patricia_wallis
kiwifarms.net
I stumbled upon a bizarre diary of an autistic man
Posting here simply because it's old, outdate, but still random / lulzy / weird / shouldn't-be-but-is insightful
http://www.oocities.org/thomasc_nh/april08.html
From 2008 - but we hear similiar things:
Sonic
'Accidents'
CAD drawing
But also telling us:
I am “just a baby”, and I always will be…
Mutely self-rocking and sucking my thumb, as I watch “Sesame Street”
He pretty much hates being an adult with all those responsibilities:
I may have times like now, when I am in “Adult Baby Mode”, but “Being an Adult Baby”, 24/7, is not “practical, since I have my own “adult responsibilities”, like doing chores for Dad, like washing laundry, ect., plus going out in my Ute to purchase “adult dydees”, ect.
He begins by talking about seeing his Social Worker/Counselor:
Yesterday I was busy up in Derry, first seeing my Social Worker/Counselor, Ms. Fisher, and then doing a bit of my own photography
Of course, he informs us that: I watched an episode of “Sonic The Hedgehog”
Things soon turn stranger, he posts this image with the following entry:
Believe me, “these people” “looked like” they were ready to violently “pick up and hurl rocks @ me”, an autistic developmentally disabled adult, just for “capturing” a “single image of them”. @ least, that is how my “autistic mind” was “interpreting” their gestures, and facial expressions.
Then out of nowhere he posts this:
After all the “cognitive/sensory” stress of yesterday afternoon into the evening, after Supper, I mutely retired to my bedroom to “play quietly” before bedtime and to do “atypical” “Autistic Self-Rocking” behavior. I also mutely watched WGBX-TV, Channel 44 (PBS), until 11:00 PM.
In comparison, this image shows him being in public:
Clearly an unrecognised photographer of great talent! Such undiscovered works as...
As he continues, so the apparent 'fetish' of his diaper wearing becomes clearer:
did “Autistic Self-Rocking” for 40 minutes, before “changing my massively soaked naptime diaper,
I went into the bathroom still wearing my “flooded” nighttime diaper and “rubberized” diaper cover panties to shower and shave. As I stood there after my shower “drying myself off”, I uncontrollably made a “big” puddle of pee-pee on the bathroom floor
He gives us insights such as this:
Simply being mute & quiet this morning, after getting myself cleaned up, diapered & dressed, after my exact routine of “arranging’ my plush stuffed animal cuddle friends on my bed.
going to church, having Sunday Dinner, and then taking a long naptime with my plush cuddle toy friends and my some of my infant’s teethers/rattles for comfort. After my nap, I had to go out and purchase Sub Sandwiches for Supper. In the evening, I watched documentaries on WENH-TV, Channel 11 (PBS), while lying quietly in my bed, hugging my little “ELMO” Sesame Street plush cuddle friend
He provides this bizarre comment regarding his feelings on paedophiles and his response to some news:
Down somewhere in Massachusetts, another “Pedophile” Elementary School Janitor was “discovered & arrested”. Needed to “self-injure” a little bit to “atone” for what that “very bad man” down in Massachusetts has done to little boys. I “emotionally hurt inside”, every time a Pedophile is discovered & arrested for his crimes to little children. Being autistic, I am still a “little boy” too.
This 'little boy' thing he repeats:
Why does my body make “Evil Bad White Pee-Pee”? I do not want my body to make that “Satanic Bad Stuff”. I am autistic and “still a little boy inside”, and I am very frightened and scared that “Satanic Bad Men” will come ant take me away from Dad & Nate & “hurt me”.
Commenting on the Iraq War, he refers to George Bush as: Yet, I strongly support the soldiers there, because they got sent into a “failed” Nation State, by “King George”
Also commenting on GAYolf Hilter:
“buddy”, “(G)A(Y)dolf (S)Hitler”, who liked having women “ go pee-pee & poo-poo all over him”, while he “played with his wee-wee”. It has has also been rumored, that this “sicko”, also went around “ass-raping” “teenaged boys” before World War I, while he was living in Vienna.
If I could do “time travel”, I would “assassinate” Ernst Röhm & Adolf Hitler, in 1914, before the start of World War I. I would also “assassinate” Herman Göring too, because he also liked to “screw” teenaged boys…
Posting here simply because it's old, outdate, but still random / lulzy / weird / shouldn't-be-but-is insightful
http://www.oocities.org/thomasc_nh/april08.html
From 2008 - but we hear similiar things:
Sonic
'Accidents'
CAD drawing
But also telling us:
I am “just a baby”, and I always will be…
Mutely self-rocking and sucking my thumb, as I watch “Sesame Street”
He pretty much hates being an adult with all those responsibilities:
I may have times like now, when I am in “Adult Baby Mode”, but “Being an Adult Baby”, 24/7, is not “practical, since I have my own “adult responsibilities”, like doing chores for Dad, like washing laundry, ect., plus going out in my Ute to purchase “adult dydees”, ect.
He begins by talking about seeing his Social Worker/Counselor:
Yesterday I was busy up in Derry, first seeing my Social Worker/Counselor, Ms. Fisher, and then doing a bit of my own photography
Of course, he informs us that: I watched an episode of “Sonic The Hedgehog”
Things soon turn stranger, he posts this image with the following entry:
Believe me, “these people” “looked like” they were ready to violently “pick up and hurl rocks @ me”, an autistic developmentally disabled adult, just for “capturing” a “single image of them”. @ least, that is how my “autistic mind” was “interpreting” their gestures, and facial expressions.
Then out of nowhere he posts this:
After all the “cognitive/sensory” stress of yesterday afternoon into the evening, after Supper, I mutely retired to my bedroom to “play quietly” before bedtime and to do “atypical” “Autistic Self-Rocking” behavior. I also mutely watched WGBX-TV, Channel 44 (PBS), until 11:00 PM.
In comparison, this image shows him being in public:
Clearly an unrecognised photographer of great talent! Such undiscovered works as...
As he continues, so the apparent 'fetish' of his diaper wearing becomes clearer:
did “Autistic Self-Rocking” for 40 minutes, before “changing my massively soaked naptime diaper,
I went into the bathroom still wearing my “flooded” nighttime diaper and “rubberized” diaper cover panties to shower and shave. As I stood there after my shower “drying myself off”, I uncontrollably made a “big” puddle of pee-pee on the bathroom floor
He gives us insights such as this:
Simply being mute & quiet this morning, after getting myself cleaned up, diapered & dressed, after my exact routine of “arranging’ my plush stuffed animal cuddle friends on my bed.
going to church, having Sunday Dinner, and then taking a long naptime with my plush cuddle toy friends and my some of my infant’s teethers/rattles for comfort. After my nap, I had to go out and purchase Sub Sandwiches for Supper. In the evening, I watched documentaries on WENH-TV, Channel 11 (PBS), while lying quietly in my bed, hugging my little “ELMO” Sesame Street plush cuddle friend
He provides this bizarre comment regarding his feelings on paedophiles and his response to some news:
Down somewhere in Massachusetts, another “Pedophile” Elementary School Janitor was “discovered & arrested”. Needed to “self-injure” a little bit to “atone” for what that “very bad man” down in Massachusetts has done to little boys. I “emotionally hurt inside”, every time a Pedophile is discovered & arrested for his crimes to little children. Being autistic, I am still a “little boy” too.
This 'little boy' thing he repeats:
Why does my body make “Evil Bad White Pee-Pee”? I do not want my body to make that “Satanic Bad Stuff”. I am autistic and “still a little boy inside”, and I am very frightened and scared that “Satanic Bad Men” will come ant take me away from Dad & Nate & “hurt me”.
Commenting on the Iraq War, he refers to George Bush as: Yet, I strongly support the soldiers there, because they got sent into a “failed” Nation State, by “King George”
Also commenting on GAYolf Hilter:
“buddy”, “(G)A(Y)dolf (S)Hitler”, who liked having women “ go pee-pee & poo-poo all over him”, while he “played with his wee-wee”. It has has also been rumored, that this “sicko”, also went around “ass-raping” “teenaged boys” before World War I, while he was living in Vienna.
If I could do “time travel”, I would “assassinate” Ernst Röhm & Adolf Hitler, in 1914, before the start of World War I. I would also “assassinate” Herman Göring too, because he also liked to “screw” teenaged boys…
