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Love 'em or hate 'em you have heard of them: Junius is a polarizing and popular figure in the furry fandom and a notable figure on the animal control board having over 50 mentions on the farms across a multitude of furry threads due to her own antics and her interactions with other lolcows.
Her FA bio claims she has been a member of the furry fandom since 2008 and in the past decade she has amassed 150K tweets on twitter, 300+ submissions on furaffinity on her defunct account, and an additional 75 on her current account.
In real life her wikifur, which she has edited herself in the past, claims she has owned atleast 5 fursuits and worn them to furry conventions. In addition, in her real life she is a transgender (or transtrender if you prefer) Female to Male troon.
Mental Illness
An early insight into her mental illness comes from a journal entry from their earliest defunct furaffinity account StickersTehHusky https://archive.md/m0FmF
More recent mental illness comes in the form of random public breakdowns and self-loathing on twitter like these:
Junius claims to have polycystic ovary syndrome and thinks this makes her "endocrinologically intersex" - https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631202
PCOS complications tend to flare up when you're fat. Hormones go out of whack and women can grow facial hair because of it.
I guess she thinks her poor health = I'm intersex! - https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631902
Trooning Out
Junius' idea of a transition is basically cutting her hair short. When called out on their poor transition they tried to duck it by saying they try to look/dress "agender"
Ageplay / Diapers / Zoophilia
This stuff comes from some commissioned art of theirs in diapers as a baby and their fetish list "f-list" with zoophilia as a Yes and Diapers and Ageplay as a Fave
College
Junius attends Rutgers University of New Brunswick the flagship state school of NJ. She studies microbiology. She managed to get quoted in the school papers a couple times over facebook complaining
https://news.rutgers.edu/sites/medrel/files/news-clips/Power back on at rutgers cook douglas campuses.pdf
http://archive.md/joWTI
Social Justice Warrior
Junius has over 150 THOUSAND tweets sometimes eclipsing 300 tweets a day.
https://socialblade.com/twitter/user/junius_64/monthly
one random example (there are thousands out there)
They also enjoy interacting with other lolcows like the bowlcut catfucker
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/crusader-cat-paden-reilly-pawden.36070/
http://archive.md/upMem
Dating
They are currently dating dogmerps a boston MTF troon furry.
If you'd like to read more: https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-24#post-2965589
They previously dated "Aurastar Taijiya"
Lastly, they are aware of kiwifarms so keep that in mind when making new posts to archive them.
Thanks to @Cuddly Pirate @gracious bobbly bits for providing a lot of quoted material above and others for their collaborative effort aswell. Special Thanks goes to @Meowthkip !
Her FA bio claims she has been a member of the furry fandom since 2008 and in the past decade she has amassed 150K tweets on twitter, 300+ submissions on furaffinity on her defunct account, and an additional 75 on her current account.
In real life her wikifur, which she has edited herself in the past, claims she has owned atleast 5 fursuits and worn them to furry conventions. In addition, in her real life she is a transgender (or transtrender if you prefer) Female to Male troon.
Mental Illness
An early insight into her mental illness comes from a journal entry from their earliest defunct furaffinity account StickersTehHusky https://archive.md/m0FmF
so um
yeah i've sort of been letting my messages sit and rot haven't i
i apologize for that, i'll probably just delete the bulk of the journals and submissions without sifting through them u.u
well uh mental illness is sort of destroying my life -_-
as some of you may know i suffer from severe depression and anxiety, and have for the full duration of my teenage and preteen years, plus some of my childhood. the first time i ever tried to end my life, i was 12 or 13, and i've been living with panic attacks since i was 9 years old.
i really don't know what i can do about it
my mom pretty much blames me for it, i heard her trash-talking me when we went to see my therapist on Monday. she was like "Nicole doesn't do things to make herself happy, she just sits around and sulks" and "she needs to try and care about other people if she wants to make more friends".
my mom means well, but she's utterly clueless about the situation :/
i really try to make myself happy. the other day i went out with friends and we got pizza, it was actually pretty nice for a couple hours. then i got home and things deteriorated as per usual, i just can't hold onto whatever happiness i make for myself.
my therapist has pretty much said that her hands are tied and she can't do much for me in this situation. she's stated that it's highly likely that i have a chemical imbalance in my brain and that's why it's imperative that i seek psychiatric help. unfortunately, my dad's insurance barely covers anything in the neighborhood of mental health and my family does not have much money. so we found the cheapest available option that our insurance would work with us on, and waited and waited for an appointment. we've been waiting about 2 months and the appointment is this coming Tuesday. and my dad keeps making me guilty about how much it's costing us... i was pretty crushed to hear that he was going to buy himself an android tablet but now that money has to go to my appointment. my dad works really really hard and i think he deserves to get himself nice things, i feel pretty awful about disrupting that. x.x
the last 2 or 3 months have not been kind to me. it all started when school started, really, everything has been going to hell since.
so far i've been put on suicide watch twice (and my mom ignored it both times, at one point i believe she left me alone for 4 hours), my school tried to force my parents to take me to a psychiatric hospital but they just brought me home because they didn't have money to pay for it, i've been sacrificing my happiness and sanity for the sake of good grades, my friendships and ties with family have been deteriorating severely, i haven't talked to my girlfriend in like a week, i've been crying almost nonstop, i'm fairly sure i've gained weight from emotional overeating and poor sleep, all food except junk food tastes like cardboard to me and nothing is as funny as it used to be, and i can't stop thinking about suicide and self harm. it's a 24/7 mental loop, it never really stops, from when i wake up to when i fall asleep it's the central thing on my mind. today i'm about 100% sure i would have cut myself if my mom didn't hide my knife, and i'm still intent on finding it.
i used to say i wouldn't kill myself before college. then i said i wouldn't kill myself before i got my driver's license. then i said i wouldn't kill myself before anthrocon 2013. then i said i wouldn't kill myself before Evangelion Rebuild 3.0 came out in the states. but now i think all bets are off.
right now i think my main source of anxiety and mental anguish is honors chemistry. i have a fucking 95 in the class, but it's costing me my health and sanity to maintain it and i lie awake at night anxious and terrified over the class. i have a quiz and 2 assignments due in honors chemistry on Monday, both assignments were assigned today. she literally gave us homework over Thanksgiving break, a big visual project and a terrible amount of textbook questions at that. i feel like the material is zipping past me and i'm impressing it into my head as fast as possible just to pass. i'm learning nothing and i'm bound to fail the midterm, and i can just FEEL the condescending "haha you're an idiot" glances from everyone in the class when the teacher introduces a new concept and i'm just sitting there shaking in terror and dabbing at my eyes with the fabric of my shirt. i'm just desperate not to let any of them see me cry.
but i can't bring myself to drop the class. my grade is so good, and i worked so hard to get here. it's living hell every day, the entire rest of my classes are manageable but that one class destroys EVERYTHING, but i just CAN'T drop the class. if i drop it all i'll have left is honors English. no college wants a kid who's dropped out of 3 different honors classes (i dropped honors history at the beginning of this year and the beginning of last year, god i fucking hate myself). plus i feel like i'm not successful unless i'm suffering for it.
all i know is that right now, dying seems like the only option, and it looks merciful as hell compared to the alternatives.
"Tinker, tailor, soldier, sailor, my bullet punishes all without distinction!" -Rip Van Winkle (Hellsing character)
"Wer mit Ungeheuern kämpft, mag zusehn, dass er nicht dabei zum Ungeheuer wird. Und wenn du lange in einen Abgrund blickst, blickt der Abgrund auch in dich hinein." (Nietzsche, _Jenseits von Gut und Böse_, section 146, entire.)
i apologize for that, i'll probably just delete the bulk of the journals and submissions without sifting through them u.u
well uh mental illness is sort of destroying my life -_-
as some of you may know i suffer from severe depression and anxiety, and have for the full duration of my teenage and preteen years, plus some of my childhood. the first time i ever tried to end my life, i was 12 or 13, and i've been living with panic attacks since i was 9 years old.
i really don't know what i can do about it
my mom pretty much blames me for it, i heard her trash-talking me when we went to see my therapist on Monday. she was like "Nicole doesn't do things to make herself happy, she just sits around and sulks" and "she needs to try and care about other people if she wants to make more friends".
my mom means well, but she's utterly clueless about the situation :/
i really try to make myself happy. the other day i went out with friends and we got pizza, it was actually pretty nice for a couple hours. then i got home and things deteriorated as per usual, i just can't hold onto whatever happiness i make for myself.
my therapist has pretty much said that her hands are tied and she can't do much for me in this situation. she's stated that it's highly likely that i have a chemical imbalance in my brain and that's why it's imperative that i seek psychiatric help. unfortunately, my dad's insurance barely covers anything in the neighborhood of mental health and my family does not have much money. so we found the cheapest available option that our insurance would work with us on, and waited and waited for an appointment. we've been waiting about 2 months and the appointment is this coming Tuesday. and my dad keeps making me guilty about how much it's costing us... i was pretty crushed to hear that he was going to buy himself an android tablet but now that money has to go to my appointment. my dad works really really hard and i think he deserves to get himself nice things, i feel pretty awful about disrupting that. x.x
the last 2 or 3 months have not been kind to me. it all started when school started, really, everything has been going to hell since.
so far i've been put on suicide watch twice (and my mom ignored it both times, at one point i believe she left me alone for 4 hours), my school tried to force my parents to take me to a psychiatric hospital but they just brought me home because they didn't have money to pay for it, i've been sacrificing my happiness and sanity for the sake of good grades, my friendships and ties with family have been deteriorating severely, i haven't talked to my girlfriend in like a week, i've been crying almost nonstop, i'm fairly sure i've gained weight from emotional overeating and poor sleep, all food except junk food tastes like cardboard to me and nothing is as funny as it used to be, and i can't stop thinking about suicide and self harm. it's a 24/7 mental loop, it never really stops, from when i wake up to when i fall asleep it's the central thing on my mind. today i'm about 100% sure i would have cut myself if my mom didn't hide my knife, and i'm still intent on finding it.
i used to say i wouldn't kill myself before college. then i said i wouldn't kill myself before i got my driver's license. then i said i wouldn't kill myself before anthrocon 2013. then i said i wouldn't kill myself before Evangelion Rebuild 3.0 came out in the states. but now i think all bets are off.
right now i think my main source of anxiety and mental anguish is honors chemistry. i have a fucking 95 in the class, but it's costing me my health and sanity to maintain it and i lie awake at night anxious and terrified over the class. i have a quiz and 2 assignments due in honors chemistry on Monday, both assignments were assigned today. she literally gave us homework over Thanksgiving break, a big visual project and a terrible amount of textbook questions at that. i feel like the material is zipping past me and i'm impressing it into my head as fast as possible just to pass. i'm learning nothing and i'm bound to fail the midterm, and i can just FEEL the condescending "haha you're an idiot" glances from everyone in the class when the teacher introduces a new concept and i'm just sitting there shaking in terror and dabbing at my eyes with the fabric of my shirt. i'm just desperate not to let any of them see me cry.
but i can't bring myself to drop the class. my grade is so good, and i worked so hard to get here. it's living hell every day, the entire rest of my classes are manageable but that one class destroys EVERYTHING, but i just CAN'T drop the class. if i drop it all i'll have left is honors English. no college wants a kid who's dropped out of 3 different honors classes (i dropped honors history at the beginning of this year and the beginning of last year, god i fucking hate myself). plus i feel like i'm not successful unless i'm suffering for it.
all i know is that right now, dying seems like the only option, and it looks merciful as hell compared to the alternatives.
"Tinker, tailor, soldier, sailor, my bullet punishes all without distinction!" -Rip Van Winkle (Hellsing character)
"Wer mit Ungeheuern kämpft, mag zusehn, dass er nicht dabei zum Ungeheuer wird. Und wenn du lange in einen Abgrund blickst, blickt der Abgrund auch in dich hinein." (Nietzsche, _Jenseits von Gut und Böse_, section 146, entire.)
Junius claims to have polycystic ovary syndrome and thinks this makes her "endocrinologically intersex" - https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631202
PCOS complications tend to flare up when you're fat. Hormones go out of whack and women can grow facial hair because of it.
I guess she thinks her poor health = I'm intersex! - https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631902
Trooning Out
Junius' idea of a transition is basically cutting her hair short. When called out on their poor transition they tried to duck it by saying they try to look/dress "agender"
Ageplay / Diapers / Zoophilia
This stuff comes from some commissioned art of theirs in diapers as a baby and their fetish list "f-list" with zoophilia as a Yes and Diapers and Ageplay as a Fave
College
Junius attends Rutgers University of New Brunswick the flagship state school of NJ. She studies microbiology. She managed to get quoted in the school papers a couple times over facebook complaining
https://news.rutgers.edu/sites/medrel/files/news-clips/Power back on at rutgers cook douglas campuses.pdf
http://archive.md/joWTI
Social Justice Warrior
Junius has over 150 THOUSAND tweets sometimes eclipsing 300 tweets a day.
https://socialblade.com/twitter/user/junius_64/monthly
one random example (there are thousands out there)
They also enjoy interacting with other lolcows like the bowlcut catfucker
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/crusader-cat-paden-reilly-pawden.36070/
http://archive.md/upMem
Dating
They are currently dating dogmerps a boston MTF troon furry.
If you'd like to read more: https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-24#post-2965589
They previously dated "Aurastar Taijiya"
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/junius/ - https://archive.fo/cHI0m
https://fluffypegasus.deviantart.com/art/Mond-Sonne-und-Sterne-294158688
https://www.youtube.com/user/BlizzardtheWolf97 - http://archive.md/ZvG2O
https://plus.google.com/102788344390997839348 - https://archive.md/EHk2m
http://db.fursuit.me/?c=viewsuit&id=2347 - http://archive.md/0yl3v
https://www.fanfiction.net/u/1734751/DragonDreams845 - http://archive.md/1A04c
http://knowyourmeme.com/users/junia - http://archive.md/PO0Sd
https://juniapapillox.deviantart.com/ - http://archive.md/fslhz
http://www.twitter.com/juniusK9 - https://archive.md/q6Pjk
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/junia/ - https://archive.md/O3dpB - https://archive.md/ggUUq
http://terminal-dogma.tumblr.com/ - http://archive.md/LTq0h
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/Junius - https://archive.md/HGQgO
http://terminaldogma.sofurry.com/ - http://archive.md/ciuJd
http://juniafencross.deviantart.com/ - http://archive.md/vFQ4p
http://fluffypegasus.deviantart.com/ - http://archive.md/CYt9g
http://furaffinity.net/user/stickerstehhusky/ - http://archive.md/3XcDF
https://en.wikifur.com/wiki/Junius_Arrakis - http://archive.md/YaiXL
http://steamcommunity.com/id/juniusarrakis - https://archive.md/lVqPS
https://fluffypegasus.deviantart.com/art/Mond-Sonne-und-Sterne-294158688
https://www.youtube.com/user/BlizzardtheWolf97 - http://archive.md/ZvG2O
https://plus.google.com/102788344390997839348 - https://archive.md/EHk2m
http://db.fursuit.me/?c=viewsuit&id=2347 - http://archive.md/0yl3v
https://www.fanfiction.net/u/1734751/DragonDreams845 - http://archive.md/1A04c
http://knowyourmeme.com/users/junia - http://archive.md/PO0Sd
https://juniapapillox.deviantart.com/ - http://archive.md/fslhz
http://www.twitter.com/juniusK9 - https://archive.md/q6Pjk
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/junia/ - https://archive.md/O3dpB - https://archive.md/ggUUq
http://terminal-dogma.tumblr.com/ - http://archive.md/LTq0h
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/Junius - https://archive.md/HGQgO
http://terminaldogma.sofurry.com/ - http://archive.md/ciuJd
http://juniafencross.deviantart.com/ - http://archive.md/vFQ4p
http://fluffypegasus.deviantart.com/ - http://archive.md/CYt9g
http://furaffinity.net/user/stickerstehhusky/ - http://archive.md/3XcDF
https://en.wikifur.com/wiki/Junius_Arrakis - http://archive.md/YaiXL
http://steamcommunity.com/id/juniusarrakis - https://archive.md/lVqPS
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-7#post-2599156
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2601514
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2602013
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2601952
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2601712
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-9#post-2604571
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-11#post-2630114
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631202
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631902
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-17#post-2714340
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-18#post-2813595
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-23#post-2953900
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-24#post-2965589
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2601514
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2602013
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2601952
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-8#post-2601712
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-9#post-2604571
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-11#post-2630114
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631202
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-12#post-2631902
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-17#post-2714340
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-18#post-2813595
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-23#post-2953900
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/leftist-communist-antifa-furry-general.33353/page-24#post-2965589
Lastly, they are aware of kiwifarms so keep that in mind when making new posts to archive them.
Thanks to @Cuddly Pirate @gracious bobbly bits for providing a lot of quoted material above and others for their collaborative effort aswell. Special Thanks goes to @Meowthkip !
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