I am a terrible writer, so i don't know how exactly to write what i want to say in a good way, but i will try.
Essentially, my capablility for learning tends to led me to learn from a wide array of things, but with no depth to it. If i learn about chemistry, it will be nothing more than the most simplistic surface knowledge like shells and such. The thing that bothers me is that i think this is caused by a pre set mind value, for lack of better word. my mind is this close to being able to learn more, i hope. it feels that way sometimes. i spontaniously feel a willingness and a capability to learn complex and complicated things and this just dissapears when i need it. not to mention my terrible memory.
I never cared about this, and i mostly don't. But i want money and it's a hinderence. My parents have been whining in my ear about college, we visited it a few days ago and the lady there told me to fuck off. I wasn't happy about this so i sent a message to this college that they are a bunch of cucks and everyone there looks retarded and autistic. They are also claiming i sent a message threatening to bomb this college and apparently called the police over this (i will neither confirm nor deny sending any bomb threats). Primarily i did this because of some impulse, but now i think if the subconcious had anything to do with it it's because i didn't want to go to college and i don't want my parents yelling at me to go to it, and obviously it's off the table now.
My complaint is, ultimately, that inside this person i am now i am much smarter, have a much stronger capability for virtually everything i do. When i do IQ tests for example, i fail miserably because i can't see the patterns i need to see. But only when i put in the option that i just randomly select, and send it, only them does my mind does any work and figure it out, all without me trying. This process is in my mind, it just only works when it is too late. There is no dedication in my life, i have no ambitions. i just don't care about anything i do or where my life is going. Infact i am only posting this because i have nothing else to say or do, i've been reading lots here so i might as well contribute some bullshit for you to laugh at.
As for what i will do now in life i don't know and i do not care, i have no plan set up. i'll spend it on here.
Well there was good news. i got 3 english degrees in the post from a school i have never even heard of. maybe it had something to do with these alledged "bomb threats".
I don't know why i am posting this or why i made it but i've written it now so i might as well.
Essentially, my capablility for learning tends to led me to learn from a wide array of things, but with no depth to it. If i learn about chemistry, it will be nothing more than the most simplistic surface knowledge like shells and such. The thing that bothers me is that i think this is caused by a pre set mind value, for lack of better word. my mind is this close to being able to learn more, i hope. it feels that way sometimes. i spontaniously feel a willingness and a capability to learn complex and complicated things and this just dissapears when i need it. not to mention my terrible memory.
I never cared about this, and i mostly don't. But i want money and it's a hinderence. My parents have been whining in my ear about college, we visited it a few days ago and the lady there told me to fuck off. I wasn't happy about this so i sent a message to this college that they are a bunch of cucks and everyone there looks retarded and autistic. They are also claiming i sent a message threatening to bomb this college and apparently called the police over this (i will neither confirm nor deny sending any bomb threats). Primarily i did this because of some impulse, but now i think if the subconcious had anything to do with it it's because i didn't want to go to college and i don't want my parents yelling at me to go to it, and obviously it's off the table now.
My complaint is, ultimately, that inside this person i am now i am much smarter, have a much stronger capability for virtually everything i do. When i do IQ tests for example, i fail miserably because i can't see the patterns i need to see. But only when i put in the option that i just randomly select, and send it, only them does my mind does any work and figure it out, all without me trying. This process is in my mind, it just only works when it is too late. There is no dedication in my life, i have no ambitions. i just don't care about anything i do or where my life is going. Infact i am only posting this because i have nothing else to say or do, i've been reading lots here so i might as well contribute some bullshit for you to laugh at.
As for what i will do now in life i don't know and i do not care, i have no plan set up. i'll spend it on here.
Well there was good news. i got 3 english degrees in the post from a school i have never even heard of. maybe it had something to do with these alledged "bomb threats".
I don't know why i am posting this or why i made it but i've written it now so i might as well.
