Have you ever considered suicide? - Once, twice?

[Orc Girls Make Due]

I know it's a thought I have often. It's an unfortunate side effect of depression and a mix and slew of other mental illnesses, along with abuse. But I wonder if anyone else has ever experienced it to the extent I have.

Have you ever considered it, in depth? How much depth?


Have you been like me and actually attempted or just gave it a second thought?

 

[TowinKarz]

Got as far as holding the gun in my hands, but got second thoughts before loading it. That was 12 years ago, I've never been that close again.

 

[Orc Girls Make Due]

I guess it'd be a good idea for me to post my own brush. I've had multiple attempts, but they've all been with pills. The most recent being this year with morphine and an attempt to overdose. I took just enough to cause myself pain but not enough to actually overdose.

That was a mistake, because I had to go to the hospital. Well the hospital didn't want to keep me and told me I was faking because I was no longer suicidal at that point despite the attempt and opioids in my system, for some reason they couldn't detect it was a shitload of morphine.

So they sent me home and for the weekend after until I went to my therapist next, I didn't see any proper treatment and just was a suicidal and withdrawing mess.

 

[Null]

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