Skitzocow Connor Murphy - Body Building Youtube Superstar turned Drugged Out Peepee Guru who Drinks Cum for the Health Benefits

[thejackal]

believe it or not. and not that any of you would know. but...this motherfucker has one of the most beautiful on plane golf swings i have ever seen in my life. the way he explodes through the ball is absurd for a lunatic on ayahuasca. check the 1 minute 31 second mark in the vid below.

https://youtu.be/NePrPVLJj-w?t=91

more analysis about the golf time stamp bc im a golf fag
he is hitting the shot barefoot. he appears to be playing a longer iron. he hits the slot on a perfect plane and has great club lag. he holds off the club face at the end of the swing which indicates he probably hit a cut. a cut is a also known as a fade which is left to right ball spin.

He has a really nice swing pretty much everybody that saw him was like "the streaker has a nice swing". In another universe this guy is probably a mild mannered young golf pro teaching at some course. In ours he's a cum chugging lolcow, small win I guess for us.

 

[JenkinsJinkies]

He has a really nice swing pretty much everybody that saw him was like "the streaker has a nice swing". In another universe this guy is probably a mild mannered young golf pro teaching at some course. In ours he's a cum chugging lolcow, small win I guess for us.

I like to think he'd grow tired of banging trophy wives and rich widows just like he did banging LA hoes and being a YouTube Chad and inevitably devolve into a cum drinking schizo regardless.

 

[Squid Bitch]

So Connor's gay because he can do "yoga" without getting a boner. (Can't possibly be all the shit he's taking, causing erectile dysfunction.)

Connor Murphy Proves He's Gay

 

[Fuck It We'll Do It Live]

believe it or not. and not that any of you would know. but...this motherfucker has one of the most beautiful on plane golf swings i have ever seen in my life. the way he explodes through the ball is absurd for a lunatic on ayahuasca. check the 1 minute 31 second mark in the vid below.

https://youtu.be/NePrPVLJj-w?t=91

more analysis about the golf time stamp bc im a golf fag
he is hitting the shot barefoot. he appears to be playing a longer iron. he hits the slot on a perfect plane and has great club lag. he holds off the club face at the end of the swing which indicates he probably hit a cut. a cut is a also known as a fade which is left to right ball spin.

So if he was to regain of what's left of his sanity and dress in a more conservative way that would please Kevin Kisner, has he the makings of becoming a pro-golfer? Is he a natural or has he had previous experience; it seems he only started this crusade against the PGA over their alleged homophobia a few months ago and never mentioned golf before that; his earliest mention (or at least the earliest video devoted to the topic) of golf was this video: "The Day I Realized I Was Going to Win the US Open | Connor Murphy and Tiger Woods 🕊"; posted four months ago in January.
[EDIT]: In that January video, he does state he is a golfer, and that he played college golf.

 

[Pope Negro Joe the XIIIth]

So Connor's gay because he can do "yoga" without getting a boner. (Can't possibly be all the shit he's taking, causing erectile dysfunction.)

Connor Murphy Proves He's Gay
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Wow. I've done my share of substances but god. damn. Starchild over here parleying with Nyarlathotep through some kind of dimensional rift that didn't require the usual rituals of sacrifice and then acting like his dick not working is some kind of shock.

 

[HiramTheGrift]

So Connor's gay because he can do "yoga" without getting a boner. (Can't possibly be all the shit he's taking, causing erectile dysfunction.)

Connor Murphy Proves He's Gay
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Something in that video doesn't add up. That's Lauren Kinnear in his video, the girl who accused him of rape. He calls her Lauren and she's identical to the lauren he doxxed on video a week ago.

If she truly accused him of rape then why is she intimate with him now on camera? She cried and spoke with conviction when accusing him. The newer video has to be current as well because he just shaved his head a few days ago, whereas the accusation video shows Connor with hair.

Why is she with him now? Is she also delusional and has done a 180? I have trouble believing this is some elaborate prank, even though he said she was "in on it" in the Father's Day video a few days earlier

 

[MirnaMinkoff]

Something in that video doesn't add up. That's Lauren Kinnear in his video, the girl who accused him of rape. He calls her Lauren and she's identical to the lauren he doxxed on video a week ago.

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If she truly accused him of rape then why is she intimate with him now on camera? She cried and spoke with conviction when accusing him. The newer video has to be current as well because he just shaved his head a few days ago, whereas the accusation video shows Connor with hair.

Why is she with him now? Is she also delusional and has done a 180? I have trouble believing this is some elaborate prank, even though he said she was "in on it" in the Father's Day video a few days earlier

I think she’s just some legit crazy BPD thot that’s obsessed with and desperate for Conner.

She just wants his attention at any cost. If that means accusing him of rape because he ignores her, or pretending her false accusations were just an elaborate prank or filming him being the town lunatic - she’s cool with that. As long as she’s got Conner next to her, paying attention to her, it’s fine. It’s him ignoring her that is intolerable.

Conner seems to think Business Insider or Discovery + is doing a story on him. I bet they are, but not about him being a rapist, but about his very public psychotic break and daily psychedelic use. If anything a significant media piece pointing out YT has been broadcasting the spectacle of one of their former stars descent into severe mental illness and abuse of psychedelics for over a year might get him yanked from the platform.

It was only after Discovery + did their expose on Onision that he finally got demonitized, but his channels remained up. I don’t think any of Conner’s channels are monitized anymore. At least I don’t see any ads running on any of them, so it might force YT to shut down the channels entirely since demonetizing them isn’t any threat.

 

[HiramTheGrift]

I think she’s just some legit crazy BPD thot that’s obsessed with and desperate for Conner.

She just wants his attention at any cost. If that means accusing him of rape because he ignores her, or pretending her false accusations were just an elaborate prank or filming him being the town lunatic - she’s cool with that. As long as she’s got Conner next to her, paying attention to her, it’s fine. It’s him ignoring her that is intolerable.

Conner seems to think Business Insider or Discovery + is doing a story on him. I bet they are, but not about him being a rapist, but about his very public psychotic break and daily psychedelic use. If anything a significant media piece pointing out YT has been broadcasting the spectacle of one of their former stars descent into severe mental illness and abuse of psychedelics for over a year might get him yanked from the platform.

It was only after Discovery + did their expose on Onision that he finally got demonitized, but his channels remained up. I don’t think any of Conner’s channels are monitized anymore. At least I don’t see any ads running on any of them, so it might force YT to shut down the channels entirely since demonetizing them isn’t any threat.

You're probably right. Connor showed images alleging she called him hundreds of times from private numbers and made other bizarre claims. It's equally telling about his mental state that he's around her now. Since he was kicked out of his parent's basement it's possible he's staying with her. I wonder how this will play out, because there's no way two sick people of that power level will leave eachother's lives quietly

 

[Squid Bitch]

Something in that video doesn't add up. That's Lauren Kinnear in his video, the girl who accused him of rape. He calls her Lauren and she's identical to the lauren he doxxed on video a week ago.

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If she truly accused him of rape then why is she intimate with him now on camera? She cried and spoke with conviction when accusing him. The newer video has to be current as well because he just shaved his head a few days ago, whereas the accusation video shows Connor with hair.

Why is she with him now? Is she also delusional and has done a 180? I have trouble believing this is some elaborate prank, even though he said she was "in on it" in the Father's Day video a few days earlier

They're together in this video from Saturday, too, in which Connor, sounding surprisingly coherent, claims that the whole thing was an act to show how you can't trust the media:

Connor Murphy and Ex-Girlfriend Expose Manipulative Business Insider Reporter (It Was All an Act)

I think it's plausible that the whole rape allegations thing was legitimately a stunt, but I don't think his ability to pull it says anything positive about his mental state; only a moron or crazy person would consider having someone publicly accuse them of rape as a rational way of saying "gotcha" to the media. As for Lauren herself, crazy attracts crazy.

Spoiler: The Business Insider article in question

A bodybuilding YouTube star famous for taking his shirt off says hallucinogenic drugs changed his life. Now an ex-girlfriend is accusing him of rape.

Steven Asarch
Jun 18, 2021, 9:45 AM

• Connor Murphy was once a prolific fitness influencer on YouTube, pulling in half a billion views.
• He's said that in 2020 he attended an ayahuasca ceremony that fundamentally shifted his worldview.
• An ex-girlfriend of Murphy's accused him of sexually assaulting her in April.

A highly-followed bodybuilding personality on YouTube appeared to experience shocking changes in personality after he said he began using hallucinogenic drugs. A deeper examination of his journey uncovered disturbing allegations of assault.

Connor Murphy used to be one of the most popular fitness influencers on YouTube. The 26-year-old has 2.4 million subscribers and half a billion views on his YouTube videos, which for years consisted mostly of him exercising, taking his shirt off, and talking to women. Murphy appeared at fitness expos, sold a workout program, and claims to have made six figures a year from YouTube.

But his videos took a sharp turn after Murphy was "spiritually enlightened," he said in an interview, during an ayahuasca trip in 2020. After that, Murphy began posting bizarre, cryptic videos with wild claims. In one video, he said his life was based on the play "Dear Evan Hansen," and in another, that he was the reincarnation of Jesus, leaving viewers wondering whether he's "acting," struggling with his mental health, or, as he's said in some interviews, trying to raise awareness around mental health.

Three influencers who have recently interacted with Murphy, one who has known him since 2017, and two who visited him for two weeks in May, recently spoke with Insider about the content creator, whose life seems to have changed remarkably in the past year. They all said it seemed to them that Murphy's life had fallen into disarray after his purported use of drugs.

A portrait of Murphy's life has emerged, one marked by hallucinogens, controversy, and, possibly, a warped sense of reality. A darker allegation against Murphy also surfaced during the reporting of this story: Lauren Kinnear, an ex-girlfriend, told Insider that Murphy had sexually assaulted her in a hotel room in April.

Murphy disputed the allegation in his interviews with Insider and in a video posted on his channel ahead of the publication of this article.

In two interviews with Insider, Murphy was adamant that he was just an "actor" and that his actions in all of his recent videos, such as seemingly taking large doses of hallucinogens and spending two weeks in a mental hospital, were all part of a plan that "everyone is in on." He said that everything in his videos was a performance but stood by details about his life, such as his use of hallucinogens, that appeared in his book, "Insane or Enlightened," self-published in a Google doc earlier this year.

Murphy rapidly rose to YouTube fame
Murphy was born in Missouri and raised in Arkansas. He started weightlifting when he was 13, he said in his first YouTube video, posted in 2016. He said he got serious about fitness when he was 21.

In his second video, he took his shirt off in an Abercrombie & Fitch store window, claiming later in the video that this got him banned from the mall. In others, he would talk to women in the street or on Omegle, a site where users can talk to random strangers.

He quickly found viral fame.

In November 2016, Murphy posted his most popular video, which has 62 million views. In the video, titled "The Connor Murphy Fake Shirt Trick," he asks women what color his shirt is under his jacket before revealing he's shirtless.

Murphy leaned into his new YouTuber identity, filming and posting videos from various locations.

In 2017, Murphy was barred from the University of Texas at Austin for trespassing. He'd moved to Austin in 2013 for college and shot many of his early videos there, but by 2017 he was no longer a student. Later that year, Murphy moved to Los Angeles to pursue a full-time influencer career.

Murphy wrote in his book that despite pursuing a life beyond his "childhood dreams," he was the unhappiest he'd ever been.

Murphy said he started meditating and became "interested in Buddhist practice" after a failed mugging in Santa Monica in 2018 made him realize his own mortality.

"This was the lowest part of my life," he wrote. "Not only was I depressed because my life situation didn't give me happiness, but I was so paranoid about death."

Murphy says he found psychedelics and started to take them frequently
Murphy said he began experimenting with drugs in 2019 with his girlfriend.

That year, Murphy had met Lauren Kinnear, a 19-year-old UCLA student, on the dating app Bumble. She told Insider that they started dating shortly after and would film YouTube videos together. That August, she said, she moved into Murphy's Los Angeles apartment.

"I realized he's a really scary person," Kinnear said told Insider.

In his book, Murphy wrote that he went to six EDM festivals, some with Kinnear, and dabbled with MDMA, popularly known as ecstasy. After the couple broke up in December 2019, Murphy said he and a friend tried LSD and "magic mushrooms" but didn't experience the "spiritual" awakening they had expected.

Murphy said he participated in an ayahuasca ceremony in Joshua Tree National Park in May 2020. Ayahuasca is a powerful hallucinogen that contains DMT and can cause intense hallucinations, euphoria, anxiety, and delusions of grandeur. Murphy said his trip led to "ego death," a belief that he was God, and an "an altered state of consciousness."

He wrote that in less than a week he'd gone "from a spiritually frustrated YouTuber to a guru with complete experiential understanding of the universe."

The week after his trip, Murphy posted a series of videos on his main YouTube channel that alarmed and confused people in his fan base. In them, he tried to "enlighten" his friends and family. In a now-deleted video, he leaked his address and implied that he'd end his own life.

In his book and in a video on his Connor Murphy Raw channel, Murphy said that right after he made that video he called 911, put on a "disguise," and wandered around Venice Beach until the police found and detained him. He said he was then sent to the UCLA Medical Center and held for over two weeks.

On May 30, 2020, Murphy posted a video called "Yes, I'm Alive. And I'm Sorry" on his Connor Murphy Talks channel, saying that he "was not in my right mind" and that his previous video was just an "acting reel."

Two weeks later, on June 14, Murphy said he'd started a 40-day fast, which he livestreamed. Kinnear told Insider that she'd visited Murphy during this period, describing him as "manic." By the end of his fast, Murphy had lost significant muscle mass. Some of his fans posted comments saying they were worried about his mental health.

Murphy made most of his videos private in November 2020, then made them public a few months later.

In 2021, Murphy continued on his new, bizarre path, posting videos in which he discussed drinking bodily fluids and said he'd gotten surgery without anesthesia. He also claimed that he was in the musical "Dear Evan Hansen," which has a character named Connor Murphy.

Kenny Boulet, a fitness YouTuber who goes by Kenny KO and who's been a friend of Murphy's since 2017, flew Murphy out to his home in Las Vegas in March. Boulet told Insider that Murphy used to be a "nice guy who was fun to be around." On this trip, Boulet said, Murphy was "meditating throughout the day" and "sun gazing." He said Murphy "wasn't present."

Murphy's former girlfriend says he sexually assaulted her in an LA hotel room
Kinnear told Insider that Murphy sexually assaulted her in a hotel room in Los Angeles on April 25. Murphy had invited her to play mini-golf and talk while he was visiting from Dallas, where he had moved back to in 2020, Kinnear said.

"I met him up in his hotel room, and when he opened the door, I said hi," Kinnear said. "And he suddenly pulled me in and started trying to take off all my clothes. And I have anxiety, and I was caught off guard. I didn't even get a sentence out. He put a pillow on my head and held my face down and then shook me back and forth."

Kinnear told Insider she'd protested that Murphy didn't have a condom and that he could have an STD. She said Murphy replied, "I'm God; it's impossible." Kinnear said that after that, she "just let it happen."

Kinnear said she went back to the home she shares with her cousin Tiara Maxwell. Maxwell told Insider that Kinnear confided in her that night, describing her as "super upset and distraught."

"She came home bawling her eyes out," Maxwell said. "She was shocked. They had a relationship, and she didn't think he would do something like that."

The next day, Kinnear texted Murphy; Insider reviewed the conversation. "Before I even got a sentence out, you aggresively striped [sic] me down and had sex with me," she said. "What you did makes me feel very used."

"You seemed really into it in the moment," Murphy responded. Later in the conversation, Kinnear texted, "You took advantage of me sexually two nights ago I feel like I was raped."

Kinnear says she filed a "report of rape" with the Placentia Police Department on April 30. Kinnear provided what she said was a copy of the report to Insider. The police department would not comment on the report, but confirmed that the report number existed in their files. A search of court records in Orange County didn't produce documentation of any current or former charges against Murphy.

Murphy posted the text conversation with Kinnear on his Instagram Story with a poll asking "Was this rape?" He also posted a report which Connor told Insider was fake saying he'd tested positive for multiple STDs, then showed the negative results. Murphy said in an interview that he'd posted the poll because he "wanted people to weigh in on it and question it."

A few days later, Murphy posted a photo on TikTok and Instagram of Kinnear's head on an iPad next to a sex doll with two watermelons on the chest. He captioned it "Spare Time - God masturbating to itself."

Kinnear says she filed two more police reports against Murphy about the posts. Insider reviewed images of what Kinnear said were the reports. One report said that the officer did not "see anything that would indicate a violation of a penal code." She was advised to get a restraining order against Murphy, which she told Insider she had not done. The Placentia Police Department would not comment on the reports.

In an interview, Murphy said Kinnear's claims "were completely made up." He told Insider that the sex was "consensual," adding, "We always had sex without a condom, so that's completely normal."

Kinnear also told Insider that Murphy had had sex with her without her consent during their relationship in 2019. The first police report she filed about Murphy said Kinnear had told investigators that "Murphy would have sex with her while she was asleep" and that "she knew Murphy was having sex with her during these incidents but she did not tell him to stop because she just wanted it to be over with."

Murphy denied that it was assault. "We used to have a fantasy when she would pretend to be asleep," he told Insider. "We agreed on it beforehand."

A series of YouTube videos showing Murphy's living conditions worried fans
In Murphy's latest videos, he appeared to use drugs on camera and addressed the assault allegation.

On May 5, 2021, Murphy posted a video in which he consumed what he said was ayahuasca, but that it didn't affect him. In an interview with Insider, he said that he did consume the drug in the video, adding, "Once you get to a certain level of consciousness, these psychedelics stop affecting you in a certain way."

Michael Winkelman, a retired professor at the School of Human Evolution and Social Change at Arizona State University who has studied the effects of ayahuasca use, told Insider that when a person takes ayahuasca regularly, "the serotonin system regulates the effect," meaning it may no longer have a hallucinogenic effect. If they repeatedly take large doses, he said, it can lead to "developing megalomaniac features."

In May, Micah Putman, who co-runs the YouTube channel Good Key, and Jane Cooper, a writer and YouTuber, posted separate videos about their experiences with Murphy. They said they'd visited Murphy's apartment in Dallas. Cooper told Insider it was covered with "Amazon boxes," "pounds of ayahuasca," and "rotten food everywhere."

"It was extremely messy, the sink was almost unusable when we got there, and the fridge was grimy with mold and rotten food," Putman told Insider. "It was like he bought something and by the time it arrived at his door it was thrown into the abyss that was his cluttered floor."

In an interview, Murphy said that there was no ayahuasca in his apartment and that both Putman and Cooper were "in on" the "act." Murphy and Cooper denied that.

Also in May, Murphy appeared to post his Social Security number, credit-card details, phone number, and financial information on Instagram. Murphy said the posts were meant "to show a nonattachment to materialism."

Murphy said that after Cooper's and Putman's videos were filmed on May 12, he was sent to a mental-health facility for 12 days. On May 24, he posted a YouTube video titled "RIP Connor Murphy," and over the next week he posted daily, claiming he had died. Since then, he's been staying with his parents in Missouri and posting more bizarre videos.

On June 9, after Murphy found out an article was being written about him, he posted a video with a 30-minute conversation with Kinnear. As she cries, she begs him not to post their conversation online.

"Clearly you have a skewed view of what help is and what love is, because this is not it at all," Kinnear said in the video, adding: "You're not able to feel remorse. You're not. Like, I don't know why that part of your brain isn't activated."

 

[MirnaMinkoff]

You're probably right. Connor showed images alleging she called him hundreds of times from private numbers and made other bizarre claims. It's equally telling about his mental state that he's around her now. Since he was kicked out of his parent's basement it's possible he's staying with her. I wonder how this will play out, because there's no way two sick people of that power level will leave eachother's lives quietly

Oh, it’s going to get ugly. Imagine a girl so obsessed she can listen to Conner’s manic babble for days and is willing to be his camera man for shit like his Capt. Gaypride US Open stunt.

They're together in this video from Saturday, too, in which Connor, sounding surprisingly coherent, claims that the whole thing was an act to show how you can't trust the media:

Connor Murphy and Ex-Girlfriend Expose Manipulative Business Insider Reporter (It Was All an Act)
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I think it's plausible that the whole rape allegations thing was legitimately a stunt, but I don't think his ability to pull it says anything positive about his mental state; only a moron or crazy person would consider having someone publicly accuse them of rape as a rational way of saying "gotcha" to the media. As for Lauren herself, crazy attracts crazy.

Spoiler: The Business Insider article in question

A bodybuilding YouTube star famous for taking his shirt off says hallucinogenic drugs changed his life. Now an ex-girlfriend is accusing him of rape.

Steven Asarch
Jun 18, 2021, 9:45 AM

• Connor Murphy was once a prolific fitness influencer on YouTube, pulling in half a billion views.
• He's said that in 2020 he attended an ayahuasca ceremony that fundamentally shifted his worldview.
• An ex-girlfriend of Murphy's accused him of sexually assaulting her in April.

A highly-followed bodybuilding personality on YouTube appeared to experience shocking changes in personality after he said he began using hallucinogenic drugs. A deeper examination of his journey uncovered disturbing allegations of assault.

Connor Murphy used to be one of the most popular fitness influencers on YouTube. The 26-year-old has 2.4 million subscribers and half a billion views on his YouTube videos, which for years consisted mostly of him exercising, taking his shirt off, and talking to women. Murphy appeared at fitness expos, sold a workout program, and claims to have made six figures a year from YouTube.

But his videos took a sharp turn after Murphy was "spiritually enlightened," he said in an interview, during an ayahuasca trip in 2020. After that, Murphy began posting bizarre, cryptic videos with wild claims. In one video, he said his life was based on the play "Dear Evan Hansen," and in another, that he was the reincarnation of Jesus, leaving viewers wondering whether he's "acting," struggling with his mental health, or, as he's said in some interviews, trying to raise awareness around mental health.

Three influencers who have recently interacted with Murphy, one who has known him since 2017, and two who visited him for two weeks in May, recently spoke with Insider about the content creator, whose life seems to have changed remarkably in the past year. They all said it seemed to them that Murphy's life had fallen into disarray after his purported use of drugs.

A portrait of Murphy's life has emerged, one marked by hallucinogens, controversy, and, possibly, a warped sense of reality. A darker allegation against Murphy also surfaced during the reporting of this story: Lauren Kinnear, an ex-girlfriend, told Insider that Murphy had sexually assaulted her in a hotel room in April.

Murphy disputed the allegation in his interviews with Insider and in a video posted on his channel ahead of the publication of this article.

In two interviews with Insider, Murphy was adamant that he was just an "actor" and that his actions in all of his recent videos, such as seemingly taking large doses of hallucinogens and spending two weeks in a mental hospital, were all part of a plan that "everyone is in on." He said that everything in his videos was a performance but stood by details about his life, such as his use of hallucinogens, that appeared in his book, "Insane or Enlightened," self-published in a Google doc earlier this year.

Murphy rapidly rose to YouTube fame
Murphy was born in Missouri and raised in Arkansas. He started weightlifting when he was 13, he said in his first YouTube video, posted in 2016. He said he got serious about fitness when he was 21.

In his second video, he took his shirt off in an Abercrombie & Fitch store window, claiming later in the video that this got him banned from the mall. In others, he would talk to women in the street or on Omegle, a site where users can talk to random strangers.

He quickly found viral fame.

In November 2016, Murphy posted his most popular video, which has 62 million views. In the video, titled "The Connor Murphy Fake Shirt Trick," he asks women what color his shirt is under his jacket before revealing he's shirtless.

Murphy leaned into his new YouTuber identity, filming and posting videos from various locations.

In 2017, Murphy was barred from the University of Texas at Austin for trespassing. He'd moved to Austin in 2013 for college and shot many of his early videos there, but by 2017 he was no longer a student. Later that year, Murphy moved to Los Angeles to pursue a full-time influencer career.

Murphy wrote in his book that despite pursuing a life beyond his "childhood dreams," he was the unhappiest he'd ever been.

Murphy said he started meditating and became "interested in Buddhist practice" after a failed mugging in Santa Monica in 2018 made him realize his own mortality.

"This was the lowest part of my life," he wrote. "Not only was I depressed because my life situation didn't give me happiness, but I was so paranoid about death."

Murphy says he found psychedelics and started to take them frequently
Murphy said he began experimenting with drugs in 2019 with his girlfriend.

That year, Murphy had met Lauren Kinnear, a 19-year-old UCLA student, on the dating app Bumble. She told Insider that they started dating shortly after and would film YouTube videos together. That August, she said, she moved into Murphy's Los Angeles apartment.

"I realized he's a really scary person," Kinnear said told Insider.

In his book, Murphy wrote that he went to six EDM festivals, some with Kinnear, and dabbled with MDMA, popularly known as ecstasy. After the couple broke up in December 2019, Murphy said he and a friend tried LSD and "magic mushrooms" but didn't experience the "spiritual" awakening they had expected.

Murphy said he participated in an ayahuasca ceremony in Joshua Tree National Park in May 2020. Ayahuasca is a powerful hallucinogen that contains DMT and can cause intense hallucinations, euphoria, anxiety, and delusions of grandeur. Murphy said his trip led to "ego death," a belief that he was God, and an "an altered state of consciousness."

He wrote that in less than a week he'd gone "from a spiritually frustrated YouTuber to a guru with complete experiential understanding of the universe."

The week after his trip, Murphy posted a series of videos on his main YouTube channel that alarmed and confused people in his fan base. In them, he tried to "enlighten" his friends and family. In a now-deleted video, he leaked his address and implied that he'd end his own life.

In his book and in a video on his Connor Murphy Raw channel, Murphy said that right after he made that video he called 911, put on a "disguise," and wandered around Venice Beach until the police found and detained him. He said he was then sent to the UCLA Medical Center and held for over two weeks.

On May 30, 2020, Murphy posted a video called "Yes, I'm Alive. And I'm Sorry" on his Connor Murphy Talks channel, saying that he "was not in my right mind" and that his previous video was just an "acting reel."

Two weeks later, on June 14, Murphy said he'd started a 40-day fast, which he livestreamed. Kinnear told Insider that she'd visited Murphy during this period, describing him as "manic." By the end of his fast, Murphy had lost significant muscle mass. Some of his fans posted comments saying they were worried about his mental health.

Murphy made most of his videos private in November 2020, then made them public a few months later.

In 2021, Murphy continued on his new, bizarre path, posting videos in which he discussed drinking bodily fluids and said he'd gotten surgery without anesthesia. He also claimed that he was in the musical "Dear Evan Hansen," which has a character named Connor Murphy.

Kenny Boulet, a fitness YouTuber who goes by Kenny KO and who's been a friend of Murphy's since 2017, flew Murphy out to his home in Las Vegas in March. Boulet told Insider that Murphy used to be a "nice guy who was fun to be around." On this trip, Boulet said, Murphy was "meditating throughout the day" and "sun gazing." He said Murphy "wasn't present."

Murphy's former girlfriend says he sexually assaulted her in an LA hotel room
Kinnear told Insider that Murphy sexually assaulted her in a hotel room in Los Angeles on April 25. Murphy had invited her to play mini-golf and talk while he was visiting from Dallas, where he had moved back to in 2020, Kinnear said.

"I met him up in his hotel room, and when he opened the door, I said hi," Kinnear said. "And he suddenly pulled me in and started trying to take off all my clothes. And I have anxiety, and I was caught off guard. I didn't even get a sentence out. He put a pillow on my head and held my face down and then shook me back and forth."

Kinnear told Insider she'd protested that Murphy didn't have a condom and that he could have an STD. She said Murphy replied, "I'm God; it's impossible." Kinnear said that after that, she "just let it happen."

Kinnear said she went back to the home she shares with her cousin Tiara Maxwell. Maxwell told Insider that Kinnear confided in her that night, describing her as "super upset and distraught."

"She came home bawling her eyes out," Maxwell said. "She was shocked. They had a relationship, and she didn't think he would do something like that."

The next day, Kinnear texted Murphy; Insider reviewed the conversation. "Before I even got a sentence out, you aggresively striped [sic] me down and had sex with me," she said. "What you did makes me feel very used."

"You seemed really into it in the moment," Murphy responded. Later in the conversation, Kinnear texted, "You took advantage of me sexually two nights ago I feel like I was raped."

Kinnear says she filed a "report of rape" with the Placentia Police Department on April 30. Kinnear provided what she said was a copy of the report to Insider. The police department would not comment on the report, but confirmed that the report number existed in their files. A search of court records in Orange County didn't produce documentation of any current or former charges against Murphy.

Murphy posted the text conversation with Kinnear on his Instagram Story with a poll asking "Was this rape?" He also posted a report which Connor told Insider was fake saying he'd tested positive for multiple STDs, then showed the negative results. Murphy said in an interview that he'd posted the poll because he "wanted people to weigh in on it and question it."

A few days later, Murphy posted a photo on TikTok and Instagram of Kinnear's head on an iPad next to a sex doll with two watermelons on the chest. He captioned it "Spare Time - God masturbating to itself."

Kinnear says she filed two more police reports against Murphy about the posts. Insider reviewed images of what Kinnear said were the reports. One report said that the officer did not "see anything that would indicate a violation of a penal code." She was advised to get a restraining order against Murphy, which she told Insider she had not done. The Placentia Police Department would not comment on the reports.

In an interview, Murphy said Kinnear's claims "were completely made up." He told Insider that the sex was "consensual," adding, "We always had sex without a condom, so that's completely normal."

Kinnear also told Insider that Murphy had had sex with her without her consent during their relationship in 2019. The first police report she filed about Murphy said Kinnear had told investigators that "Murphy would have sex with her while she was asleep" and that "she knew Murphy was having sex with her during these incidents but she did not tell him to stop because she just wanted it to be over with."

Murphy denied that it was assault. "We used to have a fantasy when she would pretend to be asleep," he told Insider. "We agreed on it beforehand."

A series of YouTube videos showing Murphy's living conditions worried fans
In Murphy's latest videos, he appeared to use drugs on camera and addressed the assault allegation.

On May 5, 2021, Murphy posted a video in which he consumed what he said was ayahuasca, but that it didn't affect him. In an interview with Insider, he said that he did consume the drug in the video, adding, "Once you get to a certain level of consciousness, these psychedelics stop affecting you in a certain way."

Michael Winkelman, a retired professor at the School of Human Evolution and Social Change at Arizona State University who has studied the effects of ayahuasca use, told Insider that when a person takes ayahuasca regularly, "the serotonin system regulates the effect," meaning it may no longer have a hallucinogenic effect. If they repeatedly take large doses, he said, it can lead to "developing megalomaniac features."

In May, Micah Putman, who co-runs the YouTube channel Good Key, and Jane Cooper, a writer and YouTuber, posted separate videos about their experiences with Murphy. They said they'd visited Murphy's apartment in Dallas. Cooper told Insider it was covered with "Amazon boxes," "pounds of ayahuasca," and "rotten food everywhere."

"It was extremely messy, the sink was almost unusable when we got there, and the fridge was grimy with mold and rotten food," Putman told Insider. "It was like he bought something and by the time it arrived at his door it was thrown into the abyss that was his cluttered floor."

In an interview, Murphy said that there was no ayahuasca in his apartment and that both Putman and Cooper were "in on" the "act." Murphy and Cooper denied that.

Also in May, Murphy appeared to post his Social Security number, credit-card details, phone number, and financial information on Instagram. Murphy said the posts were meant "to show a nonattachment to materialism."

Murphy said that after Cooper's and Putman's videos were filmed on May 12, he was sent to a mental-health facility for 12 days. On May 24, he posted a YouTube video titled "RIP Connor Murphy," and over the next week he posted daily, claiming he had died. Since then, he's been staying with his parents in Missouri and posting more bizarre videos.

On June 9, after Murphy found out an article was being written about him, he posted a video with a 30-minute conversation with Kinnear. As she cries, she begs him not to post their conversation online.

"Clearly you have a skewed view of what help is and what love is, because this is not it at all," Kinnear said in the video, adding: "You're not able to feel remorse. You're not. Like, I don't know why that part of your brain isn't activated."

Hmmm. This article makes me think he did just jump her in some manic psychotic state when she came to visit. He was smack in the middle of his meltdown in April last year. I think his mind is so fucked up that it didn’t occur to him she might not want to have sex with him immediately upon entering the room and not even cognizant of someone else’s feelings.

She probably was thrilled he wanted to see her again but wasn’t expecting “no talk, just fuck” greeting and was stunned. Afterwards she was angry and confused because her ex-boyfriend had become a psychotic loon tripping his balls off and didn’t bother to ask if she actually wanted to have sex with him - and then he went back to ignoring her again.

It seems like once Conner went off the deep end he forgot about the basic social niceties and norms you’re supposed to do when sleeping with a nutty chick so she doesn’t flip out on you. He just started treating her as a barely sentient fuck doll.

I think after she told her story to BI Conner freaked and decided he needed to woo her back so that she would pretend it was all just a big prank on the reporter. I think she is going along with that as long as Conner will be her boyfriend again.

Look for a new abuse/rape/horror story from Lauren in August. She might be a obsessive BPD thot, but Conner is legit psychotic. I don’t think anyone would be safe around him for long periods of time. I certainly would be terrified of spending the night alone with him just due to him being totally unpredictable. He might just burn the entire apartment down while you sleep because he’s decided the god of fire now and the unburnt one.

The article also gave some interesting background I wasn’t aware of. It seems like Conner has been desperately seeking attention on SM for years. I thought he had a more put together life, graduated college and then after some initial success on YT moved to LA to pursue it as a career. The article gives a timeline of him acting like a sped jackass for years, getting banned from college and shopping malls doing his vain bodybuilder stunts. He was just being a utter attention whoring spastic until finally one of his stunts got him some viral mileage.

It also seems to indicate he never graduated from college, much less with a CS/mathematics degree. I didn’t think he’d BS about a salient fact like that, but only because it seems like a super easy thing to get called out on. However, now I think he probably never graduated from college and instead spent the last seven years desperately chasing e-fame and his super-chad dreams. Mental illness has been a issue for years, but only starting in late 2019 it started effecting his ability to function and then the psychedelics in 2020 turbo charged the mania/ insanity.

 

[Paladin Derich]

You know, all fun aside, it's so sad. How old Connor is, 26? He is not even in his 30s and his life is already beyond unfucking. And all because he decided to play with DMT once.

He overdosed on /r9k/ bullshit.

 

[Ruin]

He overdosed on /r9k/ bullshit.

Idk I don't see this as an incel/foreveralone thing. I see this more as a typical California story thing where a young, handsome, intelligent, successful moves to Cali to pursue the dream, realizes superficial bullshit won't make him happy, and then falls ever deep into depravity and failure trying to recapture the initial high they got from their earlier success.

I could very well be wrong but that's the vibe I get.

 

[Paladin Derich]

Idk I don't see this as an incel/foreveralone thing. I see this more as a typical California story thing where a young, handsome, intelligent, successful moves to Cali to pursue the dream, realizes superficial bullshit won't make him happy, and then falls ever deep into depravity and failure trying to recapture the initial high they got from their earlier success.

I could very well be wrong but that's the vibe I get.

Basically the mindset of a failed twitch thot.

 

[auxcord]

is someone going to buy his onlyfans? I won’t believe he’s actually gay until i see him giving a bj or taking 8 inches up the ass

 

[Wendy Wheelchair]

Wait, am I blind, or is he wearing shorts when he's "streaking"? How is that streaking if he's not naked?

I've seen some youtubers who are into psychedelics say shit like: I'm not saying this to bash psychedelics...
Well I am. Unless you literally explored every other option, don't do it. I hate how normalized some drugs are- in movies, hearsays, other media. I still think it shouldn't be illegal because you shouldn't go to jail for fucking up your life but I went from "oh people should do whatever they want as long as they don't harm anyone, teehee" to feeling absolute disgust when I hear psychonauts or weed users talk. Sure, many of them don't slip into insanity, but they still say dumb woohoo shit. Many of them can't go without mentioning how much they do their drug of choice, how amazing it actually is but the evil government...

I fucking hate it. Even taking something once, no matter whether you did so willingly or you were drugged by someone, can fuck with your brain and trigger panic disorder, psychosis, depression. Bonus bitter points if you were drugged against your will and then you have to suffer from having panic attacks every moment without medication because someone just "wanted to give you a good time". And even if you don't experience immediate issues, it will change you in the long run.
"You don't get it, maaaaan. The weed is making me, like, so creative and chiiill. It's such a myth that stoners are lazy too, I had the most interesting conversation the other day with a friend and I even wrote a poem." he said as he scratched his bloated gut dressed in sweat covered hoodie that smelled sour, surrounded by mess and overly expensive receipts from takeouts.

Drugs suck, they're risky and unless you have a terminal illness I'll always think less of you. Give me the hats.

Couldn't have said it better myself. Have been skimming this thread to see what this guy is all about. See a lot of the conversation being "actually it's the steroids, not the mind altering psychedelics that fucked him up" from people in denial about what they do to your brain. I think whether or not he's actually schizo is sort of besides the point now. Either way, he is either unable or unwilling to control his emotions. Hedonists will do anything to justify their own hedonism and it's becoming more and more normalized. This is what you'll get from that.

is someone going to buy his onlyfans? I won’t believe he’s actually gay until i see him giving a bj or taking 8 inches up the ass

See this post. I agree with @Real Gay Autist 's LPSG person's assessment that he's obviously an attention whore more than a cock whore.

 

[Xenomorph]

how many times will he get 51/50'd before there is a talk about a longer stay, possibly sectioned?

 

[MirnaMinkoff]

how many times will he get 51/50'd before there is a talk about a longer stay, possibly sectioned?

Unless he really physically hurts someone, probably years. Even if he does hurt someone jail far more likely than being sectioned. Think about how many batshit crazy people wander city streets every day in America. Their level of crazy doesn’t get them sectioned, so it won’t get Conner either.

Also, Conner needs to go broke and become eligible for Medicaid before most psychiatric inpatient facilities will keep him more than 48 hours.

 

[JuanButNotForgotten]

how many times will he get 51/50'd before there is a talk about a longer stay, possibly sectioned?

Well, looking at all the skitzocows we have here, it's either dozens or the entirety of them won't be enough.

 

[Reluctant MC]

Wait, am I blind, or is he wearing shorts when he's "streaking"? How is that streaking if he's not naked?

Couldn't have said it better myself. Have been skimming this thread to see what this guy is all about. See a lot of the conversation being "actually it's the steroids, not the mind altering psychedelics that fucked him up" from people in denial about what they do to your brain. I think whether or not he's actually schizo is sort of besides the point now. Either way, he is either unable or unwilling to control his emotions. Hedonists will do anything to justify their own hedonism and it's becoming more and more normalized. This is what you'll get from that.

See this post. I agree with @Real Gay Autist 's LPSG person's assessment that he's obviously an attention whore more than a cock whore.

Yes. I mean, people always talk about how important healthy lifestyle is for one's mental health- diet, sleep, activity, hell, even cleaning your place. But doing drugs "responsibly" or trying to find purpose with LSD can be very damaging? Naaaaah

 

[Squid Bitch]

He says that he hates most of the videos he makes, and that they're "so not fun," and yet...he continues making them.

Connor Murphy Eats Raw Fish Head While Ex-Girlfriend Gags

Also, Conner needs to go broke and become eligible for Medicaid before most psychiatric inpatient facilities will keep him more than 48 hours.

Considering the rate at which he's burning through his money, intentionally leaking his bank account information, and the fact that he's making himself completely unemployable, that day may yet come soon enough.