"It's my STYLE!".I appreciate the response, and i dont want you to think im making excuses, because i do need towork on mastering my work more, but i like the squeal and rattle of it, just a personal choice
The 3, 4, and 5 meos are all entertaining. I kinda went one by one through PIHKAL & TIHKAL. All time favorite, though, is 4 HO DiPT.
YOU ARE WAY better off tripping occasionally than being a drunkard or a stoner.
You are way better off occasionally indulging in legal drugs. Whether you prefer a nice cigar, whiskey, or a daddy soda on a Friday after a long, productive week, treat yourself. Then wake up and hit it again, working toward not being poor until you really know what you want out of life, and then working toward that with a clearly-defined plan.
Hot tin roof, or whatever you call yourself, the answer to "Does being 18 mean I don't have things to teach you about life?" is yes. You've just started.
I was exceptional at 18, too. Fortunately for me, my "I know better than all these oldfags" sent me overseas rather than busking. I say fortunately because that locked me into legally having to look after my health, make money, and not burn my brain out with weird drugs.
You haven't lived a life yet. I've lived about a third of one. You've hopped on railcars? I've seen people killed, been to several other continents, built my house with my own hands, married, gotten two college degrees, worked in 49 states and a few territories, even put goats on an airplane. I'm not dick-measuring here; that would be pointless. You will probably have done as much or more than me in the next two decades. I don't even have any children yet.
It wasn't until I was 29 that I dipped my toes into farming. That was a real "oh, so this is why I'm here" experience. It's what the Christfags call "a calling." Shortly after I was fortunate enough to find a virtuous, caring, tough young woman with the same purpose in life. The last seven years are the first time in my life I've truly been happy. I work every day most weeks, though I make a point of taking a weekend now and then just to hang out with my wife.
Is music your calling? It's possible, but if your approach with it is to dismiss criticism and spend all your time melting your brain, it isn't. I'm sure you're familiar with Joe Rogan. That dude melts his brain, too, but he does a lot more than that, from bow hunting to his comedy and TV career to being a father and interviewing interesting people, he's got a lot on his plate and has been very successful at a lot of things.
Memento mori, kiddo. Spend less time "expanding your mind" with drugs and focus on expanding it with experience. I'm glad social media wasn't a thing when I was 18, so evidence of my exceptionalism is lost in the wind; the best advice anyone your age can get is "shut the fuck up."
My Maddox avatar isn't just funny. It's also a warning to myself of where thinking I know better than everyone leads. I *AM* literally telling you how to live your life, after all. I think I'm giving good advice based on lived experience here, but what the fuck do I know? Maybe you'll choose to become the next Tommy Tooter, instead. It will bring you no joy, but the rest of us will get a kick out of it.