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autisticdragonkin

Eric Borsheim
True & Honest Fan
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Now that we are approaching the new year tumblr is making lots of autistic new years posts
Reflecting Back on 2015
This year marked a lot of firsts for me.

First relationship with a sub. First cancer scare. First time wearing a tie in public. First time being called a fag and a tranny. First “D” in college. First time I got to second base with someone. First time admitting I was in an abusive relationship since it happened. First time admitting I’m in chronic pain. First time falling in love.

First time I ever said the words “I am genderqueer” out loud.

It’s been a tough year.

There have been days when I felt like I was drowning on dry land, and days when I couldn’t get out of bed because my dysphoria was so bad, and I know that I’m going to keep having those days, because New Year’s isn’t some magic spell that fixes everything. But I’m better equipped now that I was same time last year.

I talked about the abuse from my ex, and I didn’t get blame, like I expected. Last time I brought it up, they told me I was responsible, because my ex was depressed and it wasn’t their fault. I should’ve sucked it up and dealt with it. This time, I was received with understanding and sympathy.

I realized that an accident from over a year ago left me with lasting damage in my leg, and it hurts every day. I was ready to suffer with that on my own, because I didn’t want people to think I was disabled; I still don’t. But when I let it slip, on one of my particularly bad days, that’s not the reaction I got. Instead, my friend offered himself as a cane.

I had my first D/s relationship, acting as a dom to a sub, and even though she ultimately decided that she was definitely more into vanilla, it was a big deal to me. I learned a lot about myself from those experiences. Of course, I wish she’d have given me a little more time, but she was still my sub, and I hope her the best of luck in all her endeavors.

I fell in love with someone who will never feel the same, and I’m okay with that.

I found the LGBT+ community at my college last year, but I wasn’t comfortable enough with myself to in any way participate. I still hadn’t come to terms with the words “genderqueer,” “non-binary,” and “transgender.” I’ll admit, some days, I still struggle with that last one; I don’t want to transition solely from female to male. And also, I came from a small high school, and the only openly transgender people I knew there were both jerks. So I was a little hesitant branching out again.

But this year, I found myself part of that community, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I moved into the Gender Inclusive Housing program at my college, hoping to find a little guidance in finding myself, and instead, I found a family. I found people who know what I mean when I say “genderqueer,” who can understand and talk about it, and who know the same struggle I do. I found people who helped me get comfortable with thinking, “I’m genderqueer, but I’m also transgender.” They helped me understand that one is not exclusive of the other, and that transitioning can mean a million things.

I wouldn’t be writing this if it weren’t for them. I owe them everything.

This year has, clearly, been a life-changing one. It’s been full of stress and amazement, wonder and fear, and I wouldn’t change any of it because if I did, if even one detail was altered, I wouldn’t be who I am.

It’s been a tough year, and I know life’s only going to get tougher. But I’m ready for it.
 
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sassyma seed

Cat with an f
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I can't wait for all the new shows and comics that will come out this year to see how many tards on tumblr will say that's them irl and or become kin with them
EVERY ONE OF THEM.

Unfortunately. Ever see someone on Tumblr complain about "being afraid the straights/whites/cissies will ruin something"? That's what i think people think about new Media that comes out.

I am curious as to what will become the new Steven Universe or Undertale.
 

Yamyam

Uki uki motherfucker
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I am curious as to what will become the new Steven Universe or Undertale.

the SU fandom will continue being a cesspool and the Undertale fandom will still be garbage screaming how Undertale is the best game ever for a few more months before dropping it completely and forgetting that it even existed just like every other popular fad that happens on that site( OFF, homestuck,danganronpa, etc) and latch on to something else, ruining it with their bullshit.
 

sassyma seed

Cat with an f
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the SU fandom will continue being a cesspool and the Undertale fandom will still be garbage screaming how Undertale is the best game ever for a few more months before dropping it completely and forgetting that it even existed just like every other popular fad that happens on that site( OFF, homestuck,danganronpa, etc) and latch on to something else, ruining it with their bullshit.
You're definitely right. It really is sad that Tumblr ruins awesome things.

R.I.P. In Peace 2015, Tumblr ruined everything good you produced.
 

Yamyam

Uki uki motherfucker
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