Starts by saying she received the WLS paperwork, which she has already filled out.
0:42 - Beginning of April she set out to change. Definitely not after losing all the subscribers.
1:12 -She's binged a couple of times since then and it made her feel like she didn't even belong on the planet.
1:28 - 'How could do this with all the support I'm receiving?' Good point as you've been pretty cunty at people when telling them the support is what you need
1:54 - She's being super honest now, uploading her breathing etc. It was shameful, but she still did it.
1:59 - She binged last night, so bad. Woke up in the night feeling like she was going to vomit. I image filling in the WLS paperwork would have served to shake a few things loose, yeah.
2:27 - Lists binge: Big size of pesto pasta, whole bag double crunch ruffle zesty cheddar (8 servings at 150cal each), 2 kingsize twix (total 8 servings at 110cal each), whole bag 'Tasty Kate powdered doughnuts (5 servings 230 each). Assuming about 1200-ish (guess) for her big ol' bowl of pasta, that puts this binge at about 4 and half thousand calories.
4:40 - After all that she still felt unsatisfied because she was emotionally empty, so she had 2 ramens.
5:26 - one binge will erase all the progress, it's not fair.
5:57 - She's hoping the WLS stuff will mover her forward to seeing dietitians and therapist etc. Why not just make appointments with those people then? If that's what you want rather than the surgery because you know no one will actually operate? Your WLS surgeon is not a GP, they'll only refer you if they think you're a suitable candidate. But no, she wants someone to do it for her.
6:16 - She had a list of food she had to fill out and she rarely eats any of them. Then she got to the junk food page. It was eye-opening.
7:12 - I wanted to be accountable for the binging, but obviously when you binge you get super swollen. Ah, I knew there must be a reason, she's setting up excuses for the weigh in I'm going to optimistically assume is coming.
7:45 - Scale unboxing
8:12 - She's out of breath from stepping on a scale
8:18 - 572.4 lbs.
8:35 - 'It's irony I swear, I've been trying so frickin' hard to move more'
9:03 - She's counting her binge as 4200, then the ramen as 780 (fuck, that's more than I thought). If it's pesto pasta and a big bowl by ALs standard I feel like 1000 might be a the low estimate, but OK. It still puts her at the 5,000+ mark in one sitting.
9:27 - 'I'm glad I have this weight because I don't ever want to be here again.' I don't think you will be, just not in the way you're hoping.
9:37 - I feel really positive about this, keep rooting for me.
9:45 - Exercise time, it's been suggested she do things in sets, so she's going to try it out.
10:25 - demonstrates a set (5 arm ups, 10 punches)
10:59 - She already did her walk - 1 min 59.
11:20 - Jump cut. She did the 5 sets but didn't feel the burn. Then why did you stop?
11:40 - She'll increase reps tomorrow, if she doesn't feel it she'll go back to how she was doing it. (NO, JUST DO MORE UNTIL YOU FEEL IT BURN - THAT'S THE POINT)
11:55 - Twinkie went the vet today, rabies shot and grooming.
12:10 - Make up is smeary.
12:37 - Ipsy bag haul/ contents, she's just got her first one
13:25 - Make up still messed up, but she wanted to end the vlog.