Artcow Christy Lynn Walker / Olimar Puke-Chan / ppauly / Nemu / Holden / Malfunction54 - A legacy tumblr horrorcow whose online footprint spans many platforms.

[Kiri]

I feel like Nemu's artstyle was inspired by Shmorky

 

[BastardLegs]

Great news, and by "great" I mean "Jesus fucking Christ": I was clearing out some very old Tumblr DMs, and found one from Nemu explaining what she finds erotic about radiation poisoning. If anybody might still think her fetish was just an Andy Kaufman-style jape, have a look at this:

Spoiler: fucking gross within

TL;DR: It's an x-treme version of Munchausen

 

[Meowthkip]

Great news, and by "great" I mean "Jesus fucking Christ": I was clearing out some very old Tumblr DMs, and found one from Nemu explaining what she finds erotic about radiation poisoning. If anybody might still think her fetish was just an Andy Kaufman-style jape, have a look at this:

Spoiler: fucking gross within

View attachment 838662

TL;DR: It's an x-treme version of Munchausen

How's she enjoying that Chernobyl miniseries?

 

[Chicken Picnic]

Great news, and by "great" I mean "Jesus fucking Christ": I was clearing out some very old Tumblr DMs, and found one from Nemu explaining what she finds erotic about radiation poisoning. If anybody might still think her fetish was just an Andy Kaufman-style jape, have a look at this:

Spoiler: fucking gross within

View attachment 838662

TL;DR: It's an x-treme version of Munchausen

Jesus fucking Christ
She wants to fuck that fireman from Chernobyl so bad

 

[visiting loser]

Hi, so I have never posted here before, and for full disclosure I’m a tumblr native and I don’t like this site. But I am really glad I found this thread cuz I used to lurk on Nemu’s tumblr back in the day, and was/still am very disturbed by a particular bit of info that I don’t think has come up yet, and I’m wondering if anyone else remembers this or has proof of it.

So it’s obviously known she has a thing about pregnancy/impregnantion. Which is weird imo but not The weirdest. And everyone knows she pornifies characters that are or look like children.

But what really severely freaked me out was her fetishizing irl childbirth & fathering/infants, combined with her insistence that she would definitely have children with the guy (Daniel?). She was turned on by seeing fathers hold babies & would draw her characters holding babies & talk about wanting to see her bf hold their babies. Once she posted about wanting to be having anal sex while she gave birth to their baby and while she held her newborn?!?! I can’t prove these, but theyre seared into my memory, especially the last bit. Considering she definitely went all the way with other fetishes, and just generally seems unable to differentiate sexual fantasy & reality or acknowledge the consequences of her actions, I just have never been able to get out of my head the fear that one day this person will actually have a baby and actually involve her real live human infant in sex acts.

She also posted cutesy stuff about wanting to share her favorite franchises with her kids and bond over them, like Transformers, but in the context of her compulsively sexual relationship to children’s media that’s still mildly disturbing.

I didn’t know at the time either that she would discuss sexual topics with young teens and stuff online. That makes it even worse to know she has already crossed certain lines as far as young people & sexual conduct. I wonder if that has been brought up to her. I know on tumblr she would get extremely defensive & upset at any implication she could ever be sexually inappropriate or harmful to kids.

So all that, plus the fact she works with kids, just really churns my gut. I do think this is someone with some kind of severe sexual trauma, whether the particulars of her stories are true or not. But the thought of her working with or god forbid RAISING children & passing that trauma on has stuck with me for years. Like.. can you imagine having her as your mother? Even the vomit/scat stuff kind of pales in comparison to this for me.

Anyway, if anyone can verify any of this, and/or if you have any up to date info on where she might be with this stuff now that she’s possibly in treatment & no longer working w kids (?), I would super appreciate it lmao.

 

[Kuwomi]

Hi, so I have never posted here before, and for full disclosure I’m a tumblr native and I don’t like this site. But I am really glad I found this thread cuz I used to lurk on Nemu’s tumblr back in the day, and was/still am very disturbed by a particular bit of info that I don’t think has come up yet, and I’m wondering if anyone else remembers this or has proof of it.

So it’s obviously known she has a thing about pregnancy/impregnantion. Which is weird imo but not The weirdest. And everyone knows she pornifies characters that are or look like children.

But what really severely freaked me out was her fetishizing irl childbirth & fathering/infants, combined with her insistence that she would definitely have children with the guy (Daniel?). She was turned on by seeing fathers hold babies & would draw her characters holding babies & talk about wanting to see her bf hold their babies. Once she posted about wanting to be having anal sex while she gave birth to their baby and while she held her newborn?!‽ I can’t prove these, but theyre seared into my memory, especially the last bit. Considering she definitely went all the way with other fetishes, and just generally seems unable to differentiate sexual fantasy & reality or acknowledge the consequences of her actions, I just have never been able to get out of my head the fear that one day this person will actually have a baby and actually involve her real live human infant in sex acts.

She also posted cutesy stuff about wanting to share her favorite franchises with her kids and bond over them, like Transformers, but in the context of her compulsively sexual relationship to children’s media that’s still mildly disturbing.

I didn’t know at the time either that she would discuss sexual topics with young teens and stuff online. That makes it even worse to know she has already crossed certain lines as far as young people & sexual conduct. I wonder if that has been brought up to her. I know on tumblr she would get extremely defensive & upset at any implication she could ever be sexually inappropriate or harmful to kids.

So all that, plus the fact she works with kids, just really churns my gut. I do think this is someone with some kind of severe sexual trauma, whether the particulars of her stories are true or not. But the thought of her working with or god forbid RAISING children & passing that trauma on has stuck with me for years. Like.. can you imagine having her as your mother? Even the vomit/scat stuff kind of pales in comparison to this for me.

Anyway, if anyone can verify any of this, and/or if you have any up to date info on where she might be with this stuff now that she’s possibly in treatment & no longer working w kids (?), I would super appreciate it lmao.

Wow -- I never heard anything about all that; I knew she was into everything to do with childbirth and whatnot but from what I remembered she said that was her way of coping because she couldn't have kids herself (don't quite remember what was wrong with her). However given that it's Nemu we're talking about I wouldn't say all that is too far fetched.

Unfortunately I'm not sure about her current whereabouts, since she got outed last time she's seemingly disappeared from the internet. I suspect she's getting help now but again I can't be too sure. If she popped back up I'm sure some kiwi would've spotted her by now.

Thanks for sharing your experience by the way, it's much appreciated.

 

[Koresh]

Hi, so I have never posted here before, and for full disclosure I’m a tumblr native and I don’t like this site. But I am really glad I found this thread cuz I used to lurk on Nemu’s tumblr back in the day, and was/still am very disturbed by a particular bit of info that I don’t think has come up yet, and I’m wondering if anyone else remembers this or has proof of it.

So it’s obviously known she has a thing about pregnancy/impregnantion. Which is weird imo but not The weirdest. And everyone knows she pornifies characters that are or look like children.

But what really severely freaked me out was her fetishizing irl childbirth & fathering/infants, combined with her insistence that she would definitely have children with the guy (Daniel?). She was turned on by seeing fathers hold babies & would draw her characters holding babies & talk about wanting to see her bf hold their babies. Once she posted about wanting to be having anal sex while she gave birth to their baby and while she held her newborn?!‽ I can’t prove these, but theyre seared into my memory, especially the last bit. Considering she definitely went all the way with other fetishes, and just generally seems unable to differentiate sexual fantasy & reality or acknowledge the consequences of her actions, I just have never been able to get out of my head the fear that one day this person will actually have a baby and actually involve her real live human infant in sex acts.

She also posted cutesy stuff about wanting to share her favorite franchises with her kids and bond over them, like Transformers, but in the context of her compulsively sexual relationship to children’s media that’s still mildly disturbing.

I didn’t know at the time either that she would discuss sexual topics with young teens and stuff online. That makes it even worse to know she has already crossed certain lines as far as young people & sexual conduct. I wonder if that has been brought up to her. I know on tumblr she would get extremely defensive & upset at any implication she could ever be sexually inappropriate or harmful to kids.

So all that, plus the fact she works with kids, just really churns my gut. I do think this is someone with some kind of severe sexual trauma, whether the particulars of her stories are true or not. But the thought of her working with or god forbid RAISING children & passing that trauma on has stuck with me for years. Like.. can you imagine having her as your mother? Even the vomit/scat stuff kind of pales in comparison to this for me.

Anyway, if anyone can verify any of this, and/or if you have any up to date info on where she might be with this stuff now that she’s possibly in treatment & no longer working w kids (?), I would super appreciate it lmao.

Nah, you're remembering right. She had that fantasy about anal while giving birth with all of her husbandos, but the one I remember most is one where O'Hare had sex with her snakesona while she pushed out eggs or some shit.

She did work as a substitute art teacher and would talk about it on streams a lot. But she also complained a lot about the kids and she was fired because she lost her temper with one and called him racist, IIRC. Haven't read through this thread, so sorry if late. Maybe I'm optimistic and I'm definitely biased because I still think of our time chatting together fondly, but she wouldn't ever abuse a kid. She was really aware of them and on several occasions she'd mention being worried that a girl or something was being abused in a genuine way, not a predatory manner. The thing with Nemu was that she didn't understand that talking about sexual stuff with underaged people was wrong because in her logic, if they knew enough about sex to bring it up to her, there wasn't a reason to sugarcoat anything. I don't think we should immediately jump to accusing her of abusing the kids she was around.

 

[log_breath]

I remembered she said that was her way of coping because she couldn't have kids herself (don't quite remember what was wrong with her). However given that it's Nemu we're talking about I wouldn't say all that is too far fetched.

Yeah she could have kids she was just super paranoid about getting pregnant. If her boyfriend even came close to jizzing close to her vagina she would take a Plan B and write about it in detail freaking out.

Also way before she got a tiny bit more restraint she would talk about liking lolicon and shotacon all the time. She would also frequent a catholic church because she would get turned on by priests.

 

[Parthenos]

Also way before she got a tiny bit more restraint she would talk about liking lolicon and shotacon all the time.
She would also frequent a catholic church because she would get turned on by priests.

Lines up well with the whole "my husbando must be a virgin" thing. Imagine if someone at the parish found that out, though:

"There's a pedophile lurking in this church!"

"What? Who? It can't be Father-"

"Nope, it's that one girl alone in the pew....wait a minute, what's she doing back there?"

 

[CuckMongler]

Of all the fucking characters to get a creepy-ass radiation childbirth fetish to, she chose fucking Crocker and pizza Steve
Every day we get closer to a lovercraftian vision of our world, but replace all the gods and monsters with all types of degeneracy.

 

[Meowzers]

iirc she wanted kids, and physically could have kids, but she was at high risk for postpartum psychosis and didn't want to risk going off her meds during pregnancy. that, and without a doubt her kids would end up with her mental illnesses too. that was a smart choice imo. also, iirc apparently neon genesis evangelion kickstarted her desire to be a mother. i'm not sure how you get baby fever from evangelion, but there you go.
she had a big kink for her fictional babies looking just like their fathers. she gushed once about how even her genes were submissive - she's blonde with blue eyes and her bf was filipino so their kids would take after him. that got her motors going.

speaking of, i wonder if they're even still together? david spilled a lot of dirt on her on the original lolcow thread, including her full name. i'm so curious as to what she's up to these days.

since this thread is half alive anyway, i want to ask @BastardLegs something that i never saw explained when this thread and her lolcow thread were active. what was up with her pencil phobia? was she seriously scared of pencils to the point where she couldn't even say the word? how does one even develop a phobia of pencils to begin with, let alone one that intense?

 

[Koresh]

iirc she wanted kids, and physically could have kids, but she was at high risk for postpartum psychosis and didn't want to risk going off her meds during pregnancy. that, and without a doubt her kids would end up with her mental illnesses too. that was a smart choice imo. also, iirc apparently neon genesis evangelion kickstarted her desire to be a mother. i'm not sure how you get baby fever from evangelion, but there you go.
she had a big kink for her fictional babies looking just like their fathers. she gushed once about how even her genes were submissive - she's blonde with blue eyes and her bf was filipino so their kids would take after him. that got her motors going.

speaking of, i wonder if they're even still together? david spilled a lot of dirt on her on the original lolcow thread, including her full name. i'm so curious as to what she's up to these days.

since this thread is half alive anyway, i want to ask @BastardLegs something that i never saw explained when this thread and her lolcow thread were active. what was up with her pencil phobia? was she seriously scared of pencils to the point where she couldn't even say the word? how does one even develop a phobia of pencils to begin with, let alone one that intense?

I'm sorry if I'm mistaken, but from our chats, Nemu was just fine with pencils. It was highlighters she was afraid of. It's normal for people with schizo disorders to be afraid of weird shit, it's not worth wondering why because the connection to any reason isn't going to make sense.

She did several art pieces for sale that look like either graphite or charcoal too, so I'm 99% sure she was fine with pencils.

 

[sad cowboy cat]

pardon for necroing the thread, but what exactly happened after David realized nemu cucked him? did he leave? did he disappear off the face of the Internet too?

 

[Koresh]

pardon for necroing the thread, but what exactly happened after David realized nemu cucked him? did he leave? did he disappear off the face of the Internet too?

They were back together when Nemu deleted her twitter and DA. AFAIK, he didn't ever have as large of a presence as her and he's the kind of guy who, if he wanted to, could keep his internet persona entirely seperate from who he was, so it'd be impossible to track him unless he explicitly said who he was.

 

[Meowthkip]

since this thread is half alive anyway, i want to ask @BastardLegs something that i never saw explained when this thread and her lolcow thread were active. what was up with her pencil phobia? was she seriously scared of pencils to the point where she couldn't even say the word? how does one even develop a phobia of pencils to begin with, let alone one that intense?

She should meet up with that dude who's scared of pens.

 

[Meowzers]

I'm sorry if I'm mistaken, but from our chats, Nemu was just fine with pencils. It was highlighters she was afraid of. It's normal for people with schizo disorders to be afraid of weird shit, it's not worth wondering why because the connection to any reason isn't going to make sense.

She did several art pieces for sale that look like either graphite or charcoal too, so I'm 99% sure she was fine with pencils.

pencils, highlighters, whatever it was, i want to know what went on in her weird little noggin to make her afraid of them, even if it doesn't make sense.

 

[BastardLegs]

No, it was very definitely pencils. We were all under order to call them "not-pens" around her, and in anywhere she might see it.

since this thread is half alive anyway, i want to ask @BastardLegs something that i never saw explained when this thread and her lolcow thread were active. what was up with her pencil phobia? was she seriously scared of pencils to the point where she couldn't even say the word? how does one even develop a phobia of pencils to begin with, let alone one that intense?

She was so afraid of them that she wouldn't offer to explain the story to any of us, and I was afraid of kicking up any shit back then, so I didn't ask. My theory is that she saw someone get attacked with one at some point. It was either in real life or on TV...I vaguely remember when I was a kid that there was something highly-publicized about a girl dying because she tripped and landed on a sharpened pencil she was holding. (It might have been a CSI episode or something.) My other theory is that Nemu once accidentally saw some weird fucking porn, either cartoon or live action, that involved a pencil, and now pencils just bring the memory back.

 

[frostbitelogic]

I found this thread on accident and I can confirm that she had/has no sense of self restraint when talking to minors about sexual shit. i followed her when i was around 15-16 and i was really into astro boy, there were so few fans of the series on tumblr and i had found her through her rare SFW fanart, i
wanted to be friends with her because we both liked relatively unpopular characters from the show. her freaky fetish shit didnt bother me all that much at the time because i didnt really care (i think i had blacklisted most of it with Xkit because she had the decency to TW tag from what i remember) but she had actually impacted me directly when i joined a livestream that she didn't disclose was NSFW on tumblr. she was drawing an nsfw commission for another pedophile that went by cheripie (?) of komaeda from daganronpa.

I remember nemu was making jokes about how its strange that she taught kids my age and told me she went an entire school day with a one piece character figure in her clevage. cheripie had been giving me shit the entire time because all of my favorite male characters were "too femme" or something, someone else in chat made a comment about komaeda's butthole in the drawing and they all started talking about what their assholes looked like, nemu eventually asked me what color my asshole was and i told her that i didnt know and didnt want to know, cheripie tried bullying me into "pressing my ass against the mirror to see it" and i had left the stream after that. there's at least one other underaged girl nemu had tried to groom for her fetishes by trying to convince the girl to get her nipples pierced, but i dont know the details (i do remember nemu having a weird nipple piercing fixation for a bit, i dont know if thats still going on or if she's grown out of that)​

TL; DR: nemu thought nothing of a literal fifteen year old girl watching her draw porn and even joked that she taught 15 year olds at the time and tried to bully the 15 year old into talking about the color of her asshole, and nemu is friends(?) with several other tumblr pedophiles

(edit: sorry my formatting is fugly mobile hates me)

 

[ooglywoogly]

i was never going to bump this thread with my own personal experiences because i don't think they contribute that much, but since it just got bumped today i'll throw in my 2 cents. i'm sorry because i know this counts as blogposting and powerleveling and TMI, but some other people have chimed in with similar stories, so i hope it's okay. this thread is what brought me to kiwifarms, because nemu unfortunately had a somewhat significant impact on my life, and last year i went on a hunt to find out what happened to them after they disappeared off the internet.

i found nemu's tumblr through their SFW fanart when i was 15. they had their NSFW tumblr linked (or easily findable). their art was good, and cutesy, and i found it interesting that they fixated so much on such random, unliked characters. they would insist that a lot of their fetish art was NOT porn, since it wasn't always explicitly sexual (like vomiting). when i was 15-16, like most teens, i was extremely impressionable, especially in regards to sexuality. this was dangerous, because nemu FREQUENTLY would go on rants about how all kinks were harmless because it was just fantasy. rape/noncon, pedophilia, bestiality, gore/necro, and other nasty shit was their bread and butter, and they drew and reblogged it constantly, as you all know. they would make these arguments that since it was "just drawings", no one was getting hurt and nothing was wrong; they would claim "everyone has weird gross fetishes, it's normal! so embrace it, instead of hating yourself :-)". their attitude was that people who were openly into gross kinks were somehow better and more honest than people who were vanilla. i had already seen these kinds of points made before by bronies when i was a 13-year-old girl who liked MLP and stumbled upon massive amounts of degenerate porn, but nemu specifically positioned herself as a "motherly" figure, trying to "help" people. i would specifically send asks, anon and not-anon (where my age was visible on my account), asking for reassurance that i wasn't a bad person for looking at or being titilated by "bad" porn. nemu would encourage me to "express my sexuality", and tell me i was doing nothing wrong and that i was brave for supporting them. i don't have these messages saved since i've deleted my account years ago, so you'll just have to trust me. nemu not only KNEW that minors were following their NSFW blogs, but they specifically WANTED minors to. they lured them in with cutesy drawings of cartoon characters, and subtly manipulated them into indulging in their fetishes by asking for/sending asks and describing their fetishes in detail. they normalized these "kinks" to the point where i, at 16, had no real idea of how fucked up it was to jerk off to the thought of being brutally raped and murdered by an older man. my mental health was horrible around this time, and i was self-harming-- i think these fantasies were a form of self-harm. i thank god every day that i was never involved in any sort of statutory rape, because i would have been a willing victim. it was a good thing that they fucked off the face of the planet, even though i missed them at the time, because as i aged i realized how fucked up they were and how i should have stayed far away from them in the first place.

7 years later, i've gone through lots of self-reflection, therapy, and healing. it has been a hard process discovering my OWN sexuality, not some random creep on tumblr's projected onto me-- one that DOESN'T include rape, ageplay, gore, bestiality, or any other disgusting kinks. i used to blame myself for traumatizing myself, because technically i was the one who followed them and looked at their drawings and read their posts. but i was only 15, and i didn't know any better. nemu should have known better, but they specifically made posts that explained that minors should be allowed to look at whatever kinds of porn they want to, and explained harmful paraphilia in a way to make it palatable and normalized to their audience. reading other people's experiences with nemu on kiwifarms and lolcow helped me feel less alone about this experience and helped me to stop blaming myself for that dark part of my life.

i hope to god that nemu is no longer working with children. they should be registered as a sex offender. even though they were never in direct physical contact with me, they were in digital contact with me that psychologically harmed me and many others. they are a bad person, despite spending their entire life acting like a saint and a victim.

 

[Super Book]

While the circle of mutuals I had when I was 13/14 had multiple people who where buddy-buddy with her, I noped the fuck out of there when someone just straight up showed me their vomit fetish porn of a pop'n music character, so I never really had any personal experiences with her besides mutuals being mutuals with her.