It is from one of his classic Googleshngs: https://twitter.com/SecretGamerGrrl/status/1047181780044996608 (http://archive.ph/uitXP)Can someone explain to me what a "noise making thing" is?
This morning I was woken up with a blow to the head when a shoddy standing lamp spontaneously fell over, waking me up from one of the nightmares I've been having for the last month or so whenever I actually manage to sleep, thanks to unrelenting stalkers driving my friends away.
The worst thing about the particular hell I am presently living through is knowing from experience that any time I express pain over how I'm being attacked, some set of my attackers will attempt to reframe it as an "an attack" on them, rallying support by pointing at my pain and shouting "Look! There she goes again! She's acting like she's wounded and in pain to make us all look like monsters! How dare she!?" That's the format this abuse always takes. And it works. It works so well, and so consistently, on everyone it ever needs to work on. All the time.
It works so well because we never question where animosity comes from, or whether it's even present. "Maybe she's crying because she's in pain, or maybe she's just faking it to make her antagonists look bad!" It works so well because when people shout that, they really mean it.
None of them see me as a human being deserving of any sort of empathy. I'm just this evil thing they need to destroy, because it keeps making noises that make people angry at them somehow. Who knows why that thing keeps making those noises? It must just hate them! It must hate them with such conviction that even when they kick it really hard to make it stop, it just makes the noises even louder! What a horrible thing it is! It has to be silenced!
My situation is that I (or someone I care about) just get hurt a lot, by a lot of different people. Usually I can't see who. I just feel the impact.
So I just shout "Ow! That hurts! Please stop!" But that's still noise, so I'm a Noise Making Thing, and people think I'm making the noise at them, and so they hurt me, and I make more noise, and more people get angry because they think it's about them, ESPECIALLY if they aren't even the one who delivered that last kick. "This time I'm REALLY innocent, so what the hell!?" I'd assume they think. And it just snowballs as all these people keep hurting me because I cry when I get hurt and they all view that as a personal attack and they end up conspiring and trading notes and it turns into this bizarre inversion of a conspiracy theory where a bunch of otherwise unconnected people I generally don't even know exist end up with vast archives of everything I've ever said or done and dedicated websites to discuss how I'm secretly plotting against all of them, and looking for weird coded messages about me.
And then when people shove all this madness in the faces of my friends, they buy into it. Because my friends DO have empathy, and DO ask "why would anyone make something like this up?" but for some reason they don't question whether it's a big ball of conspiracy nonsense that hinges on me having dozens or hundreds of secret grudges against total strangers with no clear motives to any of them or any sort of effort being made to do any of them harm beyond working coded messages into what on the surface seem like perfectly normal statements like "would whoever is badgering my friends with screenshots of random twitter posts from several years ago to turn them against me please stop."
It's not even that this is destroying my life. It already has, but it just keeps kicking at the ashes and stomping on anything that looks like it's still moving in the wreckage. And I don't think it's ever going to stop no matter how much I beg.
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