- Highlight
- #1
- author's note: COMMENTS ARE TURNED OFF
- i will be CRYEEN today
- mom is comeen today
- bit of a drive
- not seen in 12 years
- she wants to visit Ambur now that she has cancer
- wants 2 come and be there for her appointment
- her first like appointment at cancer center
- jaundice moment
- so much
- mah bodee is very mad at me
- mad at myself
- sickly
- I HAVE CANCER
- anemic
- low vitamin d
- bad sleep shcedule
- filling bad about wait
- wearing makeup to cover the jaundice
- 100 pounds heavier since the last time she saw her mum (18 y/o)
- 395 pounds when she last saw her
- so, youre 495 now? sure, jan.
- ambur's mom blames herself for her daughter's fatcuntness
- not her falt
- shooooper nervus
- lips are dry
- not doing a full beat, just enough to cover the organ failure
- theengs change over 12 years
- her mom will visit for about a week
- brother is in prison
- foster mom is telling her prison brother about her cancer
- ambur's dad doesn't know about his daughter's crotch cancer
- her mom lives in oklahoma
- always close with her mom
- her mom hung the moon
- she painted the sunset
- bond and such
- clean and sober for 5 years
- no eyeliner
- i want to hug her
- no makeup in two weeks
- GOODBYE

seeing my mom for the first time in 12 years
June 9, 2020
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