've funded your site, which would instantly eviscerate my own reputation in my circles. It may put me at legal risk in the event your site ever does get in legal trouble. And it risks a Streisand effect if people find out we did this and then they'll want their money from mirroring the content elsewhere. In no way is it a good idea for me to ever, ever speak of this to another person. Frankly, just me offering this already puts me at risk. If you were to just drop this e-mail you could wreck my reputation instantly. I only sent this e-mail because I am for real serious. If it helps you with sincerity, proof it's my rope.
As far as precedent, it's your site so you could claim any reason you want, or just not say anything. It's up to you.
You certainly don't *have* to take all of the money, or any of it. But I'll give you whatever you want. I get something out of it so there's no reason for you to feel bad. Take what you're comfortable taking.
You would have to claim it as either 1099-NEC or Form 1040 (capital gains) to steer clear of the IRS, yes.
I have a US lawyer as well who I could have talk with your lawer. Brandon Huffman from Odin Law. Obviously I have not said anything to him about this, but in general I trust him with anything and he could help us work this out.
I can send you money any way you like. Bitcoin, Paypal, bank transfer, you name it, I'll figure it out.
The one thing I just want to say upfront is that if we do this, I would like to send it in increments. Say $1000 a month or so. Would that be agreeable? There's the risk to me if I send you the entire thing and then you keep the thread anyway. Understandably we're both a bit suspicious of one another, but I want to be straight with you.
Tell me how I can ease your concerns and I will do so.
Tell me how I can demonstrate my sincerity and I will do so.
I'm not really materialistic either. Money doesn't bring happiness.
I don't really have a resume put together but in general:
I've been employed professionally as a software engineer since 2004. I've been programming since I was 14.
I'm an expert with C, C++, PHP, SQL, etc.
The emulators I've written were bsnes, higan, and ares.
I've emulated every game system from the NES to the N64/PlayStation. Software is here: https://ares.dev/
The website runs my own HTTP server (underneath nginx for HTTPS.)
higan is notable enough for Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Higan_(emulator)
I'm an expert reverse engineer: I contributed to emulating Stephen Hawking's voice machine onto a Raspberry Pi. https://www.sfchronicle.com/bayarea...Valley-quest-to-preserve-Stephen-12759775.php (search "higan") or http://web.archive.org/web/20180829151131/http://www.hawking.org.uk/the-computer.html (search "byuu")
I'm good with algorithms and have implemented things like elliptic curve cryptography (Ed25519), Reed-Solomon error correction, Diffie-Hellman key exchange, induced sorting via suffix arrays, and other concepts.
The emulator abstraction layer I created went on to become RetroArch, which is the most well-known emulation software out there right now.
I think that's about it for a resume, but feel free to ask any additional questions.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 2:26 PM
As an alternative, I own a registered business and I can hire you as my employee for whatever purpose.
Attached is my business article of incorporation. Might be a little tricky to set up but I'm sure it's entirely doable.
> you should expect my answer to be no in general.
All I can do is pray.
[10-17-19 - NM Initial Filing - byuu LLC.pdf]
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 2:51 PM
Honestly thinking more about it, I guess it doesn't matter if you were to renege. I'll send as much as you want at a time, if we went that route. My bank has a transfer limit of 100,000 yen a day so at the very least it will take 4 months to send you everything I have. There's nothing I can do about that.
To clarify a bit more on my professional career, I worked for a Fortune 500 company for 12 years handling EDI orders. I wrote the software that ran our web portals, coded business logic EDI maps to interface with their systems, lots of SOAP/REST/DBA/VM management work.
I'm in Japan because a company here reached out to me to recruit me to reverse engineer hardware. They pay me really well for it so it was hard to say no. I've been at my current job for 3 years now.
I'm not saying I would be some kind of savant for any development tasks you had, but I'm professionally competent and I learn quickly. I'm certain I could be of assistance, or barring that, I could find people who are.
I know a whole lot employees who work at Google, Microsoft, Amazon, etc. Most emulator developers are coding savants and I am on good terms with almost all of them. So I'm confident I could achieve almost anything with favors.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-27-2021 3:12 AM
I'm sorry but I'm out of time. I presume your lawyer said not to speak to me anyway.
I've posted my dox sans last name to Twitter. I decided against sending it to you directly because I don't want anyone to be able to reach me in time. You can end up with horrific brain damage that way. I have given my passport scan to a trusted friend who will post it anonymously in a few hours, so that you guys can confirm it's legitimate. Look for news in the Arakawa ward of Tokyo in a few days.
I released my last software build under the most permissive license possible.
I've already taken several codiene and intuniv to crash my blood pressure, and now I'm getting myself as drunk as I can. This is really going to suck. But oh well, a few minutes and I'll finally be free of this.
I really would have given you the money, and you really could have saved my life with the smallest gesture of kindness. Justify it however you want, this one is on you. I hope the forum thread is worth it.
I would advise you against posting this e-mail thread as you did pseudo-implicate yourself being willing to consider the idea. But do whatever you want, it doesn't matter. I'm not going to release it on my end.
See you Josh.
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-27-2021 12:18 PM
I will not be extorted.
[Posted around the time of his last email.]
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 12:59 PM
I can't do this anymore.
I've tried therapy, I've tried every anti-depressant available in Japan, I've erased my entire internet presence back in July. I've tried everything, but nothing works. I can't stop having panic attacks. I can't stop feeling humiliated. I can't stop spending every hour of my life worrying about what your users are going to do next to me or my friends both onsite and off. It's been a three-year nightmare for me.
I know I'm different, but I've tried my best to be a good person. To learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. To help others wherever I could. But I've always been ridiculed for being different. It's been a constant my entire life. It's unbearable.
I can't live like this any more, it has wrecked my entire life. I really can't explain why this hurts me so deeply, and I know it's irrational. I can only tell you that I can't handle this anymore. "byuu" is all I have. I have no real-life friends, no identity off the internet, this is it. There's no other reason for my being but to try and emulate game consoles for people. I put my entire life into this.
So I'll give you the choice.
If you'll take down my thread, I'll offer you my entire life's savings: $120,000 USD, as much of that as you want, however you want it. I'll further offer you my services as a 20-year software engineer, free of charge. I've done my best the past three years to better myself and make changes for every point criticized there. I'm not involved with the fandom or non-binary scene and haven't been for years, I was just desperate to fit in somewhere. My politics are centrist and kept to myself, my social media accounts are all long-gone. You won't hear of me again, I'll just post emulator releases and that's it, absolutely no internet presence otherwise, on my word. And I'll keep going to therapy to try to get past this. This is me just outright begging you with everything I have. Please give me the chance to get through this. You won, a thousand times over already.
If not, then I'll reply with my dox: a scan of my passport, a recent photo, and proof that it's mine, for confirmation. And then I'll hang myself. I live alone, I've tested my setup with a slipknot on a solid climbing rope over a door frame, I've spent weeks doing my research on this, it works. I can nearly pass out with little effort or discomfort, the carotid arteries are easily compressible. A kick stool should be all that's needed. It won't fail, but if it were to, I live on the 14th floor and have a balcony. On my reputation and honor, having had no history of ever threatening this nor of being untruthful in my 20+ years online, I give you my word that I'm serious. You can post this e-mail if you choose. I won't make a big fuss about it online though, don't worry. It doesn't matter anymore.
I really tried to avoid getting to this point, but every day has been worse than the last for too long now. Those two weeks were the only time in the past few years where I felt any happiness at all. So it's up to you. Let me know what you decide please, or if you want anything else from me.
~ byuu
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 1:10 PM
You're putting me in a very uncomfortable position. The smartest thing for me to do is simply ignore your email, but I generally try to be nice to people.
Every word that I say in reply to you will eventually be used against me. If I help you, I've censored my website and my users may be upset. If I don't help you, I could be under investigation due to your actions. Even if my users don't care, accepting money as you've offered could be a violation of some extortion laws. I will have to consult at least one of my attorneys regarding the criminality of this issue no matter what.
Though in follow-up, why does this small discussion thread bother you so much? If you're in Japan, taking medication, and making enough money to have $120,000 in liquidity laying around, what does the Kiwi Farms deprive you of to make it worth that much money or your life? I don't see anyone on the thread talking about hurting you, so I don't understand what you mean by "what they'll do next".
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:25 PM
Well, first, thank you for replying.
I understand all of that. I know the risk it places you under. You have my word that none of this leaves here. We can switch to a secure chat like Signal if you want. Username Near: [redacted].
I know full well about Google's "exploitative removal practices" and the risk it places you on.
I can send it via anonymized Bitcoin. I have zero intention to do anything to undo this if I were to send you money. Feel free to consult with an attorney if you want, I'll sign a legally binding agreement with my legal name that it's not in any way tied to anything that could get you in trouble. I'm a US citizen as well.
As best I can tell, I have RSD as a result of ADHD, particularly bad.
https://www.additudemag.com/rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-and-adhd/
I really can't tell you why it makes me so miserable. I don't understand it either.
I've been to so many therapists, watched every video, talked to so many people, it just doesn't help.
When the thread went up in May 2018 it was a little humiliating at first but nothing major.
But then people started showing up in servers I was in accusing me of pedophilia. It's difficult to be called something so horrendous. But still, I just ignored it completely. In February 2020, someone claiming to be from your site posted a dox list on Pastebin of several of my friends to 4chan's /emugen/ board. I lost one of my best online friends of ten years to that. https://twitter.com/talarubi if you must know. Yes yes I know, trans furry etc. I doubt you'd sympathize but the relationship meant a lot to me. She got so upset by having her personal information revealed that she blamed me and we haven't spoken since. In July 2020, Basil and Retrocrab on your board were trying to make a thread on another emulator developer, Arisotura, because of me, while she was suicidal. I know, again, trans, again, I don't expect you to care about these people. But they were my friends and they spent years helping me with my software. And then when Jacob, the dumbass that he was, tried to help me, he got on your bad side and someone named Ritter doxed him in January 2021. I haven't heard from him since either and I don't even know if he's okay or not. He's not my friend, but, I didn't want this to happen to him.
None of this ever happened to me before. People didn't target other people like this because of my actions.
I've always internalized the blame for the actions of others. I feel responsible for this. Every day I wonder when it's going to start up again, who they're going to bother next. If they're going to get my dox. If they're going to harass my employer. If they're going to convince others I'm attracted to kids or animals or whatever other horrifically disgusting things they think is funny to say. It's not, man. I'm a real person.
Call me out on what I did, I'll own that. I owned it on your site in February 2020. I know I'm weird, pathetic, and so on. But I don't deserve this. I don't know if you realize this or not, but your users go after us offsite when they want to provoke reactions out of us. It's not just the thread. People A-log all the time. I have quite a few and that site is like their vindication and validation that I am a deserving target of this.
The money doesn't mean anything to me. It doesn't make me happy. I can't take it with me so I may as well offer it first as a last resort.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:27 PM
The only SSRI to do anything was Zoloft, but it caused me really terrible tinnitus and I can't take it.
The rest of it does nothing. Nortriptyline, Lexapro, Mirtazapine, Anafranil, Intuniv, it helped a little, but it doesn't do anything anymore. I also have OCD and I think that it makes me obsess over things like this. I can't stop myself from thinking about it and worrying about the "what ifs."
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 1:35 PM
You realize I can only control what's on the site, right? I can't control archives, pastbins, doxbin, etc.
https://web.archive.org/web/2020*/https://kiwifarms.net/threads/byuu-byuu_nyan-setsunakun0.43056/
https://archive.md/https://kiwifarms.net/threads/byuu-byuu_nyan-setsunakun0.43056/*
What would you do if the thread was removed but then it was simply restored on a different site (i.e. Encyclopedia Dramatica or one of the competitors to the forum)? That's not unlikely.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:46 PM
I know that. And I know I can't touch Denis' archive.md stuff. I'm hopeful it's obscure enough to be forgotten.
I don't know what else to do. I'm out of ideas and hope. It's a risk. If it happens, it happens, and I'll have to consider what to do then.
I completely deleted my entire social media internet presence a year ago, so I am desperately hoping people will forget about me and move on.
I never wanted any of this online "fame" or attention. I just wanted to release my software and it kind of grew out of control. By the time I realized the negative consequences it was too late to put that genie back in the bottle. All I can do is stay off the internet as much as possible and hope they grow bored.
Well, here. Do with this as you will. I want to hold off on the name before you decide because I don't want to risk being interrupted. If I do this I won't disclose it and I'll delete this e-mail. I don't want to be remembered that way anyway. It's not going to bring me any comfort to bother anyone else at this point. I just need this to stop.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 1:48 PM
Also, your site has a reach that none of those other places can ever get even close to.
You really have the #1 website on the entire internet for this sort of thing.
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-26-2021 2:04 PM
I dunno homie, I have to contact a lawyer about the suicide threat anyways but you should expect my answer to be no in general.
- It sets a bad precedent.
- The money isn't worth dealing with the fallout if problems come up.
- I'd feel bad taking your entire savings.
- There's probably legal issues in accepting it anyways.
- How do I even report this income? Am I going to get a 1099-NEC?
Be realistic; my hands are tied.
The pros is basically that I have a down-payment on a house I'm looking for, but that's something I'd get anyways just working hard on keeping the community going and growing my podcast -- especially if crypto ever goes back up. I'm really not that materialistic, and I fear the wrath of God (Mark 8:36).
I feel like you're being genuine. There's a fear here that you're just trying to prank me to show people "look, Josh just wants money", but it's one of the small subsets of concerns at play here.
So hear me out: Send me your resume, I'll make you a counter offer.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 2:23 PM
It is absolutely not in my best interest to ever tell anyone about this for any reason. It exposes me to the fact that I've funded your site, which would instantly eviscerate my own reputation in my circles. It may put me at legal risk in the event your site ever does get in legal trouble. And it risks a Streisand effect if people find out we did this and then they'll want their money from mirroring the content elsewhere. In no way is it a good idea for me to ever, ever speak of this to another person. Frankly, just me offering this already puts me at risk. If you were to just drop this e-mail you could wreck my reputation instantly. I only sent this e-mail because I am for real serious. If it helps you with sincerity, proof it's my rope.
As far as precedent, it's your site so you could claim any reason you want, or just not say anything. It's up to you.
You certainly don't *have* to take all of the money, or any of it. But I'll give you whatever you want. I get something out of it so there's no reason for you to feel bad. Take what you're comfortable taking.
You would have to claim it as either 1099-NEC or Form 1040 (capital gains) to steer clear of the IRS, yes.
I have a US lawyer as well who I could have talk with your lawer. Brandon Huffman from Odin Law. Obviously I have not said anything to him about this, but in general I trust him with anything and he could help us work this out.
I can send you money any way you like. Bitcoin, Paypal, bank transfer, you name it, I'll figure it out.
The one thing I just want to say upfront is that if we do this, I would like to send it in increments. Say $1000 a month or so. Would that be agreeable? There's the risk to me if I send you the entire thing and then you keep the thread anyway. Understandably we're both a bit suspicious of one another, but I want to be straight with you.
Tell me how I can ease your concerns and I will do so.
Tell me how I can demonstrate my sincerity and I will do so.
I'm not really materialistic either. Money doesn't bring happiness.
I don't really have a resume put together but in general:
I've been employed professionally as a software engineer since 2004. I've been programming since I was 14.
I'm an expert with C, C++, PHP, SQL, etc.
The emulators I've written were bsnes, higan, and ares.
I've emulated every game system from the NES to the N64/PlayStation. Software is here: https://ares.dev/
The website runs my own HTTP server (underneath nginx for HTTPS.)
higan is notable enough for Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Higan_(emulator)
I'm an expert reverse engineer: I contributed to emulating Stephen Hawking's voice machine onto a Raspberry Pi. https://www.sfchronicle.com/bayarea...Valley-quest-to-preserve-Stephen-12759775.php (search "higan") or http://web.archive.org/web/20180829151131/http://www.hawking.org.uk/the-computer.html (search "byuu")
I'm good with algorithms and have implemented things like elliptic curve cryptography (Ed25519), Reed-Solomon error correction, Diffie-Hellman key exchange, induced sorting via suffix arrays, and other concepts.
The emulator abstraction layer I created went on to become RetroArch, which is the most well-known emulation software out there right now.
I think that's about it for a resume, but feel free to ask any additional questions.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 2:26 PM
As an alternative, I own a registered business and I can hire you as my employee for whatever purpose.
Attached is my business article of incorporation. Might be a little tricky to set up but I'm sure it's entirely doable.
> you should expect my answer to be no in general.
All I can do is pray.
[10-17-19 - NM Initial Filing - byuu LLC.pdf]
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-26-2021 2:51 PM
Honestly thinking more about it, I guess it doesn't matter if you were to renege. I'll send as much as you want at a time, if we went that route. My bank has a transfer limit of 100,000 yen a day so at the very least it will take 4 months to send you everything I have. There's nothing I can do about that.
To clarify a bit more on my professional career, I worked for a Fortune 500 company for 12 years handling EDI orders. I wrote the software that ran our web portals, coded business logic EDI maps to interface with their systems, lots of SOAP/REST/DBA/VM management work.
I'm in Japan because a company here reached out to me to recruit me to reverse engineer hardware. They pay me really well for it so it was hard to say no. I've been at my current job for 3 years now.
I'm not saying I would be some kind of savant for any development tasks you had, but I'm professionally competent and I learn quickly. I'm certain I could be of assistance, or barring that, I could find people who are.
I know a whole lot employees who work at Google, Microsoft, Amazon, etc. Most emulator developers are coding savants and I am on good terms with almost all of them. So I'm confident I could achieve almost anything with favors.
From: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
To: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
Date: June-27-2021 3:12 AM
I'm sorry but I'm out of time. I presume your lawyer said not to speak to me anyway.
I've posted my dox sans last name to Twitter. I decided against sending it to you directly because I don't want anyone to be able to reach me in time. You can end up with horrific brain damage that way. I have given my passport scan to a trusted friend who will post it anonymously in a few hours, so that you guys can confirm it's legitimate. Look for news in the Arakawa ward of Tokyo in a few days.
I released my last software build under the most permissive license possible.
I've already taken several codiene and intuniv to crash my blood pressure, and now I'm getting myself as drunk as I can. This is really going to suck. But oh well, a few minutes and I'll finally be free of this.
I really would have given you the money, and you really could have saved my life with the smallest gesture of kindness. Justify it however you want, this one is on you. I hope the forum thread is worth it.
I would advise you against posting this e-mail thread as you did pseudo-implicate yourself being willing to consider the idea. But do whatever you want, it doesn't matter. I'm not going to release it on my end.
See you Josh.
From: Null <null@kiwifarms.net>
To: byuu <byuu@byuu.org>
Date: June-27-2021 12:18 PM
I will not be extorted.
[Posted around the time of his last email.]
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Goes from "I'm going to kill myself because of the thread" to "you better do what I say after refusing my money". Fuck this guy. Suicide baiting to try and get his thread removed.
Desperation or trying to use it so he can file some legal garbage is my guess.
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So this nigga had enough money to buy a cheap house, an LLC in New Mexico, enough marketable skills to live comfortably wherever he wanted, and killed himself over a dead thread?
Wack
Edit: having fully read the OP now I understand even less, it's just low grade autism and e-drama. One of the lowest bars for committing sudoku I've seen.
Wack
Edit: having fully read the OP now I understand even less, it's just low grade autism and e-drama. One of the lowest bars for committing sudoku I've seen.
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Bait.
Here's hoping for a +1 to the kiwi kill count.
Again, I'm not buying this. This guy is going all in on the "or else I'll kill myself" deal. For legal reasons, I cannot state a more eloquent way of my opinion on this, but it'd be far more colorful without the threat of Null getting sued.
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Bruh I hope he streams his suicide. Quote me in the articles.
Even the first few lines of the OP direct to Byuu's side of the story, and state that he has changed since then. Just ignore the thread dummy.
Okay, fuck it. This loser better have an after party where his family dances over his corpse.
It wouldn't be a complete waste of time, then.
>Do this or I'll kill myself?
>Err....im not sure...but no.
>Well I'll pay you so you do what I say.
>I'll check with my lawyer but most likely no.
>Do what I say "or else".
>Fuck off.
Pure bait. I too can go buy some rope and tie it around a door and say I'm going to off myself unless you do what I say. What a manipulative bitch.
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He sure didn't understand how to emulate Null cycle accurately.
dumb asshole cunt
FriendlyPrimarina
kiwifarms.net
Hope he films it; the "Post videos of people dying" thread has been slow recently.
$20 says Null gets an email tomorrow with "I'm really going to do it this time."
$20 says Null gets an email tomorrow with "I'm really going to do it this time."
He looks like a tranny, if he is mentally ill enough to be a tranny he most likely has other mental illnesses. I estimate that he is having some gang stalking delusions and thinks that gang stalkers are behind every corner. Chances are that he has never even met anyone who has read his thread.
Warkrieg Battlebournion
kiwifarms.net
Tell him to read the Bible and go to Church. New Testament first.
What a stupid faggot.
I hope the ghosts of samurais past take his soul and use it as a communal onahole.
I hope the ghosts of samurais past take his soul and use it as a communal onahole.
So basically this?
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