I have fallen in love with someone in my dungeons and dragons group whom is 7 years older than me. We first met in May of last year and we hit it off amazingly as friends! We both adored the same games, were nerdy and had fun! His girlfriend is also in our DND group but they're in a open relationship. And by that I mean 'she can Fuck anyone ever but he can't do shit' so it went like that for 2 months before I heard from my friend also in our group that he had a crush on me. Now his girlfriend and I were good friends and even though I wasn't initially interested at first, she kept saying if we wanted to side date we could. This went on for a while until eventually I broke up with this dude I was with in December and him and I started talking a great deal more. Late December he admitted he liked me to my face and then asked how I felt.
I didn't know how I felt
So I don't him "I'm confused about my emotions" and for a while it was left at that.
Then January struck. I quickly began to fall for him as we talked more and then went on some dates. We even spent Valentine's Day weekend together in a hotel as his girlfriend went to a sex convention to do other men. He had admitted in his entire life he had never wanted another woman besides his girlfriend, until me. And we promised to never let that die for as long as possible. Then two weeks later we had a surprise birthday party for him and we spent most of the time playing Super Smash Brothers as his girlfriend went upstairs to their room to do her side boyfriend. Later that night I spent the night and when everyone left we had sex on the couch. That's when I lost my virginity. To him.
Well his girlfriend didn't like that and threatened to kill me if I went near him again.(Idk why because she fucks other men like no other but he fucks one girl he's known for a while and it's all hell?) So I didn't speak to either of them or go to our weekly DND meetings for a month (all of which I was worried I was pregnant of) until finally we had a meeting and got it 'sorted out'....sorted out meaning no more nothing between him and I and only strictly friendship. So for a while I have been deeply in love with him and have not been able to have sex with him or anything and have only one kiss before he leaves each DND meeting when his girlfriend isn't looking. He tells me he loves me and everything but I don't see it. He says he cares but I see no product of it. When I was scared I was pregnant all I could think of is how can I make him not know so he won't hate me. Every fiber in my body says leave him but my mind says I love him and he loves me. I want him to choose but deep inside I know who he'll choose and it scares me....
I didn't know how I felt
So I don't him "I'm confused about my emotions" and for a while it was left at that.
Then January struck. I quickly began to fall for him as we talked more and then went on some dates. We even spent Valentine's Day weekend together in a hotel as his girlfriend went to a sex convention to do other men. He had admitted in his entire life he had never wanted another woman besides his girlfriend, until me. And we promised to never let that die for as long as possible. Then two weeks later we had a surprise birthday party for him and we spent most of the time playing Super Smash Brothers as his girlfriend went upstairs to their room to do her side boyfriend. Later that night I spent the night and when everyone left we had sex on the couch. That's when I lost my virginity. To him.
Well his girlfriend didn't like that and threatened to kill me if I went near him again.(Idk why because she fucks other men like no other but he fucks one girl he's known for a while and it's all hell?) So I didn't speak to either of them or go to our weekly DND meetings for a month (all of which I was worried I was pregnant of) until finally we had a meeting and got it 'sorted out'....sorted out meaning no more nothing between him and I and only strictly friendship. So for a while I have been deeply in love with him and have not been able to have sex with him or anything and have only one kiss before he leaves each DND meeting when his girlfriend isn't looking. He tells me he loves me and everything but I don't see it. He says he cares but I see no product of it. When I was scared I was pregnant all I could think of is how can I make him not know so he won't hate me. Every fiber in my body says leave him but my mind says I love him and he loves me. I want him to choose but deep inside I know who he'll choose and it scares me....
No.
