I decided that I would quit ecstasy all together to focus on my health and switch over to LSD instead.
is what I think Jesus would say:
What if I told you viruses aren’t the issue? We are.
It would be a cute touch if this man wasn't lost to the wind.Now I want you to imagine the tallest, most beautiful Dinizia tree you can think of. Don’t know what a Dinizia tree is? Just imagine a really cool big tree.
To be honest, I think the people who said Mr. Murphy's brain has lost the division between youtube and real life. This is a line you'd say if you were a youtube douche, but I think Connor means it in an actual brace of the backlash instead of the "lol haturrs" thing, it was just worded as such.10. Prepare for the hate.
I was going to ask if those missing letters are part of some puzzle but even if they are I'm going to guess this shit will be some moon logic. Also his parody poetry sucks.
You say 1/2-3 years, I'll say 4 weeks tops. On an even more morbid note, my predictions would be that this will happen on the anniversary of Etika's death.If you're feeling morbid @HiramTheGrift , I think a poll on what Connor's ultimate fate could be fun. Some possible options could be "cycling in and out of mental hospitals the rest of his life", "mostly homeless", "dies within 6 months to 3 years," "gets clean and most of his life back together", "tommy tooter crossover", "ascends to godhood and brings only the willing," "attempts to ascend but the dimensional merge and will of Chris prevents it", and so on, maybe multiple choice since they're all
I always for the "gets clean"options, but Connor is so volatile he might self immolate on accident or on purpose. Let's try and joke about it to cope with the bleakness of his condition.
Imagine actually taking SSRIsThey told me that you had gone totally insane.
And, uh, that your methods, were unsound.
Connor has gone to that great big place in the sky, otherwise known as The point of no fucking return.
Soon everyone will want in on the action to take a piece of (off) the fast decaying meat. We are just early adopters.
It truly is a case study though. And even though it may take years for the academics to make sense of it (and I hope they do), the /pol/ users that felt bad about tfw> no buff body and square jaw
well, hopefully they can get over it a bit quicker and get back to building real relations in life. In fact, before building relations, build yourself. Having muscle is good 'n' all. I never felt so good as when I was doing manual work or working out on the weights. But there is a limit. Hit it, my good friends. Build that body. But do not sacrifice the mind, or your life in that pursuit. Connor did both of those no nos.
I truly feel sorry for him. But yet, not in a pitying way. Because he is about to burn brighter and go out in a much more glorious burst of glory than 90 percent of us retards here on the farms will ever experience. I feel that paternal/sibling kind of thing where I just want to hug him, slap him if needs be, but bring him the fuck back down to earth in some way if possible. Because he is higher than the moon, and he has no tether.
He is in that most unenviable of positions: he holds the rope to the balloon that is taking off, but the higher it gets off the ground, the more the consequences will never be the same again if he lets go.
DMT is a helluva drug to fuck with. At this point he's not even dealing with the drug. He's just dealing with his brain's response to how the drug induces whatever in his bio-chemistry.
All hallucinogens are anti-addictive. DMT, Psilocybin, LSD, Serotonin - all one molecular 'snap' away from each other, and all of them have locks in the brain that these keys can unlock. DMT is produced when we fall asleep and is related to REM sleep pattern. I've never done DMT but I have experienced the Machine Elves that Terrence McKenna talked about. Massive fan of McKenna btw. Don't think he was a great guy. More a warning. Like Leary et al.
I take a NASSA for major depression. This helps me sleep. It also fucks with my serotonin levels and this fucks with the DMT available in my brain, causing me to trip out with the best of them when I wake up in the morning. DMT, Serotonin, all mess with sleep paralysis, fear parts of the brain, and also auditory hallucinations. I'm not a doctor, but I've lived it and I've researched it more than any mother fucker alive.
It is why I will never do Ayahuasca. Not least because I don't trust those fucking charlatans in the rain forest. Sorry, not sorry, don't need that shit in my life. I only take what I need to sleep so I can function. Get back to me when you only had 2 fucking hours sleep a night for 2 fucking weeks and you can't even fucking think let alone walk. I've tried every fucking SSRI et al in existence. None work. But if you get unconventional there are wonderdrugs out there with very low toxicity that can help you. Pharmacodynamics and Pharmacokinetics are a thing.
Pharmacokinetics is the study of how an organism affects a drug, whereas pharmacodynamics (PD) is the study of how the drug affects the organism. Both together influence dosing, benefit, and adverse effects, as seen in PK/PD models.
Different drugs affect different people in different ways, and they also affect them differently at different times depending on how their brain chemistry is at the time.
As has already been stated in this thread. The mind is a very fragile thing. It can break and fracture in a million different ways. But it is surprising the fault lines that perpetuate it, and when it does break, well, a lot of the time those ways are kind of familiar. Lots of tells with Connor's break with reality.
Connor needs serious professional help. I doubt he will ever be the same again. But maybe that was the intent/is a good thing. His ego is/was so fragile it just could not take the full force brute attack of ENLIGHTENMENT!
To see oneself as others see us. Fuck that is brutal. And when theat self is already a bit of a cunt to begin with, well...
Things is, ok, Connor might have been a bit of a pretty boy chasing clout and cunt in that regard, but he didn't molest children, he didn't steal anyone's life savings. He seems a pretty down to earth and boring kind of dude really when you strip the rest away. Be happy with that. Surround yourself with a handful of other blokes like that (I'm a lot like that tbh fam) and have fun shooting the shit, helping others while you can, and if you get to slay some top tier puss along the way, then all good my good chad! Not got Connor's body, and if he gets top choice, well so fucking what, some of us do OK anyway and don't really care about that shit, because we got us some real wimminz in our little lives that help us get by. He just never fitted in.
It doesn't seem to me this man has the support structures in place to guide him. What would be good is, if for once, the full force of the farms could hunt him down, take him aside, and do some kind of major intervention that he will not get from major pharma, nor from his family (bless them, I'm sure they didn't have anything to do with fucking him up), or the kind of (mental) health care he can expect in general from his country/county of residence.
I wish him well. As others have noted. This is not a guy that is a Cow in many ways. Sure, cringe vidz, sure, dude bro' who got a buff body and if insecure incel, well jelly, so hate. But for most of us normally adjusted individuals (and for all my 'tismo I consider myself to be one) we just want to see him get well.
He needs a healer now. A long stay in a good institution that can rebuild his mind. He's like the Six Million Dollar Man - We can rebuild him - but it will take a lot of effort to do so.
We can rebuild him.
Better than before.
We have the technology.
He does puke. In his manifesto he mentions puking pretty badly. If you're referencing his "taking ayahausca all of the time" habit, he has a tincture that he mixes into his shakes and food. He doses a small amount every ~2 hours, mostly DMT. This helps him avoid the nausea in his day-to-day life.I think he Is faking it for publicity.
Aren’t you supposed to vomit violently when you take ayahuasca?