Ever as before, ever just as sure as the sun will riiiiise!
Could you imagine a dimly lit room you awaken to see that standing above you, the rancid stench of her rotting flesh and her labored breathing while she is shakily holding her phone up to see the glow of her camera screen illuminating her dead eyes?
That's called splitting, or black and white thinking, and can be part of both BPD and NPD.I don't know if she actually has BPD on top of the obvious muchies and some kind of drug induced crazy from her wild late teens. But the way she alternates between loving her family SOO MUCH!!!! and hating them, and trying to emotionally blackmail them into agreeing with her every decision and delusion is very BPD-ish. She reeks of some nasty cluster B mindfuckery.
Self-harm and munching are different beasts, both satisfy different parts of her broken mind.In an earlier post, she talked about one thing that made her cut was the feeling of control and fascination she had watching herself heal. Do we think there's any honesty behind that statement? Because it does go along with letting her skin grafts completely heal right before scratching them to ribbons.
The bloodletting marks her as a munchie, since that's attention getting without cutting, burning, or scratching at herself. But is the self harm more than just muchie flavored? There would be ways to get unwarranted medical attention that wouldn't scar her for life.
Healing wounds especially major skin damage, tend to "weep" a clearish yellow liquid. It's a combination of blood serum and plasma, and is the body's way of cleaning wounds to help heal faster. It's sorta the same shit that uninfected blisters are made of.