Maybe things are different in Russia or Africa or something but what I am suggesting is both correct and not at all unusual. I know many many people in my somewhat conservative country on daily permanent benzo scrip. The less trustworthy ones may be required to dose at a pharmacy, or at least collect no more than a few days supply at a time. You can discuss these fears with the prescribing doctor, who will be more than happy to discuss his expectations, how titration and tapering will work etc. I'm not going to post more on the matter since this is less about the surface topic than your attachment to the way you are living now/resistance to changeThat's a lovely narrative but the threat of legal action in the wake of certain events over here has led therapists to become very reckless with how quickly they'll slash drugs. I've learned that psychology is a highly unforgiving field to interact with once the therapists themselves start thinking about their own self-preservation. When machines like medicine and government clash, the collateral damage is massive and we all lose.