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For the past few weeks I've desperately been trying various 'self improvement' methods to deal with a noticeable decline in concentration and work performance I'm suffering from. The TL;DR of it all is that poor sleep seems to be the main factor contributing to it. The "obvious solution" would be "lmao just go to bed earlier bro", and that's true but it's easier said than done for most people. When you get tired, you have reduced judgement, so snappy and responsible decisions become harder to make.

I wanted to list some observations, quirks and oddities that I personally struggle with, and I wanted to know if others experienced these same things in the same way. The covid lockdowns over the past year have hit me hard, and I think elevated anxiety has certainly contributed to my screwed up schedule, but that's a much larger demon that I'm not sure I can fix.

  • As it gets later into the night, if I'm working or messing around online, there's a tendency to lose track of time much easier than in the middle of the day. Two or three hours can easily slip by and it feels like 30 minutes. It doesn't help that as I get tired, my judgement reduces so it's harder to 'check myself' even if I set a timer.

  • We're all familiar with going to bed earlier being more difficult due to your circadian rhythm, but I find there's an additional problem with me needing to fulfill a "ritual" of some sort before bed. For instance, no matter if I'm sticking with my schedule or not, if I don't talk to my friends before bed I find I have a much harder time sleeping. This further complicates the above point because if I get into a conversation, I don't just want to drop it, but at the same time that's when I'm in the 'danger zone' of hours flying by.

  • This is less 'sleep' related per-say, but I have fairly severe problems getting out of bed in the morning. If I have my phone by me, I dick around on my phone in a zombie like state with reduced judgement for an hour. If I don't have my phone by me, I sit there and contemplate getting out of bed for an hour in a zombie state but don't actually do it. If I put my alarm clock across the room, I get up in a zombie state, turn it off, then go back to bed in said zombie state. This is definitely some kind of willpower issue but it's like I'm still half dreaming and I'm not sure what to do beyond getting shocked with a taser.

Do you suffer from stuff like this? What stupid tricks have you done to overcome them, if you have? I'd prefer to not make this about chemical assistance such as melatonin or klonopin. I'd rather stick to methodical ways of fixing the issues if possible. However, if you did have to use a chemical to solve your sleep issues, that's worth a mention as well.
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