The Beginning:
Phil has a long standing history of living on the edge of OPL's aloggers, The genesis for this is quite simple but often miss understood. Back in CWC's golden age Phil also came to attention of a few observant people on /cow/ and attempted to start a internet slap fight between two cows of note, sadly due to Bob going to the lumber yard in the sky this failed and Phil aka “Jack Thadius: was forgotten by Chris, but importantly not by Phil.
When Phil became aware that he was getting set up as Jack Thadius Phil took a deeper interest in Chris. When Phil looks at Chris he see's a awful lot of parallels between himself and OPL and this horrifies him on a deeply fundamental level, because he's always simply though of himself as better than that.
So where does it come from?
Phil has a number of sources for this hate and self loathing, but the main one is his Brother. Phil's brother is confined to a wheelchair and is also intellectually sub normal but to a far greater extent than Himself or Chris and him being better than his brother almost became a source of Pride to Phil over time, this developed into a attitude of “As long as I'm better than him I'm winning” and this attitude was at least partly reinforced by his Mother who would say to young Phil things along the lines of “You haven't got your brothers problems an you should feel lucky”
The next biggest reason is Schooling, I have less solid evidence to work with here but it's pieced together from various thing's I have been told by Phil and by one or two people I have managed to track down who knew him in that time period, and various things that have came out over the years.
Phil in his early year's education was always that “special kid” but not one of the nice one's you'd ask to play with you an your friends out of pity or try and make friends with, he's the kind you'd leave well alone because he was just far too odd, but he also wasn't special enough to get dedicated extra help in the class room at that time, so as long as he wasn't actively causing a problem for the rest of the class and did the bare minimum amount of work to not fail he was mostly left on his own.
And much like Chris, High School came as a bit of shock to him, He was also less enthused by the idea of having to do work he didn't like that he was also starting to regularly find going over his head more so than ever before, so in the end he gained the attention of the people responsible for assisting special needs students and this really pissed him off because in his mind it took him one step closer to being like his brother, and the result was to some extent he got placed in some form of special measures where he was either in a remedial class for some subjects or had a lighter workload (my source for this is partly Phil an some one who knew him at this time, but didn't have the misfortune to directly directly interact with him), but the social aspects what floored him. He was thrown into a world that he he was struggling in emotionally and intellectually this breaks normal people, He was more likely to get bullied some times physically and he just could deal with it, leading to some minor Chimpouts and being for the most part frustrated that he didn't quite fit and didn't quite understand why.
Chris for all his faults, graduated High School at the normal time, Phil didn't, Chris was mainstreamed and mostly left alone Phil wasn't this was a huge source of irritation to Phil that some one he views as beneath him did things he couldn't.
Also just as a footnote this was also around the time the dreded Group Home was first mentioned,in relationship to Phil's brother, and his Mum for various reasons didn't like that and either by choice or happenstance instilled this fear in her marginally more functional child, but his Mum's a subject for another thread.
So what does all this mean?
Well to be honest this part isn't quite so easy to define, you see Chris is Phil's personal yard stick for a whole host of reasons some outlined above, and Phil feel's he has something to prove by being better than Chris at any given moment, he need's to feel like he's not as bad as that guy, an frankly he's more than just a little jealous of Chris.
Other than big events like Chris getting a PS4, Phil isn't really aware of the reality of Chris's life and just how much it sucks all's he see's is some one he feel's is beneath him in ability doing better than him and that's all that matters to Phil, so OPL get's a PS4 phil needs to get a bigger life upgrade searches his memory an say's he got a orchiectomy in a rather idiotic game of one one-upmanship, just so he can feel superior to some beneath him, the main difference is while Chris talks a big game he's satisfied with a lower achievement, he begged for a PS4 didn't get it so got it himself even payed over the odd's to do so, he might have got it himself but owning that PS4 is what matters. Phil overestimates his own competence and thinks he can say what ever he likes and will be believed by the people he want's it to matter too.
He's also envious of OPL's other accomplishments, Chris even for all his faults is liked in a way Phil isn't and he also can't work out why because supposedly he's a better person than Chris, and to some extent OPL has been able to monetise his infamy in a way he hasn't been able to, and Chris to Phil looks happy with his lot (the reality is quite complex in a way Phil can't understand) and he hate's that, Chris is doing better than him and he views him less than himself and the fact that Chris barely / if at all recall's who he is really annoys him.
In conclusion:
Phil is playing a really stupid game of “Keeping up with the Jones's” with Chris and anyone he views as beneath him self, but Chris still manages to be better than him, this was born from heady mix of paranoia, self loathing, self doubt, lack of personal accomplishments and fear that's metastasised into a ugly addition to a already horrific baseline personality.
Edit: also I'd like to thank @MMX and @Smutley for reading this over before I posted it.
Phil has a long standing history of living on the edge of OPL's aloggers, The genesis for this is quite simple but often miss understood. Back in CWC's golden age Phil also came to attention of a few observant people on /cow/ and attempted to start a internet slap fight between two cows of note, sadly due to Bob going to the lumber yard in the sky this failed and Phil aka “Jack Thadius: was forgotten by Chris, but importantly not by Phil.
When Phil became aware that he was getting set up as Jack Thadius Phil took a deeper interest in Chris. When Phil looks at Chris he see's a awful lot of parallels between himself and OPL and this horrifies him on a deeply fundamental level, because he's always simply though of himself as better than that.
So where does it come from?
Phil has a number of sources for this hate and self loathing, but the main one is his Brother. Phil's brother is confined to a wheelchair and is also intellectually sub normal but to a far greater extent than Himself or Chris and him being better than his brother almost became a source of Pride to Phil over time, this developed into a attitude of “As long as I'm better than him I'm winning” and this attitude was at least partly reinforced by his Mother who would say to young Phil things along the lines of “You haven't got your brothers problems an you should feel lucky”
The next biggest reason is Schooling, I have less solid evidence to work with here but it's pieced together from various thing's I have been told by Phil and by one or two people I have managed to track down who knew him in that time period, and various things that have came out over the years.
Phil in his early year's education was always that “special kid” but not one of the nice one's you'd ask to play with you an your friends out of pity or try and make friends with, he's the kind you'd leave well alone because he was just far too odd, but he also wasn't special enough to get dedicated extra help in the class room at that time, so as long as he wasn't actively causing a problem for the rest of the class and did the bare minimum amount of work to not fail he was mostly left on his own.
And much like Chris, High School came as a bit of shock to him, He was also less enthused by the idea of having to do work he didn't like that he was also starting to regularly find going over his head more so than ever before, so in the end he gained the attention of the people responsible for assisting special needs students and this really pissed him off because in his mind it took him one step closer to being like his brother, and the result was to some extent he got placed in some form of special measures where he was either in a remedial class for some subjects or had a lighter workload (my source for this is partly Phil an some one who knew him at this time, but didn't have the misfortune to directly directly interact with him), but the social aspects what floored him. He was thrown into a world that he he was struggling in emotionally and intellectually this breaks normal people, He was more likely to get bullied some times physically and he just could deal with it, leading to some minor Chimpouts and being for the most part frustrated that he didn't quite fit and didn't quite understand why.
Chris for all his faults, graduated High School at the normal time, Phil didn't, Chris was mainstreamed and mostly left alone Phil wasn't this was a huge source of irritation to Phil that some one he views as beneath him did things he couldn't.
Also just as a footnote this was also around the time the dreded Group Home was first mentioned,in relationship to Phil's brother, and his Mum for various reasons didn't like that and either by choice or happenstance instilled this fear in her marginally more functional child, but his Mum's a subject for another thread.
So what does all this mean?
Well to be honest this part isn't quite so easy to define, you see Chris is Phil's personal yard stick for a whole host of reasons some outlined above, and Phil feel's he has something to prove by being better than Chris at any given moment, he need's to feel like he's not as bad as that guy, an frankly he's more than just a little jealous of Chris.
Other than big events like Chris getting a PS4, Phil isn't really aware of the reality of Chris's life and just how much it sucks all's he see's is some one he feel's is beneath him in ability doing better than him and that's all that matters to Phil, so OPL get's a PS4 phil needs to get a bigger life upgrade searches his memory an say's he got a orchiectomy in a rather idiotic game of one one-upmanship, just so he can feel superior to some beneath him, the main difference is while Chris talks a big game he's satisfied with a lower achievement, he begged for a PS4 didn't get it so got it himself even payed over the odd's to do so, he might have got it himself but owning that PS4 is what matters. Phil overestimates his own competence and thinks he can say what ever he likes and will be believed by the people he want's it to matter too.
He's also envious of OPL's other accomplishments, Chris even for all his faults is liked in a way Phil isn't and he also can't work out why because supposedly he's a better person than Chris, and to some extent OPL has been able to monetise his infamy in a way he hasn't been able to, and Chris to Phil looks happy with his lot (the reality is quite complex in a way Phil can't understand) and he hate's that, Chris is doing better than him and he views him less than himself and the fact that Chris barely / if at all recall's who he is really annoys him.
In conclusion:
Phil is playing a really stupid game of “Keeping up with the Jones's” with Chris and anyone he views as beneath him self, but Chris still manages to be better than him, this was born from heady mix of paranoia, self loathing, self doubt, lack of personal accomplishments and fear that's metastasised into a ugly addition to a already horrific baseline personality.
Edit: also I'd like to thank @MMX and @Smutley for reading this over before I posted it.
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