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Oh it's home of the disabled alright
Oh it's home of the disabled alright
byuu's emulator was cycle accurate, which means it perfectly reproduces the SNES's behavior. zsnes is notoriously inaccurate and snes9x, while extremely accurate, still had a few edge cases (which byuu autistically covered on their site). Not that I like suicide-baiting weirdos, but higan is extremely important in terms of the evolution of emulation.also why do you need another snes emu, snes9x and znes have existed for like 20 years. what the fuck im missing something?
I can't dilateOi vey this is going to be good. I 100% expect that if the really guy killed himself, the media will turn him into the tranny George Floyd.
I felt less dirty watching JayStation summoning Etika than reading this.A Google doc from "marcan", on behalf of an anonymous origin, has been published trying to shift 100% of the blame onto this thread in particular.
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Near
At 11:45 on Sunday, I was on a phone call with Near. They’d just taken a large overdose of codeine and guanfancine. I saw a photo of the noose. 30 minutes into the call, Les Voyages De L'âme by Alcest started playing at the other end. I wouldn’t hear their voice again. “Near took their own lif...docs.google.com
There's still no confirmation of a suicide. I'm wondering if this is just them trying to cause enough outrage to hurt the forum.
At 11:45 on Sunday, I was on a phone call with Near. They’d just taken a large overdose of codeine and guanfancine. I saw a photo of the noose.
30 minutes into the call, Les Voyages De L'âme by Alcest started playing at the other end. I wouldn’t hear their voice again.
“Near took their own life”. That’s how a news article would phrase it. Suicide is a voluntary action, a problem with oneself. Implying nobody is to blame but the victim and perpetrator, one and the same.
But that’s not how human brains work. We are not cold, calculating machines. We are a product of our environment. We are shaped by our experiences. A single, powerful traumatic event can change a person forever. So can a million small ones. This is not a weakness of the mind, it is a fundamental part of what it means to be human.
Near was a brilliant mind in a corner of the web all too often rife with toxicity and harassment. Despite this, they continued to pour their life into the one thing they loved: emulation and retro gaming. Developer of the bsnes, higan, and ares emulators, Near was a relentless force for accuracy in the formerly haphazard world of emulation. Working out the most elusive hardware glitches and corner cases, they advanced the world of SNES emulation by leaps and bounds. They also recently released their ultimate labor of love, a fan translation of Bahamut Lagoon that might well be the most exacting and meticulously crafted language adaptation of a video game of the era.
Near was also an incredibly kind, funny, and welcoming person. I’d known them for several years, but after they moved to Tokyo a few years back we started talking more often. One of the most modest people I’ve ever known, they were unlikely to suggest hanging out in person, but never rejected an offer. I wish I’d done that more often. We’ve had long text conversations, and shared many stories.
Near did not commit suicide. Near was murdered. Victim of a lifetime of harassment. After an abusive childhood, and followed by community toxicity, Near was eventually targeted by Kiwi Farms. Members of that website make a sport of preying on the less fortunate, on those in positions liable to being emotionally abused. And they do so relentlessly. From the comfort of anonymity, of sitting in front of their computer thousands of kilometers away, they take glee in slowly destroying the psyche of others, bit by bit. To death, if possible.
Near survived that. Many wouldn’t, but Near was strong enough to overcome that level of emotional abuse. But Kiwi Farms is relentless. Not to be defeated in their pursuit of utter emotional and psychological destruction, they went after who Near treasured most: their friends. Doxing some, directly harassing others, and even specifically seeking out suicidal people to target.
That broke Near.
After falling down a spiral of depression and eventually breaking off contact with everyone last year, I feared for the worst. Eventually, they were luckily able to get help and found medication that helped them cope with the psychological scars of abuse in late 2020. I first heard from Near again in late October 2020, and we again started having chats. It seemed things were getting better.
Unfortunately, medication can be a fickle beast. It didn’t work forever. The looming threat of Kiwi Farms, of their power to destroy not just Near but also their friends, caused them daily anxiety that just wouldn’t go away. Worried that their friends would feel burdened by their condition again, Near decided to avoid the subject. I only found out about this relapse today.
To the people of Kiwi Farms, this is a videogame. That the people on the other side of the screen are real makes no difference. They delight in the kill counter going up just like an FPS player would. Lacking in any empathy, they have no regard for the damage they inflict on others.
Why do we tolerate this? “Harassment”, “online bullying”. How are these any different from terrorism, from someone grabbing a gun and taking the lives of others? Why does it matter that a physical bullet was not involved? The objective and the end result are the same. Saying Near “took their life” is giving these people an out for their actions, which directly resulted in the intentional death of a person.
Some of you may be aware of Near’s notoriously paranoid opsec. After getting to know them, it became clear this was a defense mechanism; a product of all the abuse they received over their entire life. I was perhaps one of the few lucky enough to exchange deeply personal stories with them, yet I never knew their full name - because I didn’t need to. But they’d have told me if I asked. Near is anything but cold and distant in person; those attributes were necessary façades grown in response to lifelong harassment and abuse.
We, as the internet community, need to take a hard look at what it means to continue to tolerate the existence of these communities and the actions of those in them. Not just Kiwi Farms; sites like that serve to concentrate people like this, but they exist across all communities and social media. Being passive about this problem means being complicit.
DreamHost, you are the Kiwi Farms domain registrar. CloudFlare, you protect Kiwi Farms against attacks. You both share responsibility in not just Near’s death, but also others, as well as the pain and harassment of thousands more. Is this the image you want to maintain? Is the income worth the weight on your conscience?
I last saw Near on June 9. We had sushi in Akihabara, and then sat down for a cup of coffee. I was a bit busy that day, but I was looking forward to inviting them over to hang out again soon.
Les Voyages De L'âme kept playing on repeat at the other end of the call for another hour.
I couldn’t bring myself to hang up.
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Published on behalf of a mutual friend of Near and I, who wishes to remain anonymous for their own protection. -marcan
Mankind knew that they cannot change Nintendo, so instead of reflecting on themselves, they blamed the demons.You know what really happened? Nintendo hates the people who do anything with their intellectual properties. An SNES emulator? Oh you know they wouldn't like that. So they sent their ninjas to his doorstep and in his "final hour" he turns to Null and in code tries to get him to send help. It's almost less retarded than his reasoning for "killing himself".
brother i just open the thing and load some roms, i dont give a shit about any of thatbyuu's emulator was cycle accurate, which means it perfectly reproduces the SNES's behavior. zsnes is notoriously inaccurate and snes9x, while extremely accurate, still had a few edge cases (which byuu autistically covered on their site). Not that I like suicide-baiting weirdos, but higan is extremely important in terms of the evolution of emulation.
>backup urls as random.txtJust realized that the public post identifies two third-party services, but doesn't name 1776hosting or anything else I run. This also comes less than 12 hours after the alleged suicide. Whether or not he did anything, he definitely spent months trying to figure out what service providers we still use that I don't directly run, and has consequently put them on blast. Not an accident.
Nah, I think it's pretty reasonable. Despite being a mostly friendless weirdo with paranoia and depression, he was a pretty prolific person in the very large emulation scene, and has a couple friends or acquaintances in high places. BSNES was pretty recently even mentioned in a Nerrel video as being the best SNES emulator available for its cycle-accurate emulation and various quality of life upgrades that other emus don't have (I believe it's the one that reduces lag by processing it differently or something, so you can play games with tons of sprites on screen at consistent 60fps). It does make sense to me that a lot of people are grieving his supposed loss right away.This is all escalating too quickly for it to feel organic. Within 48 hours a person contacts Null, offering to pay money to remove the shitty thread, they kill themselves, all of a sudden the friendless person's friends are contacting Null and blaming the thread. Fuck this gay shit.
you should not threat violence to ppl on the internet, moreso to those who may be at actual risk of attacks...I'll clap you in guilty gear strive square up
To give a more normie answer, some SNES still have problems and even then some of the enhancements he made were actually really good like HD Mode 7brother i just open the thing and load some roms, i dont give a shit about any of that
YOU AIN'T TRANSSEXUAL IF YOU HAVEN'T DONE THIS BEFORE!Mankind knew that they cannot change Nintendo, so instead of reflecting on themselves, they blamed the demons.
Heaven or hell.
Good find!
Killcount from 3-7. How are they so unsure? If the people died from us, that can be found out. This is not USSR where Stalin actively purged all info about Gulag deaths.
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I wonder if that Russian knows that only the US Gov can sue for criminal acts?
It's not protected for me.Twitter is protected. It wasn't yesterday.